Simplicity Of My Complications

Apologise For Shouting

2009-03-06T08:12:00.003+08:00

did not mean it feel so tired really truly sorry will be your robot from now Acceptance - Different .. lyrics below. Tell myself, on the ride home. Getting tired, hating all I've known. Holding on, like it's all I have. Count me out, when it's clear that I, find it hard to say. And you, find it hard to care. I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me. Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me. Got this way, upfront but never true. God I'm wrong, it's just the way I am. Crashing down, any chance you hear. Caving in, any chance that you, could see inside of me. And I, I'll know what to say, It's fine. This isn't Hollywood. So fine, getting in your way. I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me. Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me. I'm taking a chance, this could be different. This could be all I'm waiting for. Taking a chance, this could be different. This could be all I'm waiting for. I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me. Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me. Something that's different (something that's different)

Bullets From Aftermath

2009-02-15T08:40:00.003+08:00

principals of management must be adaptive checked spelling please drafts saved never to be updated sent out today thank you for now diploma blues with communication skills microeconomics a way of life near the front of the harbour and we watch love dined then classes after that burger by the place of her Linkin Park - Valentine's Day .. lyrics below. My insides all turned to ash, so slow And blew away as I collapsed, so cold A black wind took them away, from sight And now the darkness over day, that night And the clouds above move closer Looking so dissatisfied But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing I used to be my own protection, but not now Cause my path has lost direction, somehow A black wind took you away, from sight And now the darkness over day, that night And the clouds above move closer Looking so dissatisfied And the ground below grew colder As they put you down inside But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing So now you're gone, and I was wrong I never knew what it was like, to be alone On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day (I used to be my own protection, but not now) On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day (Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow) On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day (I used to be my own protection, but not now) On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day (Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)

Testing One Two Eleven Twelve

2008-05-27T00:09:00.014+08:00

ok people
guess what

new laptop skin
pizza lucky plaza

as if he would tell
what the hell

happy eleventh
plus a year
additional two days

peace love
techno yes no

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
.. lyrics below.

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

*scat*

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
(there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours 2x

no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved
open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies
it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved...

Intake Eleven Bee Hive

2008-04-28T22:41:00.005+08:00

hello guess what paid by myself for this part tonight first day temasek polytechnic foundation programme every mondays and tuesdays until october these six freaking months seven to ten 28/04/08 diagnostic test 29/04/08 arithmetic - real numbers 05/05/08 grammar 1 06/05/08 ratio, percentage and proportion 12/05/08 grammar 2 13/05/08 approximations and standard form 23/05/08 paragraphing 1 20/05/08 arithmetic problems 26/05/08 paragraphing 2 27/05/08 arithmetic problems 02/06/08 composing process 1 03/06/08 simple financial transactions 09/06/08 composing process 2 10/06/08 area and volume 16/06/08 reading comprehension skills 1 17/06/08 area and volume 23/06/08 reading comprehension skills 2 24/06/08 algebraic expressions and algebraic fractions 30/06/08 note - taking 1 01/07/08 algebraic expressions and algebraic fractions 07/07/08 note - taking 2 08/07/08 linear equations 14/07/08 research skills 1 15/07/08 transformation of formulae 21/07/08 revision week 22/07/08 revision week 28/07/08 assessment test 1 29/07/08 assessment test 1 04/08/08 research skills 2 05/08/08 gradients and straight lines 1 11/08/08 research skills 3 12/08/08 gradients and straight lines 2 18/08/08 presentation skills 1 19/08/08 statistics 1 25/08/08 presentation skills 2 26/08/08 statistics 2 01/09/08 presentation skills 3 02/09/08 statistics 3 08/09/08 revision week 09/09/08 revision week 15/09/08 assessment test 2 16/09/08 assessment test 2 22/09/08 feedback and consultation week 23/09/08 feedback and consultation week 29/09/08 study week 06/10/08 examination what the hell like back to secondary school the teacher looks young with triple children aged three two one one credential examples as a lecturer from national university of singapore communications with craps who cares really laughs out loud zero questions by the many adults in class some were lost others found the room early typical singaporeans today close passage questions was given about vegetarians diet verses omnivores unprepared unrehearsed unrevised have to admit quite hard does anybody at first glance knows the meaning of the words incidence or nutrition by twenty two this year one of the youngest in class and he only got a simple before for english levels Me First And The Gimme Gimmes - Somewhere Over The Rainbow .. lyrics below. Somewhere over the rainbow way up high There's a land that I've heard of once in a lullaby Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up when the clouds are far Behind me Where troubles melt like lemon drops away above the chimney tops That's where you'll find me Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly Birds fly over the rainbow why then, oh why can't I? If happy little blue birds fly across the rainbow Why oh why can't me?

License To Fly In The Ocean

2008-04-09T22:46:00.005+08:00

never in my whole life actually documented any notes many scraps of books print out to paste copy files with tiles of stress for the past from last july until today finally made it steersman course theory pass yesterday oral plus today equal passed not past since thirty first march two zero zero eight on a monday he is officially licensed to drive a police vessel what is lookout what is safe speed what is risk of collision how do you navigate through a narrow channel how do you navigate through the traffic separation scheme what are the lights you see what are the sounds you hear the number of international flags the various actions to emergencies the height restrictions the port limits the picture cards being shown the two toy boats being seen plus many more hit and ruins the skies looked brighter the air smelt fresher the ground feels smooth now the end Dolores O'Riordan - Ordinary Day .. lyrics below. This is just an ordinary day Wipe the insecurities away I can see that the darkness will erode Looking out the corner of my eye I can see that the sunshine will explode Far across the desert in the sky Beautiful girl Won't you be my inspiration? Beautiful girl Don't you throw your love around What in the world, what in the world Could ever come between us? Beautiful girl, beautiful girl I'll never let you down Won't let you down This is the beginning of your day Life is more intricate than it seems Always be yourself along the way Living through the spirit of your dreams Beautiful girl Won't you be my inspiration? Beautiful girl Don't you throw your love around What in the world, what in the world Could ever come between us? Beautiful girl, beautiful girl I'll never let you down Won't let you down Down, down...

A Mad Dash Of The Old

2008-03-24T08:52:00.005+08:00

yesterday spent walking in china date to find her elusive butterfly belt instead made quite a few stops along second handed stuff amazed initial quoted price was ninety dollars really cheated the old auntie got this for seventy five dollars no accessories release date september nineteen ninety three thirty five to eighty millimeters zoom lens manual have automatic uses film with built flash cool for those budget consious why not digital because special attention required not everything can just be deleted away dream come true laughs out loud the generous lady treated long john silver include cheese fries amazing random repercussions

A High Five Days Ago

2008-03-10T13:14:00.005+08:00

she went to vietnam already for youth enrichment programme taking care of intellectually disabled kids each single day missed badly listening to squeaky voice from the phone usual daily quiet stuff from yourself somehow or rather it is quite silent here sorry for ever making a hard time when you are at past around for being not understandable turning and reapeating your words back teasing just for a fun debate really by the way a day ago got some jeans eighty percent off cut do smile more for lady style welcome home gift for the suffering anxiously waiting for ten days later come home soon do take care there it gets a little bit lonely maybe teary in sunny singapore daily favourite chewable ears perfumed smell from lazy bathing his soul and cherished confidante juliana bte johari Hedley - For The Nights I Can't Remember .. lyrics below. I see it in the way you would do When no one else could ever get through Holding back till I come around and Time again you wait for me to come in And did you really look my way? Cuz no one coulda seen this coming I would never let you down If I was running backwards in full time So I can and I will and you'll see your hero come running Over and over tonight And I do wanna love you If you see me running back And I do wanna try Because if falling for you girl is crazy Then I'm going out of my mind So hold back your tears this time Me, I'm used to being tired and bloody But you believed that I could be somebody You put your world on hold for me Gave away to follow failure through the fire I need you to know I will Believe me girl I'm so tired of running I just wanna hold your hand Stare at you like you've got everything I need And I can so I will and you'll see your hero come running Over and over tonight And I do wanna love you If you see me running back And I do wanna try Because if falling for you girl is crazy Then I'm going out of my mind So hold back your tears this time And what if I never said to you I was dynamite And what if I never told you I'm afraid to cry What if I never let you down And said I'm sorry for the nights I can't remember What if I never said to you I would try Yeah Yeah Yeaahh And I do wanna love you (If you see me running back) And I do wanna try Because if falling for you girl is crazy Then I'm going out of my mind So hold back your tears this time Hold back your tears this time Ooooh Ooooh

Video Rodeo Today And Tomorrow

2008-02-29T14:48:00.006+08:00

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grown worse
plain lazy
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Moments Of Broken Substitutes

2008-01-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

sad to say his mentor gave up on him whose curiosity got the kick in the ass the basic knowledge was poor fast questions with slow answers just cannot be bothered some logistics job was handed down nobody truly listens why is such a hateful one word how was such a stupid three letters she work part of her time today money really plays a part he could not even raise his anger when all just need a listening ear hourly calls only but never even tried to message such simple actions so troublesome please just give up on me world peace is needed care bear stare Chiodos - Intensity In Ten Cities .. lyrics below. I'm not the one that you want, I'll only let you down. And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on. And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for my...' I think it's every time I walk into a room a silence so sudden that I seem to hear it (Smiles turn to frowns) Contact saying that you are the rain on their parade. And how long could you hang on to a word? Tell me, how long could you hang on to a word? I'm not the one that you want, I'll only let you down. And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on. And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself' Or maybe it's all eyes on him in love with ego and intention the eyes that are just begging me for more. This is gone and I can see it your head is full of words, full of words that don't mean anything. And how long could you hang on to a word? Tell me, how long could you hang on to a word? I'm not the one that you want, I'll always let you down. And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on. And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself' I'm not the one that you want, I'll always let you down. And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on. And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself' If that's how you feel, then what's there to do? I'll keep this feeling in my heart but when you look in my eyes, you will know the truth.

The Eight Ball Keeps Rolling

2008-01-12T08:15:00.000+08:00

in the beginning we all change someday some expect more then others a little kind patience is needed when honest anger is released truly expected to be pacified instead observed equal treatment please shut up and listen a hungry man is angry dont't feed him with understanding reasons such as this or that bring a sweet and give him a pat who really cares anyway to listen to some feeling being bottled up free hugs will do nicely the more you sleep the further we will be the end eventually Until June - Sleepless .. lyrics below Oehhh-oehhhh-ooehhh Oh, when you were young Did you ever love someone So much you couldn’t bare the thought of losing them Well I remember the sleepless nights When I’d lie awake If only I could tell you how I feel Oehhh-oehhhh-ooehhh Sleepless at night Oehhh-oehhhh-ooehhh Well I remember the sleeplessnights Oehhhh-oehhh-ooehhh Sleepless at night Well I would walk around the earth To have another chance with you Spend the evening, paining thoughts of all you do Well I remember the sleeplesnights When I’d lie awake If only I could tell you how I feel Oehhh-oehhhh-ooehhh Sleepless at night Oehhh-oehhhh-ooehhh Well I remember the sleeplessnights Oehhhh-oehhh-ooehhh Sleepless at night Sleepless at niiight Have you ever loved someone? Hard to fiiind Have you ever loved someone? Could you ever love someone? Ohnoooo Oehhh-oehhhh-ooehhh Well I remember the sleeplesnights When I’d lie awake Fix me I’m on my own Well I remember the sleeplesnights When I’d lie awake Fix me I’m on my own Well I remember the sleeplesnights When I’d lie awake Fix me I’m on my own Well I remember the sleeplesnights When I’d lie awake If only I could tell you how I feel

Laugh The Last Breathe

2007-11-01T13:20:00.000+08:00

took a picture of sunset
first time felt this calm
on board a vessel
guess dreams do really come true
when work being put aside
well smile already

Factorial Reasons Being

2007-10-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

huge flaws with big imperfections but what sets instead was someone who cared to patiently stay for the moment worldly goodbye myself then forever from now onwards

No Feelings Due To Many Fast Kisses

2007-10-20T16:22:00.000+08:00

Mandy Moore - Umbrella .. slowly below. You had my heart And we'll never be worlds apart Maybe in magazines But you'll still be my star Baby cause in the Dark You can see shiny Cars That's when you need me there With you I'll always share Because... When the sun shines We'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be your friend Took an oath I'mma stick it out 'till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Told you we still have each other You can stand under my Umbrella You can stand under my Umbrella (Ella ella eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella eh eh) These fancy things, Will never come in between You're my entity Here for Infinity When the war has took it's part When the world has dealt it's cards If the hand is hard Together we'll mend your heart Because... When the sun shines We'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be your friend Took an oath I'mma stick it out 'till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Told you we still have each other You can stand under my Umbrella You can stand under my Umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella You can run into my Arms That's okay don't be alarmed (Come into Me) (There's no distance in between our love) Gonna let the rain pour I'll be all you need and more ooohh Because... When the sun shines We'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be your friend Took an oath I'mma stick it out 'till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Told you we still have each other You can stand under my Umbrella You can stand under my Umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) It's raining Ooo baby it's raining (raining) Baby come into me Come into me It's raining Ooo baby it's raining Come into me Come into me

A Festive Leaves Gets Taken

2007-10-16T15:21:00.000+08:00

Black Lab - This Night .. composed below. There are things I have done. There’s a place I have gone. There’s a beast and I let it run now it’s running my way. There are things I regret that you can’t forgive you can’t forget. There’s a gift that you sent you sent it my way. So take this night and wrap it around me like a sheet. I know I’m not forgiven but I need a place to sleep. So take this night and lay me down on the street. I know I’m not forgiven but I hope that I’ll be given some peace. There’s a game that I played. There are rules I had to break. There’s mistakes that I made but I made them my way. So take this night and wrap it around me like a sheet. I know I’m not forgiven but I need a place to sleep. So take this night and lay me down on the street. I know I’m not forgiven but I hope that I’ll be given some peace. Some peace, some peace.

Feelings From A Fat Astronaut Called Slim

2007-10-10T11:08:00.000+08:00

Natasha Bedingfield - The Scientist .. pills below. Come up to meet you, Tell you I'm sorry You don't know how lovely you are I had to find you, Tell you I need you And tell you I set you apart Tell me your secrets, And ask me your questions Oh let's go back to the start Running in circles, Coming up tails Heads on a silence apart Nobody said it was easy It's such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be this hard Oh take me back to the start I was just guessing at numbers and figures Pulling the puzzles apart Questions of science, science and progress Do not speak as loud as my heart And tell me you love me, Come back and hold me Oh and I rush to the start Running in circles, Chasing tails Coming back as we are Nobody said it was easy Oh it's such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be so hard I'm going back to the start Aah oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Aah oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Aah oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Aah oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Whatever Maybe But Not Today

2007-10-04T14:22:00.000+08:00

Avril Lavigne - Tomorrow .. lyrics below. And I Wanna Believe You When You Tell Me That It Will Be Okay Ya, I Try To Believe You But I Don't When you say that it's gonna be It always turns out to be a different way I try to believe you Not today, today, today, today, today I don't know how I'll feel Tomorrow (tomorrow) Tomorrow (tomorrow) I don't know what to say Tomorrow (tomorrow) Tomorrow is a different day Its always been up to you It's turning around, it's up to me I'm gonna do what I have to do Just don't Give me a little time Leave me alone a little while Maybe its not too late Not today, today, today, today, today I don't know how I'll feel Tomorrow (tomorrow) Tomorrow (tomorrow) I don't know what to say Tomorrow (tomorrow) Tomorrow is a different day Hey, yeah, yeah Hey, yeah, yeah And I know I'm not ready Hey, yeah, yeah Hey, yeah, yeah Maybe tomorrow Hey, yeah, yeah Hey, yeah, yeah I'm not ready Hey, yeah, yeah Hey, yeah, yeah Maybe tomorrow And I wanna believe you When you tell me that it will be okay Ya, I try to believe you Not today, today, today, today, today Tomorrow it may change Tomorrow it may change Tomorrow it may change Tomorrow it may change

Two Divided By Two Plus A Decade

2007-05-25T23:32:00.001+08:00

equals the number eleven wonderful months with the lady my sleepy baby small heartless bittersweet goodness love

Some Tick And Other Tock

2007-05-11T22:40:00.001+08:00

talked about the future ahead tired felt dead police day parade two thousand and seven attending this year studies mixed with training what a batch

Marine Policing Course

2007-05-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

it's been a week or maybe a couple of weeks sentosa island dormitories and free food heaven or hell loads of navigational studies

As It Becomes Substance

2007-05-01T22:11:00.001+08:00

monday tuesday wednesday bones public holiday a short day off labour day spent with the love studying our stuff her tutorials his nauticals past three days learnt about knots crash course brain dead ~ thailand pineapple fried rice at nearest coffee shop.

Farewell With Another Decade Back

2007-04-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

one two three four five six seven eight nine rewind ten months on a wednesday closed to the middle of the week much love to the sweetheart juliana bte johari for those early sleepy morning calls for those reminders to pack by this simply lazy boyfriend whose first week of training passed facts with figures ahead brady bunch split into squad zero two zero seven meaning the second of the whole financial year instead of bunks it was called dormitories named after the various recreational islands all around singapore truthfully speaking sentosa was the word stated on the door basically realising sentosa was the place to sleep in discipline with much theories to boot have reboot the mechanical mind learned much with little to spare different life saving appliances parts of a ship what to do in case of emergencies man overboard or fire ecetra the points noted down in a tiny black notebook were just too little to spare morning runs four to seven kilometres delicious fatty food packed catered for last but not least a four metre jump off a platform into the waters with depth of ten metres deep MxPx - Wrecking Hotel Rooms .. lyrics below. I wrecked your hotel room I crashed up the car Slept in the gutter I'm outside your door Saw you through the key hole Down on your knees There's really no reason to call the police Do you hold the phone when you're alone Imagine that it rings then hold it to your ear And wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep Be with you in your dreams for the days I will be gone I'll be there in your dreams and in this song I know you don't know me 'Cause we've never met I'm not really crazy So don't get upset I've got all these problems None with solutions Been in and out of some nice institutions Do you hold the phone when you're alone Imagine that it rings then hold it to your ear And wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep Be with you in your dreams for the days I will be gone I'll be there in your dreams and in this song I'll be there in your dreams and in this song Do you hold the phone when you're alone Imagine that it rings then hold it to your ear And wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep Be with you in your dreams for the days I will be gone I'll be there in your dreams and in this song I'll be there in your dreams and in this song I'll be there in your dreams and in this song I'll be there in your dreams and in this song I'll be there in your dreams and in this song .. and it keeps repeating. ~ such a vicious circle.

Bases On Board A Ship

2007-04-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

this very first moment of report made new aquintances with similar regulars bulkheads are actually walls while on the sea met up with the jolly commander police coast guard the others were simply a happy bunch while the youngest was yours truly staff assistant didn't do proper adminstration of photographs had a look had a see had a touch had a feel of the life of what's going to be regional or coastal patrol squadron basic modes of navigation by the way singapore is a tiny country has many cameras all around the zoom is like the boom clear as a plastic sheet from a mile away avoid being an illegal immigrant three months of training marine policing course starting twenty third april ~ set sails.

Bless Those Miracles

2007-04-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

another sunshine steps taken simple yet moved bunny caught this movie with the significant other the reaping as it was called signs of the end of the world some holy feelings ~ above.

Loans On Debit Paid

2007-04-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

trip to the divisional headquaters some adminstrative returns bleak melodious rerun cherries bus pass arms card baton card welfare card please sign along the dotted line to simply receive the one and only identity card Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without The E (Cut From The Team) .. what goes on below. Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel I know exactly what goes on When everything you'll get is everything that you've wanted, princess (well which would you prefer) My finger on the trigger, or (me face down, down across your floor) Me face down, down across your floor (me face down, down across your floor) Well just so long as this thing's loaded And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinking, this all was only wishful thinking And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinking, this all was only wishful thinking let's go... Don't bother trying to explain Angel I know exactly what goes on when you're on and How about I'm outside of your window (how about I'm outside of your window) Watching him keep the details covered You're such a sucker (you're such a sucker) for a sweet talker, yeah And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinking, this all was only wishful thinking (the only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back) And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinking, this all was only wishful thinking Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins I will never ask if you don't ever tell me I know you well enough to know you'll never love me Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins I will never ask if you don't ever tell me I know you well enough to know you'll never love me Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins I will never ask if you don't ever tell me I know you well enough to know... Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you? Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you? And all of this was all your fault And all of this (Makes things worse) I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life (she'll destroy us all before she's through and find a way to blame somebody else) I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life (she'll destroy us all before she's through and find a way to blame somebody else) I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason I just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life! .. got this thought in the mind. acoustic version above working memories went passed below ~ national service served for one year and five months only.

An Entrance Into Another Eclipse

2007-04-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

once been said sold the soul to some evil much choices was made duck once stated in the letter once official day of appointment today seven thirty arrived in the morning mixed feelings in some far place fingerprinting done in an instant ink rolled onto every single finger even palms included both left with right earlier was the first to arrive in the end was the youngest of the batch after a short break towards the alpha canteen ten thirty was the sealed signed moment with a headed chop service number zero seven double one eight easy one to remember lucky western seven with asian eight left in the early afternoon fled towards the location of the course a day ahead second day just to receive certification named which had been said before ~ the police coast guard is a specialist unit.

Felt Tip Markers On Paper

2007-04-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

some handful of straws were given the facilitator acted as a shark prevention of any items falling into the makeshift river teacher plastic bridges were built lessons were learnt first day of the sent courses solo failure is just a minor setback divided into clusters of four individual pair on one side to cross the imaginary lines a light box was the goal ~ the picture above says all.

Clear Waters Above Magnification

2007-04-07T23:21:00.001+08:00

early morning it happened carried a bag or two drizzled half away in the afternoon seats an island went for the first moment across the imaginary bridge into the sky train on the third level some couple of cards tapped amongst the hidden glow packed glutinous rice from local malay traditional restraurant some sweet lady above kindly cooked some delicious fish nuggets or was it fillet brought from home seated in the middle of weekend bikini babes getaways not to mention the volleyball hunks splish splashed for a short soaked maximum tanned was the opposite of the first photobooth left right center down here nor there or anywhere full of sandy eclipse Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On .. secretive words below. you're not alone together we stand i'll be by your side, you know i'll take your hand when it gets cold and it feels like the end there's no place to go you know i won't give in no i won't give in keep holding on 'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through just stay strong 'cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you there's nothing you could say nothing you could do there's no other way when it comes to the truth so keep holding on 'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through so far away i wish you were here before it's too late, this could all disappear before the doors close and it comes to an end with you by my side i will fight and defend i'll fight and defend yeah, yeah keep holding on 'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through just stay strong 'cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you there's nothing you could say nothing you could do there's no other way when it comes to the truth so keep holding on 'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through hear me when i say, when i say i believe nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah la da da da la da da da la da da da da da da da da keep holding on 'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through just stay strong 'cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you there's nothing you could say nothing you could do there's no other way when it comes to the truth so keep holding on 'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through keep holding on keep holding on there's nothing you could say nothing you could do there's no other way when it comes to the truth so keep holding on 'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through .. just simply for you to know. ~ there were some downtown lucky tourists out today.

Harlequin Exchanged

2007-04-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

practically last time reporting for monthly gatherings full of the same teams from similiar land sectors talks of courses with tea breaks in between poles went in service today at the divisional headquarters the training department organised talks on corruption the rise of immoral employees in blue in came the landslide of sad behaviours an inspiration to cleanse the soul perhaps that's enough almighty said with reference to the entry read some seven thingy sinful questions from there gone past ~ 7 random facts about me * whose name means brightest in arabic culture * interchangeable with words obsession * the atmosphere of silence feels intolerable * susceptible to the changes of tones * mandarin certified language speaker * fetish with open-ended conversations * constant contemplation feeds a gemini's thoughts ~ 7 things i'm afraid of * latin; luxuria, gula, avaritia, acedia, ira, invidia, supervia. * those who lose hope in the choices of words given * true fear is not an option to be shared wisely * signing a fullstop before the journey even began * a tiny piece of mind blown out of proportions * sharing the insides of the male tiny throbbing heart * stuff when an introvert faced with forced directions ~ 7 random songs * Damien Rice - Volcano ( Lyrics / Video ) * Pixies - Is She Weird ( Lyrics / Video ) * Joseph Arthur - In The Sun ( Lyrics / Video ) * Alkaline Trio - Time To Waste ( Lyrics / Video ) * Imogen Heap - Goodnight And Go ( Lyrics / Video ) * Louis XIV - Finding Out True Love Is Blind ( Lyrics / Video ) * She Wants Revenge - Out Of Control ( Lyrics / Video ) ~ 7 things i love * instant flavours that tantalizes the unknowing tastebuds * windy felt fields next to cool sandy beaches * personal conversation with the significant other * reminiscing the good old days among friends * a short moment with the family * finding lost issues after cursing the blues away * music is universal no matter how the eardrums shatters ~ 7 things i say the most * straightforward simply unrecorded * dumbfounds the individual who rarely listens * narcistic yet mildly misunderstood * verifies in different tones and textures * last minute discussion is a must * just a magnified version from inside the mind * final conclusion will not serve any purpose ~ 7 people to do this * Ain, Juliana, KeHin, Nuraqilah, Nurizzati, Roslina, You. * just drop by a tag or two especially you then enough being said whose impersonal services rendered as just a means of continued relaxation away ~ from boredom.

Jester Gone Juggling

2007-04-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

couple of days ago last time sceduled for shifts two nights with consecutive days seats lets keep it simply enough last moment serving national service long lasting days had been working the patrols complemented the arrests supervisors against complaints From Team Bravo Graduation Status: * Senior Station Inspector(2) Tang * Station Inspector Azni * Senior Staff Sergeant Mohd Shariff * Senior Staff Sergeant Ricky Goh * Staff Sergeant Wong Jia Haur * Staff Sergeant Saw Kian Hock * Sergeant Patrick Lim * Sergeant Suhaimi * Sergeant Mohd Fadzli * Sergeant Joanne Chua * Corporal Farhana * Special Constable Corporal Hanis * Special Constable Corporal Anuar from february 2006 to march 2007 the short period posted in land division few moments at the counter hidden proof once in national service neighbourhood police centre officer taken magnified no more We Are Scientists - The Great Escape .. plans below. making my escape making my escape tell myself that everything's in shape everything's in shape but me how long can this take how long can this take tell myself that everything is great everything is great well how'm i doing? i gotta great idea i'm gonna wait right here i gotta great idea i'm gonna wait right here while everything is adding up, up, up everything is adding up, up, up breaking both my hands breaking both my hands telling me to take it like a man take it like a man i can't i don't understand i don't understand please repeat whatever you just said nothing's making sense well how'm i doing? i gotta great idea i'm gonna wait right here i gotta great idea i'm gonna wait right here while everything is adding up, up, up everything is adding up, up, up they're breaking both my hands they're breaking both my hands and telling me to take it like a man and take it like a man well fuck that i don't understand said i don't understand so please repeat whatever you just said 'cause nothing's making sense well how'm i doing? i gotta great idea i'm gonna wait right here i gotta great idea i'm gonna wait right here while everything is adding up, up, up everything is adding up, up, up .. it was all true for now. prelude from black and white until in technicolor sprays ~ and the story continues.

Animated Hamster With Tortises

2007-03-28T22:41:00.001+08:00

around the corner saving time for the coroner silent laughter through the evening games teenage mutant ninja turtles great outlined graphics must watch an individual said dinner in the east silver fried seafood with fries ~ cowabunga!

Ran Into Homeopathic Dilution

2007-03-27T15:21:00.000+08:00

figure the meaning above not a single time to waste silence words being typed at a pace buttons a day before received huge white package ahead insides full of mysterious tender legally bound unlike leather stated the acceptance letter home team academy fingerprinting the tenth of april two thousand seven regular intake permanent scheme the sixteenth of april two thousand seven reporting into unit or division that's all about so far work's within these few weeks future's somehow building stability Ben Kweller - Penny On The Train Track .. waited words below. I'm just a penny on the train track Waitin' for my judgement day Come on baby girl let me see those legs Before I get flattened away I wait Yeah, I wait For something good, for something great Stoppin' in somebody's old home town Gotta get that midnight meal If you can't get behind your own life Get behind the driving wheel And go, just go Find a place that you don't know Ran into a friend just the other night Got a badge, he's a local cop Haven't seen that boy in over seven years Since out of high school I dropped I see, I see All the things that I should be Oh baby dance with me! Even lucky man has a bad day And pretty girl has a scar After that train comes and takes me away Pick up that guitar And play, just play Play that rock and roll for me He's in the yard just washin' his car Thinkin' 'bout his pretty wife Makin' lemonade with the kitchen aid Makin' him a perfect life And it's grim, so dim When you wish that you were just like him I'm just a penny on the train track Waitin' for my judgement day Come on baby girl let me see those legs Before I get flattened away I wait, I wait For something good, for something great And I try, oh I try I can't stop, I don't know why .. finally it came after all those months of waiting. ~ slowly stepping through the many doors of life.

Time In Saves Nine Stitches

2007-03-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

morning in the cool gym afternoon by the esplanade night by the individual sides sign beyond the imaginary lines exercised the movements lies another circle or is it a square chocolate panda take one two three minus the bus off to the central for a simple joyride melted in the warm sun refreshing plain drink from the pink tumbler free cadbury from nestle brand footsteps passed white washed galleries marina bay of tiny country singapore big digital photography accomplishment wait till this hopefully neverending caramel story ends the ninth picture tells the series ~ numbered happy months ahead.

In The Middle Of Sanity

2007-03-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

something unexpected arised such commemorative thoughts hidden radioactive purposes martial so the freaking rumours were true yours truly did achieved something out from these service of nationality not one but two really awesome Bedok Police Division COMMANDER'S AWARD Presented to SC/Cpl Anuar Bin Othman Team Testimonial For Good Arrest From September 2006 - November 2006 Superintendent Lim Kok Thai Commander Bedok Police Division ~~speechless and content~~ Bedok Police Division COMMANDER'S AWARD Presented to SC/Cpl Anuar Bin Othman Team Testimonial For Good Arrest From December 2006 - February 2007 Superintendent Lim Kok Thai Commander Bedok Police Division has been written in the certificates simply motivated to try harder till the end of these memories Bayside - Blame It On Bad Luck .. lucky words below. Pound my knuckles hard against the floor. My head against the wall. But I did this to myself. Assume it's just not worth getting back up, so I'll blame it on bad luck. And I'll shake responsibility. I spent some time in a bad place at 18, wishing I could see something through clear eyes. Do you ever wake up to realize that your life is meaningless? Does it give you strength or lead you to your grave at a young age? Pound my knuckles hard against the floor. My head against the wall. But I did this to myself. Assume it's just not worth getting back up, so I'll blame it on bad luck. And I'll shake responsibility. It seems that when I ran away from my past all my dignity, my faith, my pride got left back. And now I think it's time that I realize self pity's meaningless. Though I'm 10 feet deep, I'll claw my way back out from in my grave. Pound my knuckles hard against the floor. My head against the wall. But I did this to myself. Assume it's just not worth getting back up, So I'll blame it on bad luck. And I'll shake responsibility. And say a hard life did this to me. Now I realize, I'd give anything I have to walk a day in my old shoes. Wondering what my first smoke would be like, my first fuck, my next fuck up. Or the next band that would change my life and it changed my life and it changed my life. Pound my knuckles hard against the floor. My head against the wall. But I did this to myself. Assume it's just not worth getting back up, So I'll blame it on bad luck. And I'll shake responsibility. And say a hard life did this to me. .. truly a hard life that did this. ~ salutations to those kind people out there.

Look Into The Twin Shoes

2007-03-19T17:34:00.000+08:00

blue plain ocean design with laughter the opposite of needed listening fun silence happened when the oldest partnered with the youngest whilst doing twilight supervisory patrol screened a male subject right under the residence faked an exercise with an excuse to ran wanted for desertion from national service speaking of the underlined word above just feels a bit lonely under the weather been half an afternoon with minor checkups simply skipped how was lunch doing towards probably the late evening first few priorities maybe sometimes the tiny stuff that matters if said will sound like noise especially to the sensitive ears ~~eleven hundred hours~~ ~~twelve hundred hours~~ ~~thirteen hundred hours~~ ~~fourteen hundred hours~~ ~~fifteen hundred hours~~ ~~sixteen hundred hours~~ windows live messenger a nudge here nor there life is simplicity if only the tables turned on each and somehow another way ~~seventeen hundred hours~~ ~~eighteen hundred hours~~ ~~nineteen hundred hours~~ ~~twenty hundred hours~~ ~~twenty one hundred hours~~ ~~twenty two hundred hours~~ assuming a predictable answer ~~closed passage questions~~ a fullstop to a how an end to a series hopefully not as true bored nimble fingers without a tired voice to be heard The Hives - Hate To Say I Told You So .. lyrics below. Do what I want cause I can and if I don't because I wanna be ignored by the stiff and the bored because I'm gonna. Spit and retrieve cause I give and receive because I wanna gonna get through your head what the mystery man said because I'm gonna. Hate to say I told you so. I do believe I told you so. Now it's all out and you knew cause I wanted to. Turn my back on the rot that's been planning the plot - because I'm gonna. No need for me to wait - because I wanna. No need two, three and too late - because I'm gonna. Hate to say I told you so. I do believe I told you so. Do what I please gonna spread the disease because I wanna gonna call all the shots for the "No"s and the "Not"s because I wanna. Ask me once I'll answer twice cause what I know I'll tell because I wanna. Sound device and lots of ice I'll spell my name out loud because I wanna, oh yeah. .. a.n.u.a.r.m.i.s.s.e.d.j.u.l.i.a.n.a.'s.i.n.t.u.i.t.i.o.n. ~ goodnight in advance.

Misappropriation With Solids And Stripes

2007-03-16T09:45:00.000+08:00

visible situations half of an intuition exercises with big screens round the day before simple pool at lucky plaza just enough said she owned his game of three ~ relieved in winning mode.

That Sudden Shaking Feeling

2007-03-06T16:08:00.001+08:00

invisible text ahead too much words unread shall never left unsaid views the boyfriend needs and wishes some care and concern too a hope that the girlfriend would one fine day stop her buzy doing in a second to simply listen to his bickering without any comments Dashboard Confessional - Again I Go Unnoticed .. hidden lyrics below. So quiet. Another wasted night The television steals the conversation. Exhale. Another wasted breath again it goes unnoticed. Please tell me you're just feeling tired, cause if it's more than that I fear that I might break. Out of touch. Out of time. Please send me anything but signals that are mixed, cause I can't read your rolling eyes. Out of touch. Are we out of time? Closed lipped another goodnight kiss is robbed of all its passion. Your thrill another time to slack has left me feeling empty Please tell me you're just feeling tired, cause if it's more than that I feel that I might break. Out of touch. Out of time Please send me anything but signals that are mixed, cause I can't read your rolling eyes. Out of touch. Are we out of time? I'll wait until tomorrow. Maybe you'll feel better then, maybe we'll be better then. So what's another day when I can't bear these nights of thoughts of going on without you? This mood of yours is temporary. It seems worth the wait to see you smile again. Out of the corner of my eye won't be the only way you're looking at me then. So quiet. Another wasted night the television steals the conversation. Exhale. Another wasted breath again it goes unnoticed. .. an exhale while the country's having a tiny earthquake. ~ stuck in suspension mode.

Adultery Employment

2007-03-02T13:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday felt so confident such feelings never came across never to romeo patrol the streets channel the team leader stared gives a personal opinion worth much precious in a century " anuar, since you're joining the police coast guard soon. remember, do keep up with the tasks that's being given to you. because, the supervisors there can just delegate the job to anyone. once, they have a negative impression your future is instantly bleak " Brand New - The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows .. silent lyrics below. We saw the western coast. I saw the hospital. Nurse the shoreline like a wound. Reports of lover's tryst. Were neither clear nor descript. We kept it safe and slow. The quiet things that no one ever knows. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Then today's the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and capitals. I contemplate the day away. Your friends are boring me to death. Your veil is ruined in the rain. By then you like to do without. There's nothing new to talk about. And though our kids are blessed, the parents let them shoulder all the blame. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Today's the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and capitals. I lie for only you. And I lie well. Halleluh. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Today's the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and capitals. .. whose words are not wasted on deaf ears. both in accoustic and live. ~ many thanks kind sir for those encouraging comments.

The Magical Eight Ball Realisation

2007-02-26T07:44:00.001+08:00

if life in the future was this very simple examination period with related work sunshine pleasant melodies and a day later numbered simply to say after these many months sweet adorable honey makes the blues turned pink Amber Pacific - Gone So Young .. just read the words below. I never dreamt it'd be this way I've lost any chance for me to say To say that I miss you, say that I love you Will someone please tell me I'm okay I wasn't prepared for what's to come A life made of memories gone so young And now I'm regretting all I've done But in your heart know that I'm with you all along Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright I'm in your heart tonight I never thought that this could go And take me away from all I know And leave me to think I'm on my own But your love will take me, you were the one... ...Who sat through nights You held me tight And made sure I'm okay And I thank you for the love you gave to me Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright I'm in your heart tonight... Tonight... Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright And if I should fall, I know you're waiting And if I should call, I know you're there If ever you cry just know I'm in your heart tonight... I'm in your heart tonight. .. tonight and the next morning too. ~ happy revised edition of us.

Some Classic Scene Style Satisfaction

2007-02-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

the lady bought a new spectacles with some tiny blinks on the side the look of emotional kids shadow an early afternoon day out frame collections near queensway levi's jeans is not the issue to keep it simple short distance in a bus trip huge city of central vivo third storey movie tickets ghost rider cool effects makes cartoons seemed real

Four Small Letters Ahead

2007-02-14T16:36:00.000+08:00

the menu was in the morning before the night of rushing just a pink balloon on the green transparent file crimson a caution shiny blinking warning found beautiful minty shots below regarding to the one being captured sweet nevertheless forced to be taken snap with cut and retaken once again late break to fast the lunch with candid in some initial plan noticed the eyebags from the day before the surprised success instead of revision tea with lemon flavour is huge in comparison blast of courtesy from the managers and staff canadian swensen's in the point of the north some quaint little place in a tiny shopping centre behold the long flow of laughter cup against mug the half of a day before cool delicious sour taste white chocolate blondie salsa beef burger sirloin steak pure smile advertisment on towards the next moment in question quick finished with our late introduction melted stuffy goodness sadly these are not real two dimensions right now on a screen lick the keyboards if feeling hungry this point of reading feel the soft mouse clicks robotic arcade the next gush of wind inside a photobooth seemingly no doubt years later will say once in a blue moon cashless transaction he would still be as content the days after without any gourmet with just simply her alone Corinne Bailey Rae - Like A Star .. musical below. Just like a star across my sky, just like an angel off the page, you have appeared to my life, feel like I'll never be the same, just like a song in my heart, just like oil on my hands, Oh, I do love you Still i wonder why it is, I don't argue like this, with anyone but you, we do it all the time, blowing out my mind, You've got this look i can't describe, you make me feel like I'm alive, when everything else is au fait, without a doubt you're on my side, heaven has been away too long, can't find the words to write this song of your love, Still i wonder why it is, I don't argue like this, with anyone but you, we do it all the time, blowing out my mind, Now i have come to understand, the way it is, It's not a secret anymore, 'cause we've been through that before, from tonight I know that you're the only one, I've been confused and in the dark, now I understand, Yeah-yeah Oooh......Ooohhhh.. I wonder why it is, I don't argue like this, with anyone but you, I wonder why it is, I wont let my guard down, for anyone but you we do it all the time, blowing out my mind, Just like a star across my sky, just like an angel off the page, you have appeared to my life, feel like I'll never be the same, just like a song in my heart, just like oil on my hands. .. for my only star on a very clear night. ~ enough said; l o v e.

The Honey Golden Advertisments

2007-02-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

please watch this during dinner the time earlier then supper just cooked to simple perfection engrossed it just cannot get any opposite of worse the malaysian chicken rice shop in the city of vivo basement walls with floors of the late evening where the ice lemon tea is bigger then the glass of pepsi by an inch hers and his by a singapore dollar the spread was great galore taste of sweet vegetables some side dish menu for two learnt to avoid eating the garnishes cameras and cream it was but a single dream

A Tiny Coin Toss

2007-02-08T23:16:00.001+08:00

some may say time is precious yet simple calculations made it a waste so just throw aside those watches with keys breathe fine days before ahead personal problems felt with the weight a glimpse at the modern tests needed to practice for the gold natural mental endurance ahead ~ enough said with a note to self found in accident; in the words of Fr. Pedro Arrupe, SJ: THE RIGHT PERSON? During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind. Here's the answer. EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... because it's happening TO YOU. People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that ___expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU. Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage. At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND. SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the ___expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can "make" love. Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... not just a feeling. .. easier said then done these wise people. (tagged.sealed.opened.enlightened.)

Say Physical Chaste

2007-02-05T18:35:00.001+08:00

the clinic gave a small plastic bottle go to the toilet fill it half of full passed past interviews to examination today check letter received to attend these sweet good news simply selected hope it all was not a waste in the morning at eight thirty raffles medical clinic in the heart of singapore * x-ray * eye-check * dental-wait * lung-heard * body-poked by a young female doctor with many nurses work was skipped today silent apologies to the team but towards full percentage journey to join as a regular Clazziquai - Dance .. dedication to those who seems to be chasing after time.

눈물을 닦아내지 않길 그의 길에 비가 되어 내리도록 미소를 환히 보여주길 그의 길에 빛이 되어 내리도록 어둠이 사라지면 구름이 지나가면 이제 눈물은 걷고 사랑스런 미소만 can you ever understand and you're always on my heart put your arms around my soul till I get to you Dance now (hold your breath) don't you cry take my hand, hold your breath, the night is young dance now (hold your breath) show your smile take my hand, hold your tears, the love is young 슬픔이 밀려오려 해도 take my hand, and dance with me, so you can see 이별이 영원하지 않길 set you free, to be with me, so you can see 뚜뚜 뚜루뚜... Dance now (hold your breath) don't you cry take my hand, hold your breath, the night is young dance now (hold your breath) show your smile take my hand, hold your tears, the love is young 서로 이제 더 이상 만날 수 없다는 그런 생각하며 후회하지는 말길
이제 때가 다가와 나의 여행 끝에서 to be with me so you can finally see Dance now don't you cry take my hand, hold your breath, the night is young dance now show your smile take my hand, hold your tears, the love is young

.. some relaxing korean jazz to smoothe the soul. ~ just chill to the rhythm and whispers.

Major Cases The Day Before

2007-02-02T14:36:00.001+08:00

private family disputes grocery products being stolen printed statements recorded survive short and simple news one of the worst yesterday missed tired down felt vans and drivers a rush to the head first day of the second month after six days of rest i'm afraid to grow up. i'm afraid to lose myself. i'm afraid of tomorrow. i'm afraid of today. i'm afraid of screwing up. i'm afraid of forgetting. i'm afraid of winning. i'm afraid of losing. i'm afraid of being happy. i'm afraid of being sad. i'm afraid of you. i'm afraid of me. ~ i'm afraid of being afraid, .. and where's my minty pills of medication? ( she.passed.her.car.basic.theory.finally.gladness )

Every Single One Of Them

2007-01-31T08:48:00.000+08:00

it was simply scary yesterday morning second panel interview another round the first victim to walk through the frozen doorway fortune police psycological unit grilled by these insane people perhaps more then two a little vision of four persons might even be six in total beyond the huge oval table one against the rest first of the day among the eleventh * ridicular painful questions; .. are you sort of an emotional person? .. what sort of poems do you write nowadays? .. have we input the neighbourhood system too fast? Patent Pending - Cheer Up Emo Kid .. emotionally confused lyrics below. I've got a problem with everyone I know I've got a problem I want everyone to know I got home late last night from the punk(PUNK) rock(ROCK) show I say it sucked because I'm emo I'm gonna cry I'm gonna scream I'm gonna say what I don't mean I'm gonna cry I'm gonna mope I'm gonna give up all my hope Bringing everybody down Everybody with a frown Bringing everybody down Wait for death to come around Cheer up emo kid It's a brand new day Cheer up emo kid It'll be okay Cheer up emo kid It's a brand new day Cheer up emo kid It'll be okay I like to listen to my favorite band the cure I'd ask her out but she'd say no! No for sure I'm gonna cry I'm gonna scream I'm gonna say what I don't mean I'm gonna cry I'm gonna mope I'm gonna give up all my hope Bringing everybody down Everybody with a frown Bringing everybody down Wait for death to come around Cheer up emo kid It's a brand new day Cheer up emo kid It'll be okay Cheer up emo kid It's a brand new day Cheer up emo kid It'll be okay Cheer up emo kid It's a brand new day Cheer up emo kid It'll be okay Cheer up emo kid It's a brand new day Cheer up emo kid It'll be okay Cheer up emo kid Nobody likes me, everybody hates me Cheer up emo kid Nobody likes me, everybody hates me Cheer up emo kid Nobody likes me, everybody hates me Cheer up emo kid Nobody likes me, everybody hates me Nobody likes me Everybody hates me Nobody likes me Everybody hates me Nobody likes me Everybody hates me Nobody likes me Everybody hates me Nobody likes me, everybody hates me Nobody likes me, everybody hates me Nobody likes me, everybody hates me Nobody likes me I guess I'll go eat worms! .. or maybe some ice cream she owes me. ~ luck is just what he needs.

Seventh Heaven In A Tiny Cup

2007-01-25T14:37:00.000+08:00

passed time passing
not yet a moment
awake from asleep today

helicopter

as simple as it is
spent a minute longer before the shift
in the night before school starts

no doubt in breeks named restraurant
at the only northern area of singapore
buffet of proper food unexpected without any plans
after this day ends
fast forward in a month or two perhaps paused
after the sixth and before the eighth

The Wallflowers - Heroes
.. the lyrics of what we could be below.

I, I wish you could swim Like the dolphins, like dolphins can swim Though nothing, nothing will keep us together We can beat them, for ever and ever. We can be Heroes, just for one day. I, I will be king And you, you will be queen Though nothing, nothing will drive them away We can be Heroes, just for one day We can be us, just for one day I, I remember standing, by the wall And the guns, shot above our heads And we kissed, as though nothing could fall And the shame, was on the other side Oh we can beat them, for ever and ever Then we could be Heroes, just for one day We can be Heroes Just for one day
.. blissfully with you.

~ feeling super.

Survival In Tribal Council

2007-01-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

shiny plastic fishes swimming among the ears
unpredictable weather this year beginning
pretty good choices in the end

frozen

a bit of flashed infidelities
beautiful skies and warm clouds
some torrential rain with melting snowflakes
a couple of days flew passed

headed to the ancient city of vivo
near coast of the harbour
long queues short expectancy
northern front of sentosa
chilled movie screening of apocalypto
meaning end of time in mayan language

cheese nachos the favourite
among the nausea bloodshed of gore
theatre was dreadfully cold to the touch
running the chases with shooting arrows
poisoned tiny frog used to poke veins
pulling of hearts and slices of brains

agreed with the suggestion from the lady
awesome packed with action
a drop to dead quick ending

Marilyn Manson - This Is The New Shit
.. have to be eighteen and above to read below.

Everything's been said before There's nothing left to say anymore When it's all the same You can ask for it by name Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence Blah, blah, blah Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely Stick your stupid slogan in Everybody sing along Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence Blah, blah, blah Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely Stick your stupid slogan in Everybody sing along Are you motherfuckers ready for the new shit? Stand up and admit it, tomorrow's never coming This is the new shit Stand up and admit it Do we need it? NO! Do we want it? YEAH! This is the new shit Stand up and admit it Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence Blah, blah, blah Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely Stick your stupid slogan in Everybody sing along Everything's been said before There's nothing left to say anymore When it's all the same You can ask for it by name Are you motherfuckers ready for the new shit? Stand up and admit it, tomorrow's never coming This is the new shit Stand up and admit it Do we need it? NO! Do we want it? YEAH! This is the new shit Stand up and admit it Now it's you-know-who I've got the you-know-what I stick it in the you-know-where You know why, you don't care Now it's you-know-who I've got the you-know-what I stick it in the you-know-where You know why, you don't care Now it's you-know-who I've got the you-know-what I stick it in the you-know-where You know why, you don't care Now it's you-know-who I've got the you-know-what I stick it in the you-know-where You know why, you don't care Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence Blah, blah, blah Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely Stick your stupid slogan in Everybody sing along Are you motherfuckers ready for the new shit? Stand up and admit it, tomorrow's never coming This is the new shit Stand up and admit it Do we need it? NO! Do we want it? YEAH! This is the new shit Stand up and admit it Let us We're entertaining you
.. and we survived through the show.

~ exit stage right my love.

Her Twenty First Nineteen Eighty Six

2007-01-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

hello missy
the six ate the seventh
chalet with buckets of friends

records

of being in these three days or more
awesome anticipated bright flowers

~~not even classy~~
~~the clothes were too colorful for taste~~
midnight function of aloha fiesta
~~division dinner tropical dance wear~~
~~pictures taken with beautiful bikini babes~~
~~whom age not legal to show those pictures here~~

compared those two picures above
the girlfriend is simply more beautiful
inclusive of more substance too
honestly enough said

birth event and sabotage of pink sprays followed

the long awaited piggies
the nicknames for those close friends

few found classmates
media a whole new line of beauty magazines

invitation to some divine chocolate cake
timed adulthood keys to life
nervous brief meeting with the jolly parents

first movie of the year
serial episode two
minty fun with love toppings all around

Rilo Kiley - The Frug
.. lyrical presents below.

And I can do the frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf And I can hate your girl I can tell you that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love And I can do the frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf And I can watch TV I can shuffle up to Buffalo I can do a backbend I will not call you back And I can start a book I can make some mac and cheese I can sleep twelve hours You'll never see my eyes And I can do the frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf And I can hate your girl I can tell you that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love You'll never see my eyes I will not call you back I cannot do the smurf I cannot fall in love I'll never fall in love I cannot fall in love... And I can do the frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf
.. what can we do after this episode.

~ dear happy birthday.

Translation To A Destination

2007-01-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

bye they said
such an altitude we say
timeless of an even distribution

glimpses

creamy smooth transit
two zero zero seven
sins or indulgence
calculative go figure
called with a drop of a fishing line

Anberlin - A Day Late
.. for the people once met.

So let me get this straight Say now you love me all along What made you hesitate To tell me in words what you really feel I can see it in your eyes You mean all of what you say I remember so long ago See, I felt the same way Now we both have spearate lives and lovers Insignificantly enough we both have significant others Only time will tell Time will turn and tell We are who we were then Could of been lovers But at least your still my day late friend We are who, We are who we were then Who knew what we knew now Could of been more But at least your still my day late friend We are who, We are who we were then But thoughts may change And times they rearange I don't know who you are anymore But thoughts come and go And this I know I'm not who you recall anymore But I must confess You're so much more than I remember Can't help but entertain this thought Thoughts of us together We are who we were then Could of been lovers But at least your still my day late friend We are who, We are who we were then Who knew what we knew now Could of been more But atleast your still my day late friend We are who, We are who we were then My day late friend So let me get this straight All these years and you were nowhere to be found And now you want me for your own But you're a day late and my love's just still renown We are who we were then Could of been lovers But at least your still my day late friend We are who, We are who we were then Who knew what we knew now Could of been more But at least your still my day late friend We are who, We are who we were then
.. for the ~~two zero zero six~~ and before.

~ a new letter word sentence paragraph,
.. page chapter cover story book begins once again.

Speechless Steps And Printed Shirt

2006-12-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

raining cats and dogs
squirels and mice in the foot
wet holes with fresh floods

vans

skate slip-on (black/white/loden)
monetary reasons unaccepted
rainbow seasons with showers

thank you miss for the undeserving materials
having you is honestly more then enough

happy as always with you
sealed with glue

Alanis Morissette - Hand In My Pocket
.. lyrics below.

I'm broke but I'm happy I'm poor but I'm kind I'm short but I'm healthy I'm high but I'm grounded I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby And what it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a high five I feel drunk but I'm sober I'm young and I'm underpaid I'm tired but I'm working I care but I'm restless I'm here but I'm really gone I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby And what it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be quite alright Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is flicking a cigarette And what it all comes down to Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a peace sign I'm free but I'm focused I'm green but I'm wise I'm hard but I'm friendly baby I'm sad but I'm laughing I'm brave but I'm chicken shit I'm sick but I'm pretty baby And what it all boils down to Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet But I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is playing the piano And what it all comes down to my friends Is that everything is just fine fine fine Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is hailing a taxi cab
.. pocket really full of roses.

~ shaken yet stirred to perfection.

Pseudonym Of Half A Reality

2006-12-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

six months before
a moment appreciated
seconds until hopefully infinity

disco

such simple sweetness it was
the couple headed to the garden of seoul
related chefs at barbecue work
pictures were taken of the delicious reflections

much of the cooked was eaten
the japanese sushi and slices of macaroni cold cuts
tidal waves passed since the moonlight shines
never could imagine the times lasted beyond
with those pearly tears passed

the vicinity of takashimaya singapore
around the lure of kinokuniya bookstore
strawberry ice cream with lemon tea

abliss with having the significant other in life
with much love and happiness
a hope to a story that never ends
exit a small step ahead to be continued

dedication; Aly & Aj - Chemicals React
.. specially for the dearest.

you make me feel out of my element like i'm walkin' on broken glass like my worlds spinnin' in slow motion and you're movin' too fast were you right, was i wrong were you weak, was i strong, yeah both of us broken caught in the moment we lived and we loved and we hurt and we joked, yeah but the planets all aligned when you looked into my eyes and just like that the chemicals react the chemicals react you make me feel out of my element like i'm drifting out to the sea like the tides pullin' me in deeper makin' it harder to breathe we cannot deny, how we feel inside we cannot deny were you right, was i wrong were you weak, was i strong, yeah both of us broken caught in the moment we lived and we loved and we hurt and we joked, yeah but the planets all aligned when you looked into my eyes and just like that the chemicals react the chemicals react kaleidoscope of colors turning hopes on fire, sun is burning shining down on both of us don't let us lose it were you right, was i wrong were you weak, was i strong, yeah both of us broken caught in the moment we lived and we loved and we hurt and we joked, yeah we lived we loved we hurt we joked we're right we're wrong we're weak we're strong we lived to love but the planets all aligned when you looked into my eyes and just like that watch the chemicals react and just like that the chemicals react

.. happy anniversary.

~ enough said.

Reasons With Decisons No Doubt

2006-12-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

a block of a thinker
no poets or solicitates
the couple of few days before

notes

floats from yesterday and before
droplets of floods these freeze
the floods in the workplace and the headaches

aftermath of the switches inclined
the hut in marina suqare instead

the viewer of the soup
explanations and exemptions focused
in simple saying with forgiveness

tour the entire state of toons
search for the elusive mechanical clocks
in time for the natural beauty gifts

life is certainly a mystery
fingers on a keyboard broken
the television that goes blank
the silent receiver on the phones
who really stops to listen anyways

Unwritten Law - Save Me
~ hear and see the video below.

Had a bad day, don't talk to me, gonna ride this out, My little black heart, breaks apart, with your big mouth. And I'm sick of my sickness Don't touch me, you'll get this. I'm useless, lazy, perverted, and you hate me. You can't save me, You can't change me, Well I'm waiting for my wakeup call, And everything, everything's my fault. Went to the doctor, and I asked her, to make this stop. Got medication, a new addiction, Thanks a lot. I had to relapse, I'm bad at rehabs It ruins everything. So point your finger, at the singer, He's in the pharmacy. You can't save me, You can't change me, Well I'm waiting for my wake up call, and everything's my fault. You can't save me, You can't blame me, Well I'm waiting here to take a fall, and everything, and everything's my fault. And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet, Baby why the wake up call I'm the bad boy tell the tabloids everything's my fault. Yeah, write it write it, Everything's my fault, everything's my fault. I went to heaven, but couldn't get in, For what I have done. I said please take me, they said you're crazy you had too much fun. You can't save me, You can't change me, Well I'm waiting for my wake up call, and everything's my fault. You can't save me, You can't blame me, Well I'm waiting here to take a fall, and everything, everything's my fault. You can't change me, You can't save me, You can't change me, Everything's my fault.

.. being speechless is never a solution really.

~ when in doubt.

Feelings Impractical

2006-12-17T13:23:00.000+08:00

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

With The Town Above

2006-12-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

was sleepy
due to working
the sleepless night before

imagination

this was what happened today
flea market serenade of lime branded
gone crazy with this video advertisment competition
some unknown site of many local uncertainties

singapore's mediacorp thingy with two blonde bombshells
inside those goodie bags unknowingly
two compact discs free without any strings attached

first cd: Snow Patrol - Eyes Open
second cd: Shayne Ward - Shayne Ward

the organiser eventually told us
there were fifteen different ones to get
especially when few of them is autographed

special thanks:Ang Wenyong
my buddy whom dragged me out to see the sights

singapura's central of fast foods and wackiness

if wern't:
iPod shuffle
wouldn't have been won

get the picture and go figure
with the autographed second cd
he faints there and then

missed the dearest instead

A Miniature Safari Hunt

2006-12-06T22:18:00.000+08:00

a stamp on the wrist
a stomp in the mist
with the birds and the bees

dinosaurs

a virgin in the zoological gardens
first time in reminiscence in chidhood
the years beyond to see baby animals

white cheetahs and black zebras with stripes
background of the couple of hours journey
before the jungle closes
the video editions of energetic otters
who swam upside down really

fierce resemblance of the tigeress
if looked closely closer
there were orchids and sleepy tourists in abundance
interactive shows closed with roads wide open

backs of green hills with slopes for trekking
weirdest kinds of critters galore
perfumed island smells to be imagined instead

a meerkat perched in a tree
food for the green anacondas in reptile city
a pit stop to rest the weary

through the abandoned caged doors with webs
furry creature features within a touch
too close for comfort with tiny shrieks

the marmoset with cotton ears
scared the dearest in a second
in the face of a rattlesnake

the beauty and the beast was just a story
never ends in real life probably
she was taken by the proboscis monkey

towards antarctica the journey goes
towards the nothern islands of the aquarium

the live favorite penguins the ran around naked
in their small little world
a kiss he received from his fans

punked with a manatee to boot
the biggest swimming mammal in the area

still walks in the evening
they found some ancient linings
jungle poised individuality

glow in the dark fun
nearing the end at the giftshop
the journey to the zoo

seen the polar bears eventually
some precious time with the significant other

as the timed home
where were the tarzan swingers answered

Savage Garden - The Animal Song
~ lyrics below.

When superstars and cannonballs are running through your head And television freak show cops and robbers everywhere Subway makes me nervous, people pushing me too far I've got to break away So take my hand now 'Cause I want to live like animals Careless and free like animals I want to liveI want to run through the jungle With wind in my hair and the sand at my feet I don't have any difficulties keeping to myself Feelings and emotions better left up on the shelf Animals and children tell the truth, they never lie Which one is more human There's a thought, now you decide Compassion in the jungle Compassion in your hands, yeah Would you like to make a run for it Would you like to take my hand, yeah 'Cause I want to live like animals Careless and free like animals I want to liveI want to run through the jungle With wind in my hair and the sand at my feet Sometimes this life can get you down It's so confusing There's so many rules to follow And I feel it 'Cause I just run away in my mind Superstars and cannonballs running through your head Television freak show cops and robbers everywhere Animals and children tell the truth, they never lie Which one is more human There's a thought, now you decide Compassion in the jungle Compassion in your hands, yeah Would you like to make a run for it Would you like to take my hand
.. enough said.

~ the parrot has spoken.

Felt Like Middle East

2006-12-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

take it easy
follow the way baby
just relax without tension

sloths

library soul searching in bugis
clouded windy heart of singapore
seasoned the rice and meals provided
traveled to the street of arabia
the traffic and headlights crowded

vintage bags with clothes galore
priceless trip to research wasted her information
in another books full of shelfs
the usage of sex appeal in advertisments

Understanding The Impact Missed

2006-12-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

copy and paste
click and drag
words and phrases

ribbon

World's AIDS Day is Friday, December 1 -- a day commemorating the millions of lives lost to this deadly disease, reminding us of the millions suffering from HIV or AIDS, and the millions still at risk. AIDS has killed more than 25 million people, making it one of the most destructive epidemics in recorded history. Despite recent, improved access to antiretroviral treatment and care in many regions of the world, the AIDS epidemic claimed an estimated 3.1 million (between 2.8 and 3.6 million) lives in 2005 of which, more than half a million (570,000) were children. Let these numbers sink in. They are huge. As YouthAIDS (youthaids.org) National Yoga Ambassador, Seane Corn points out, "There is no vaccine and there is no cure and the life-extending drugs that are available to us in this country are far out of reach for most of the 40 million people who currently live with HIV." She also points out some other harsh stats:

Two young people become infected with HIV every hour in the U.S.

50% of all new infections occur in young people between the ages of 15-24.

Most of them don't know they carry the virus.

15 million children have been orphaned by AIDS -- that is the equivalent to every American child under the age of 5.

AIDS kills one child every minute.

What can you do? You can take action that shows you care:

Wear a red ribbon

Talk to people

Go to an event

Get involved

For further information about how to learn more and/or get involved go to youthaids.org or omhrc.gov/hivaidsobservances. You can make a difference.

accompanied the lady home tonight
minus all the times alone revising
the lonely not cranky feelings
she makes a difference in my life

a beauty in whatever simple clothings

hopefully patiently interactive

an outgoing introvert

gets him involved at times

No Use For A Name - International You Day
~ lyrics below.

i'm sorry that it took so long to write this song but i gave up you see one million words can't describe how it feels to know your love where did i go wrong? i should have told you from the start that i'm closer then you think when we're apart nothing that i've tried is as simple as this line but without you my life is incomplete my days are absolutely gray and so I'll try let your heart know for sure that i have so much more to tell you every single day i swear i'm giving up my inside to the one that i adored i know this world is big enough for you and i but i'll give you more i'm coming home today to wipe the tear drop from your eyes i'm totally enamored by your life nothing that i've done has ever been for one but without you my life is incomplete my days are absolutely gray and so I'll try let your heart know for sure that i have so much more to tell you every single day my life is incomplete my rites are absolutely gone so wake me up before you leave today something i need to say cause they'll be nothing when you're gone
.. really true with chocolate cream on top.

~ fresh tip of the day,
.. just the words not the music.

Some Questions And Answers Scene

2006-11-30T14:15:00.000+08:00

insert life of a national service officer
plus the watch with twenty five minutes to late
perhaps it was too early instead

records

seeing the monitor that couldn't be bothered
too sensitive to ask any wrong questions
talked to himself instead
rauna to anuar

~ how are you these days?
i'm perfectly fine.

~ serving national service?
yes.

~ what vocation exactly?
as a man in blue.

~ catch any criminals yet?
it's not all about catching criminals.
my job in a division as a pratroling officer.
morning then night shifts then rest two days.
posted in the east while living in the north.
go figure the traveling calculation.

~ basically what do you do each shift?
mostly arrive an hour earlier then my colleagues.
whom have appointed me as the maintenance officer.

~ what kind of cases?
various in sensitivity and kinds.
noise pollutions and household disputes.
insane people that's mentally unstable.
missing pesons' found and drugs declared.

~ how do you keep track of them?
more things to do and write as the bigger the cases goes.
the camera handling and report printings.

~ do you get worried?
yes.
maybe i'm paranoid at times.
because each day is never the same.
one moment i might be just cruising and the next chasing.
there's no control whether today will be in danger.
it feels good to come home to see the family.
to occasionally see my buddies.
to simply have a conversation with the dearest.

~ the dearest?
my significant other.
whom at times i let my ego get the best of me.
i'm truly sorry for being late and making careless mistakes.
half true when she mentioned that certain time i don't understand you.
i felt i did and opened up to ask in the first place.
a risky obvious question that wasn't worth it eventually.
now i have zero obvious topics.
i listened and talked to myself lately.
in conclusion he should keep any inquisitive stuff to myself.
hopefully try to better understand you my lady.

a classic; Boxcar Racer - There Is
.. lyrics below.

This vacation's useless These white pills aren't kind I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9 And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have The days have come and gone Our lives went by so fast I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor Where I laid and told you, but you swear you loved me more Do you care if i don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay That there's someone out there who feels just like me There is Those notes you wrote me I've kept them all I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall With every single letter in every single word There will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl Do you care if i don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me There is Do you care if i don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay That there's someone out there who feels just like me Do you care if i don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay That there's someone out there who feels just like me There is
..us.

~ i miss you.

Flowers Plus Sunshine Equals Sunflowers

2006-11-27T19:59:00.000+08:00

the day is such a bright little thing
especially since the twilight ago
waiting for life that goes on crossings

railroad

each day goes by without a trace
the mild many acquaintance and friends dissolved
spent a moment in banquet
perhaps time should be treasured quietly

admit missing the lady in revision
to sit to the front of a monitor
in high definition of resolution
to stop himself to be a disturbance
unless she starts the coversations

The Speaks - High
.. lyrics below.

Will it ever be? I've tried so hard to find sweet serenity Are you still afraid? Just close your eyes and dream, and feel it fade away. Time won't flow, everyone knows When the pain fades away And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes You've got to hold your head up high.. It's taken some time, And I've given up the will to change your state of mind Try and understand, It's not so hard to see that I am just a man. Time won't flow, everyone knows When the pain fades away And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes You've got to hold your head up high.. Will it ever be? I've tried so hard to find sweet serenity Try and understand, It's not so hard to see that I am just a man. Time won't flow, everyone knows When the pain fades away And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes You've got to hold your head up high..
.. dreams.

~ of you and me.

Number Of Fingers In A Palm

2006-11-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

sleepless tonight perhaps
speechless perhaps to mouth anything
since forced to listen to himself lately

swing

there are some things better left unsaid
not for the views of the light hearted
deeply sorry for the questions asked

special dedication; The Cardigans - Lovefool
.. lyrics below.

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem You love me no longer, I know and Maybe there is nothing that I can do To make you do Mama tells me I shouldn't bother That I ought to stick to another man A man that surely deserves me But I think you do So I cried, I prayed and I begged Love me, love me, say that you love me Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me Love me, love me, pretend that you love me Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me So I cry, and I beg for you to Love me, love me, say that you love me Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me I can't care 'bout anything but you Lately, I have desperately pondered Spent my nights awake and I wonder What I could have done in another way To make you stay Reason will not lead to solution I will end up lost in confusion I don't care if you really care As long as you don't go So I cry, I pray and I beg Love me, love me, say that you love me Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me Love me, love me, pretend that you love me Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me So I cry, and I beg for you to Love me, love me, say that you love me Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me I can't care 'bout anything but you Anything but you Love me, love me, say that you love me Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me Love me, love me, I know that you need me I can't care 'bout anything but you
.. loved instead.

.. five, four, three, two, one,
~ months with you.

Short Distances With Considerable Substances

2006-11-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

never walk in the spoilt shoes of a fellow
there will be holes in it to fill up
the rainwater and drenched feet possibilities

penguins

the movie topic of the half afternoon
was watching happy feet
shown in antartica full of singing penguins
there were tiny furry cuteness
practically jolly and chubbiness relaxing

since the location she chose was in his hometown
to drag the time he felt moody
purely no reason but just to extend it
to exercise the relaxed mental mind
just a few debate perhaps
honestly no pun nor harm intended

for the dearest; Jason Mraz - Life Is Wonderful
~ lyrics below.

It takes a crane to build a crane it takes two floors to make a story it takes an egg to make a hen it takes a hen to make an egg there is no end to what i'm saying it takes a thought to make a word and it takes some words to make an action and it takes some work to make it work it takes some good to make it hurt it takes some bad for satisfaction ah la la la la la la la life is wonderful ah la la la la la la life goes full circle ah la la la la la la life is wonderful ah la la la la it takes a night to make it dawn and it takes a day to you yawn brother and it takes some old to make you young it takes some cold to know the sun it takes the one to have the other and it takes no time to fall in love but it takes you years to know what love is and it takes some fears to make you trust it takes those tears to make it rust it takes the dust to have it polished ah la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la la la la life goes full circle ha la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la it is so and it is so it takes some silence to make sound and it takes a loss before you found it and it takes a road to go nowhere it takes a toll to make you care it takes a hole to make a mountain ha la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la la la la life goes full circle ha la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la la la la life is meaningful ha la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la la la it is so wonderful and it is so meaningful it is so wonderful it is meaningful it is wonderful it is meaningful it goes full circle wonderful meaningful full circle wonderful
.. with you especially lah.

.. happy revising during the weekends.

All About The Flipside

2006-11-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

simply no questions with just considerable answers
a sense of invulnerability to a male dominant
is telling the obvious truth

crashes

lots of people comes then goes away
occasional stays or some potential stray
a bit sense of needed affection with a tiny hug

some listening ears without being asked
being physically there and mentally aware
needed capabilities of each day unworried

where language is a barrier overcome by vast gadgets
dread these tired feelings and second loneliness
a note to himself with a white little lie

.. fades to black.

Rainbows And All Of The Above

2006-11-20T16:05:00.000+08:00

it seems probably a long while since in here
days goes driven to the times
simply a roller coaster joyride perhaps

splashes
of colours here and there these past few weeks
or is it only been just the past couple few of days
how was he to know in simplicity
it suddenly seems a quite short of a while

an american presidential deployment in a five star hotel
more then twelve hours in sunny singapura called shangri-la
the diplomat himself had a very ultra sleek shiny limousine
statute stood in traffic attire
three days and two nights of sleeping at the workplace

a thinner haircut with an even shorter fringe
much to his many disapproval's tea
of cheer ups from the patient dearest
for her and as come what may goes
the many days and these after nights

~ The Cure - Friday I'm In Love
.. lyrics below.

I don't care if monday's blue Tuesday's grey and wednesday too Thursday i don't care about you It's friday i'm in love Monday you can fall apart Tuesday wednesday break my heart Thursday doesn't even start It's friday i'm in love Saturday wait And sunday always comes too late But friday never hesitate... I don't care if monday's black Tuesday wednesday heart attack Thursday never looking back It's friday i'm in love Monday you can hold your head Tuesday wednesday stay in bed Or thursday watch the walls instead It's friday i'm in love Saturday wait And sunday always comes too late But friday never hesitate... Dressed up to the eyes It's a wonderful surprise To see your shoes and your spirits rise Throwing out your frown And just smiling at the sound And as sleek as a shriek Spinning round and round Always take a big bite It's such a gorgeous sight To see you eat in the middle of the night You can never get enough Enough of this stuff It's friday I'm in love
.. truly simply do.

~ monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday,
.. friday, saturday and sunday passed by.

Rains Of Sunshine In The Eyes

2006-11-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

a day ago it rained
who cares whether drenched or dry
he'll be by her side

space

movements seemed to passed by without a trance
shoes wet and a flu's coming
a little headache's been felt
water drops thin paper

emotional cut on the eyes
he's drunk when sleepy due to a sudden shift
the night before and morning after
the sixth day of the week
the curtains of his found to be awesome in the early hours

the day after the drops perhaps
sorrows felt blown away in an instant
the faints and photographs in an incredible reality

Christina Aguilera - Hurt
~ lyrics below.

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face You told me how proud you were, but I walked away If only I knew what I know today I would hold you in my arms I would take the pain away Thank you for all you've done Forgive all your mistakes There's nothing I wouldn't do To hear your voice again Sometimes I wanna call you But I know you won't be there I'm sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn't do And I've hurt myself by hurting you Some days I feel broken inside but I won't admit Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss And it's so hard to say goodbye When it comes to this, Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand? Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am? There's nothing I wouldn't do To have just one more chance To look into your eyes And see you looking back Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn't do And I've hurt myself, If I had just one more day I would tell you how much that I've missed you Since you've been away It's dangerous It's so out of line To try and turn back time I'm sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn't do And I've hurt myself by hurting you
.. sorry.

~ good luck in the endeavours ahead,
.. my dearest.

Double Sweet Morning Madness

2006-11-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

plastered to a the wall
an early morning call
high rised to a fall in a mall

posterised

at times looked back
too much perhaps
in another early chapter
pointed to the movie of his life
he's had the fast food's been travelled

days of being a teenager
much appreciated yet seldom seem to be
the kentucky's fried chicken in an area of bishan
the topless cheese with delicious cutlery
had our western fishes mixed up
to the trains to school eventually

~ a classic to smooth the senses..
Madonna - Like A Prayer

Life is a mystery Everyone must stand alone I heard you call my name And it feels like home When you call my name, it's like a little prayer I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there In the midnight hour, I can feel your power Just like a prayer, you know I'll take you there I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing I have no choice, I hear your voice Feels like flying I close my eyes, Oh God I think I'm falling Out of the sky, I close my eyes Heaven help me When you call my name, it's like a little prayer I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there In the midnight hour, I can feel your power Just like a prayer, you know I'll take you there Like a child you whisper softly to me You're in control just like a child Now I'm dancing It's like a dream, no end and no beginning You're here with me, it's like a dream Let the choir sing When you call my name, it's like a little prayer I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there In the midnight hour, I can feel your power Just like a prayer, you know I'll take you there Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery Just like a dream, you are not what you seem Just like a prayer, no choice your voice can take me there Just like a prayer, I'll take you there It's like a dream to me
.. life's certainly a mystery.

~ don't worry be happy.

Love Mechanism Dysfunctionality

2006-11-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

it happens in an instant
the receiver didn't broadcast his words
silence is the unwanted golden egg

robot

one or two or even three days ago
the stop and story of a broken handphone
for a second instant

missed the usual contacts
the much usual suspects and the love
private emails and housecalls
instant messangers aren't any convertible
driven the long lonely road
without the favourite numbered buttons and receiver

long last today's been repaired
talking seems to be a much realised
better form then texting
coversations much uninterrupted
by birds chirping in the foreground

reminding how technology is such a waste
when not used properly
the fans especially in the background
last minute outings and priceless moments spent
technicality for a much valued individual

.. my sleepyhead.

Sense Of Wit And Happiness

2006-11-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

it was a such a short simple version
pure movie magic
plus a much anticipated rank received

apples

caught a fast screening of death note.
felt it has a great storyline
when there's few especially in the whole theatre

names written within forty seconds
to the halt of the heart
bored individuals could do with a notebook at hand

the couple faced with an evil look
somewhere up north to the plaza near the sun
to kill without a single touch of reality

breathe in a single word too deeply
probability and statistics of both work and school
tires the mental state these two individuals

went ahead to the team function
down to the aloha east
received this token in plastic
with congratulations from those around

.. sorry he doesn't deserve it really,
~ the movie had a second episode; the last name.

Echoes Needed For Translation

2006-11-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

the first day of november
the weather's going wet sooner
drop drizzles and sizzles on the many faces

blank
attended a weird language case this day
for someone who seldom uses mandarin
especially when most still didn't know he studied

some malay guy out there actually volunteered
to use his secret ability to converse
in reality during an indonesian home devastation
by a chinese tuition teacher who wouldn't leave
refusal to give even her particulars

in our seat she screams in my ears
stayed and dragged til a conclusion
to pacify peace she's told to leave
spoken in her tongue he did
a success in confidence by yours truly

yet the confidality was breached eventually
more then a year later the regular rest knows

the months come by faster then it seems
woke up feelings unpredictable
mondays to sundays a blur
weekdays and weekends remixed to confusion
whatever whenever come what may's
simply treasures the short sweet moments of practicalities

The Rocket Summer - This Is Me
~ lyrics below.

Everyday I wake up late. Since I quit my day job I have been sane. But responsibilities sure do remain, but I'll just let them wait. Because I don't know what I am doing now, and I wont try to act like it cuz I sure don't know how. And I'll admit that I don't know, just where I'm going on this long and winding road that's taking me to what will be my home. So stare and see this is me, and I will be just what I need to believe that something is what I'm gonna be. And what you do is what you do and what I do needs to be true. The things I do maybe need to be thought through, but just remember what's right for me, might be not right for you. Staring at this mirror and I'm wondering who you are. Right now is a time for searching and I just wish I had a car to drive a long distance and just think about the war, and now life's got so much more. Because I don't know what I am doing now, and I wont try to act like it cuz I sure don't know how. And I'll admit that I don't know, just where I'm going on this long and winding road that's taking me to what will be my home. So stare and see this is me, and I will be just what I need to believe that something is what I'm gonna be. And what you do is what you do, and what I do needs to be true. The things I do maybe need to be thought through... But I know what I want to do and I want it to be true. And yeah I'd be the first to say that of course I'll listen to you, but remember what's right for me, might be not right for you
.. he realises so too.

~ sorry for the surprise attacks on the heart,
.. a complicated institution when the handphone's dead.

Silly Selfish Selfless Me

2006-10-31T01:00:00.000+08:00

sleepless on the first day of the week
a case of the blues on a monday perhaps
the early transition to tuesday

signs

the few last things to do;
* wishing someone sweet dreams
* silent treatments to be understood
* adult presumptions to a preschooler
* resting before the night ends
* to converse instead of plain text
* the ten before twelve telecasted moments

.. if each day was a simple first date rewound,
~ truly looking forward to her after his work.

ps. loved the fragrance, the dearest who's resting.

Just A Bit Of Humour Needed

2006-10-29T17:40:00.000+08:00

these sealed up thoughts exactly
dreamt of being bitten by a snake
clear and distinct as he swung around his arm

smile

where's all the clowns in this blue sea
he needs a good laugh perhaps
before the mood swings are broken
due to severe workload and anxieties
.. enough said.

Weezer - Perfect Situation
~ lyrics below.

What's the deal with my brain? Why am I so obviously insane? In a perfect situation I let love down the drain. There's the pitch, slow and straight. All I have to do is swing and I'm a hero, but I'm a zero. Hungry nights, once again Now it's getting unbelievable. 'Cause I could not have it better, But I just can't get no play From the girls, all around As they search the night for someone to hold onto. And I just pass through... Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Get your hands off the girl, Can't you see that she belongs to me? And I don't appreciate this excess company. Though I can't satisfy all the needs she has And so she starts to wander... Can you blame her? Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Tell me there's a logic out there. Leading me to better prepare For the day that something really special might come. Tell me there's some hope for me. I don't wanna be lonely For the rest of my days on the earth. Oh..!! Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Noohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
.. let's sing a happy song together.

~ feeling fine before this night shift.
the dearest calls were the best

A Decent Table Serving Of Tennis

2006-10-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

swing it to the left
forward right with the back
handed the tiny plastic ball

classic

evening sentiments exactly
where planned time goes topsy turvy
bright and early from her institution
the dearest downtown to his interchange

sitting while in wait
many years have passed since he's been
in this northern platform
single-decked buses traveled to secondary
school full of such nerdy times
top uniform in white bottom
the plays the chases
the childish fears corners the levels
memories of schoolmates floated by

she then came with such luggages
shared a fast dinner with the king of burgers

possibly annoyed with such photo takings
the late favourite subject of the moment
before headed on to a sudden competition
pure tennis on a table full of fascination

a subject in which his team won
such hobbies of the men in blue
the spare time due
smacked without a clue
his team bravo won

in animation the orange sphere
with of course in pictures it suspended
needless to say
the simple time spent with her
was justified truly priceless

Goldfinger - 99 Red Balloons
.. lyrics below.

You and I in a little toy shop buy a bag of balloons with the money we've got Set them free at the break of dawn 'Til one by one, they were gone Back at base, bugs in the software Flash the message, "Something's out there" Floating in the summer sky 99 red balloons go by. 99 red balloons floating in the summer sky Panic bells, it's red alert There's something here from somewhere else The war machine springs to life Opens up one eager eye Focusing it on the sky As 99 red balloons go by. 99 Decision Street, 99 ministers meet To worry, worry, super-scurry Call out the troops now in a hurry This is what we've waited for This is it boys, this is war The president is on the line As 99 red balloons go by. 99 Kriegsminister Streichholz und Benzinkanister Hielten sich fuer schlaue Leute Witterten schon fette Beute Riefen: Krieg und wollten Macht Mann, wer haette das gedacht Dass es einmal soweit kommt Wegen 99 Luftballons 99 dreams I have had In every one a red balloon It's all over and I'm standin' pretty In the dust that was a city If I could find a souvenir Just to prove the world was here... And here it is, a red balloon I think of you and let it go.
.. letting go of balloons anyone?

~ with pure bliss,
.. his adorable sleepyhead.

Simply Two Times A Couple Of Months

2006-10-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

for the eyes a simple break from school and work
who needs the liners in black ink
when there's plenty of puffy bags to go around

peace

the grandmother's at work today
fancy this independent lady
a classic oldie with a classic touch
to work in her late seventies
didn't get a chance for a simple house call though

instead spent the early evening
the lady with the plans

to travel and explore
her very first time to the long lost city of vivo
in this truly tiny singapore
kids with credit are much appreciated by huge dinosaurs of sale
whose newly caves lined with plenty much
bargains of high-ended cheaply described goods
an artistically terrible sin for the tiresome eyes
pointed where we both simply could tell

still live virgins to ordering there
from such a quaint place full of skinny employees
the shakes with milk shall remain nameless perhaps

the triple chocolate chip indulgence
the thirst from lemon
flavoured glasses of distilled water

vouchers for ice cream were introduced for a surprise attack

one surprises too many he guessed
for the lady otherwise prefered
ahead to the basement banquet
a detour from the actual warm rooftop secenery
for some fabulous steamy hokkien prawn mee

for the lady who's completely stuffed
by now truly tired to deny
from the many snaps from his camera
as the theme point of the day was eye bags

had to honestly admit this time
he's a very bad photographer
with beautful memories for tonight

~ a special dedication if she doesn't mind;
Blue October - Calling You
.. lyrics below.

There's something I can't quite explain I'm so in love with you You'll never take that away And if i've said it a hundred times before Expect a thousand more You'll never take that away So expect me to be Calling you to see If you're okay when I'm not around Asking "do you love me" I love the way you make it sound Calling you to see Do I try too hard to make you smile? To make us smile I will keep calling you to see If you're sleeping or you're dreaming If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me I can't believe you actually picked me I thought that the world had lost it's sway It's so hard sometimes Then I fell in love with you Then came you And you took that away It's not so difficult The world is not so difficult You take away the old Show me the new And I feel like I can fly when i stand next to you So while I'm on this phone A hundred miles from home I'll take the words you gave me and send them back to you I only want to see If you're okay when I'm not around Asking "do you love me" I love the way you make it sound Calling you to see Do I try too hard to make you smile? To make us smile I will keep calling you to see If you're sleeping or you're dreaming If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me I can't believe you actually picked me
.. seriously without saying.

~ two times two equals four moments of not counting;
.. just a little bit priceless supposingly.

Murdered Celebrations He Wrote

2006-10-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

running away at work
feelings complete
without a day missed

festive

a last minute decision by the supervisor
with simply fine doing romeo
a patrol car designated for the front line
being supervised instead of supervising the usual

on a festive season such as this
where all muslims rejoice
as a national service implement single
today he had to report for morning shift duty
a chance for the rest of the regular muslims
those with many families for their moments off
just to be with their sons and daughters

the feelings were truly great
the non-muslims expect a cranky anuar
it didn't happened really

from his classic parents seeked the many forgiveness
the once double twilight before
the basic economical increase
the money packets received from his family
is enough in simple moderation

silent broadcasted message through text;

anuar,
congratulations on your promotion
to the rank of corporal
with effective from 12/10/06.
email will be out soon.

~ content.

an increase pay
felt happy that day
eventhough an illigal immigrant was caught
towards late before reporting off

the afternoon's decent
peaceful as it seems
with many colours along the road

the visiting of relatives and friends
while the men in official blue
were keeping it safe and sorry
for the roads and streets and junctions
the skies and clouds
moments of peace was in the air

Gary Jules - Mad World
.. lyrics below.

All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world mad world Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world ... world Enlarge your world Mad world
.. my mad world.

~ mild-glad feelings.

The Day Before The Festivals

2006-10-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

the messages sent were plenty
some remembered
others simply forgotten

skies

if your religion is;

islam

rejoice for now
the month of absteince's ended
by the end of this evening
peaches of patience and virtue
draft waters of success in completion

.. he's working tomorow.

Hot Hot Heat - Middle Of Nowhere
~ lyrics below.

Don't get mad if I'm laughing Blame the caffeine for all the 5 am phone calls I haven't slept a single night in over a month And not even once did you start to make sense to me Well maybe I'm a little bit slow, or just consistently inconsistent She said, "Unpredictability's my responsibility, baby." But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out Just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere They chewed me up and then they spit me out And I'm not supposed to let it bother me But maybe I'm a little bit weak - I let my frailty take the wheel She said, "Maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you baby." But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out Just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out Just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on To go on back to the middle of nowhere
.. just somewhere at work he'll be.

~ content felt from respectable ~~boxes~~.

.. and into the rainbows with you.

Volunteering Jitters

2006-10-22T19:54:00.000+08:00

a night in the night
a deployment after a shift
another mental reality

wishes

suddenly felt inspired
to disappear

never to let anyone know
where he was going to be
unless they want to truly understand
his location in dreams
far ahead from reality

.. enough said.

Mock Laughter Of Untold Dreams

2006-10-21T12:05:00.000+08:00

the sandman suddenly slowly came visited
for a while it seemed awkward
days running in my dead mind

scenery

it's weird to have slept
for just a couple of hours

when in actual unbelievable fact
dreamt of being chased after in an arcade
stories unfold a game to be told

where whoever won would achieve a sudden prize
truth still to be told
the thing that had been running from
still couldn't yet to be recalled

he had a bad sleep while the next day
was the five o'clock in the morning
moments of shift was tired was tiring
it was a bit mentally challenging

craving he needs some ice cream perhaps
mint or chocolate or even mocca flavoured

.. the end.

Arcade Fire - Rebellion (Lies)
~ lyrics below.

Sleeping is giving in, no matter what the time is. Sleeping is giving in, so lift those heavy eyelids. People say that you'll die faster than without water. But we know it's just a lie, scare your son, scare your daughter. People say that your dreams are the only things that save ya. Come on baby in our dreams, we can live our misbehavior. Every time you close your eyes Lies, Lies! People try and hide the night underneath the covers. People try and hide the light underneath the covers. Come on hide your lovers underneath the covers, come on hide your lovers underneath the covers. Hidin' from your brothers underneath the covers, come on hide your lovers underneath the covers. People say that you'll die faster than without water, but we know it's just a lie, scare your son, scare your daughter, Scare your son, scare your daughter. Now here's the sun, it's alright! (Lies!) Now here's the moon, it's alright! (Lies!) Now here's the sun, it's alright! (Lies!) Now here's the moon it's alright (Lies!) But every time you close your eyes. (Lies!)
.. and you were truly missed.

~ and he lied when he wasn't thinking of her,
.. while she sleeps through tired.

Sleepless In Singapore

2006-10-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

a couple of days
a couple of wackiness
from a couple and their moments

thoughts

no need to journal
truthfully speechless
to a library in wooodlands
failed hilarious surprises
to an underaged movie
you me and dupree
a summary of hidden notes here and there
to a location of crowded malay community
as the festive seasons draws near
simply in deeply
in love with my dear

.. enough mushy feelings said.
Atomic Kitten - Someone Like Me
~ lyrics below.

Don't let your head rule you heart Don't let your world be torn apart Don't keep it all to yourself Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me That's the way it should be Someone like me I know Its hard when you're feeling down To lift your feet up off the ground We make mistakes but doesn't everybody You don't always have to agree with someone like me That's the way it should be Someone like me We know the story so far (what you want and who you are) What you want and who you are (Free) Let all your emotions run free You don't always have to agree With someone like me That's the way it should be Someone like me Someone like me
.. for someone like you.

~ hehe.

Seven Days Of Replay All Over

2006-10-17T05:01:00.000+08:00

a simple week after this
more abstinence ahead
the day of festive at work

evaluation
a distinct feeling of content
to have passed three weeks
without being tainted

reminiscence from the many pictures taken
the sweet bitterness trips
a moment glanced away into reality
she's back into her institution

she might be missed a bit though
or ironically in truth to be
maybe more then less it seems

hopefully her signicant other half
ain't in a major accident meltdown
from the dearest's distractions

the haze is bad
breathe slowly and take in lightly
patience is virtue in days to come

a moment of chilled relaxation
Eisley - Head Against The Sky
.. lyrics below.

Sleep with your head against the sky tonight. I can't count how many times you have made me cry. I marvel at the way your hair glows in the light. There's one who cares for me today. I've watched you grow up child, you have made me proud. I love the way your hand fits so nicely in mine. I always screw up, I wonder how you sing to me. There's one who cares for me today.
.. simply just glad.

~ the fixation and indulgence,
.. my sleepyhead.

A Mix Of Black And Blues

2006-10-15T14:01:00.000+08:00

the moments before
as events unfold
hearts

unresponsive
~ readmitted something;

I'm not like all the others hopefully.
I have a mind of my own unknowingly.
I can think without saying the opposite.
I can blindly see without assistance.
I can live without realisation.

Don't judge me by first impressions please.
That doesn't classify anyone anywhere.
Stare into my eyes for a glimpse.
Crawl around in my mind patiently.
Take a simple light grip of my soul.
I promise you've never seen it before twice or again.
I'm unique maybe.
I like who I am really with you.

I speak my mind secretly.
I have the power to do anything eventually.
I want to change the world it seems.
I want to fly with you.

I want to understand my interaction.
I want to know your silent thoughts.
I've made classical mistakes before.
I've done wrong things occasionally.
But it makes me who I am today and yesterday.

If you really want to know me,
Look deep inside of me and ask.
I'll show you something amazing if could.
I'll show you me as a person from within.
only for my dearest juliana out there.

then to the eastern front we headed
the point of the malay community
a bazaar of a thousand many traditional clothes
the fruitless search
the guy was as usual a bit irritating as always

the patient was realised pissed
debates are healthy he guessed
the lady just wasn't in the mood

only god can explain the problem
in resolution for breakfast was quite
quick in the busride to beach road
where the tables are plenty

yet the seats aren't so plenty
nevertheless the atmosphere was there
with noodles of siam
with beef cooked to perfection

an oriental one we supposed
with cool fruits
that played around with us
an acciden with papaya and watermelon
apart next to the halal food central

the busride
terribly crowded with impatience
a decent photography just couldn't be cleared
charged as nonsensical guilt
by the adorable lady
never felt the harshness in words though
just worried about her late night
clouded nightmares of leaving me

~ a simple song for the senses..
Amberlin - Paperthin Hymn
.. lyrics below.

When your only friends are hotel rooms Hands are distant lullabies If I could turn around I would tonight These roads never seemed so long Since your paperheart start beating leaving me suddenly alone Will daybreak ever come? Who's gonna call on sunday morning? Who's gonna drive you home? I just want one more chance To put my arms in fragile hands I thought you said forever Over and over A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion These thoughts run through my head Over and over Complaints of violins become my only friends August evenings Bring solemn warnings To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight You never know what temporal days may bring So laugh, love, live free and sing When life is in dischord Praise ye the lord Who's gonna call on sunday morning? Who's gonna drive you home? I just want one more chance To put my arms in fragile hands I thought you said forever Over and over The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion These thoughts run through my head Over and over Complaints of violins become my only friends I thought you said forever over and over The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion These thoughts run through my head over and over Complaints of violins become my only friends I thought you said forever over and over These thoughts run through my head
.. these just simple thoughts.

~ even in pieces my dearest,
.. you're still to be loved all over.

Bad Or Good Lucky Thirteen

2006-10-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

the shift in the night
a leave was then granted
free from the composure

purity

attended a certain interview
in view of the unquestionable
state of a national serviceman
hope turning to regular
a start for a career

nervousness creeps in the headquarters
located near novena
the twin towers as it was called

met a certain individual
the same batch similar who planned
wore his uniform straight into the room
it seems more honest in looks
as told by the supervisor of his

as for this certain
individual who's typing
the wacky supervisor adviced
just wear a tie there ok
so he wore followed with mild pink
weird but true
he was the only one
all tied up
for the dreaded interview

the panel consists of three
extremely truly big shots

the personal questions they asked;

* what's my hobbies?
* what's your goals like?
* your future five years achievement?

seriously mentally expected much tougher
questions though which he left the room
all three in smiles

with still head heavy from the repercussions

the dearest was free on a fast train
proceeded to town then

her failure to not be beautiful
was captured on a priceless moment

the walkways and highways of buses
eventually led to a decent breakfast
across the seas of esplanade
over the merlion's bridge
tucked into the right corner
of singapore's
lao pa sat
a bustling food station full of hawkers
from all walks of life

a little bit lost neither here nor there though
western meals during the middle eastern breakaway
.. enough said.

The Service A Year Since Passed

2006-10-11T18:53:00.000+08:00

a year has passed
the changed has changes
pure enlightenment

chainsaw

11/10/05
the day this guy
went into the police service
lifestyles of the budget and infamous
squad 52 year 2005

block 25 delta coy
where to us
a heaven for the guilty consious
a spacious cupboard
to store the summer clothes
and winter extras

well the day begins with the bald personnel
yours truly me
a remembered time of also abstinence

the food was then delicious
a delicacy compared to the army
spaghetti from the west
in the olden academy

the food was good
the fat stays fat
the unarmed tactics were taught
to protect life and property

through a strict routine of exercises
the fit squad stays fit
the training of muscles were always kept in checked
do it the smart way always
without a doubt

the classy way
in terms of weight training
the mental procedures of learning
to always be prepared for any last minute calling
the brain rush to each class

the belt undone
to be tied on the the stairs
he wasn't the culprit really
the studies were a challenge
the laws the extras
just a part of the few clowns in class

please don't missjudge the surroundings
the plain discipline

the day parades in the sun
the night parades under the moon
drinking of water without fail every single twilight

notice the fuel on his bottle
every consumption counts
every tiny drop matters
as ending due
totally torturing these three months

we had our little bit of fun
a picture tells a thousand words really
the basic life of police training ends

now where can squad 52/05 be found
in the hearts
during passing out dinner
the couple of days before vocational training

the last day of the whole team

before jumping
into the new home team academy

for two weeks of station security courses
in chalet heaven it was
the bed was the bomb
queen sized mattress

still the food was
equally entertaining and divine
he was then a squad leader during vocational
while in review the two weeks passed
posted first day in neighbourhood police centre
this picture was taken

the much has passed
to this very recent picture
closed to today

and so ends the one year review
of a guy like me

~ the end.

The Mean Silence Of Drowsiness

2006-10-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

emotional silence
verbal confrontation
mild fixation

super
recordable craziness patient.
the night shift was fine,
until the moments of a mental wife.
she went all out to prove our officers,
wrong in their twilight judgements.
handling an empty purpose;
her husband's been late from work,
she chose to wait for his return with us.
pissed those officers were,
without a doubt just another shift.

electronic devices can sometimes,
make or break a line of communication.
the lack of judgement,
while the mental senses weakened.
the lack of sleep,
never the tireness in mind.
eventually the words typed wrongly,
an unexpected call hung up.

a beautiful missunderstanding disaster.

the dearest headed on her own to my hometown,
to venged her silent anger on the silly guy.
the semi-confused extrovert had to stand in the corner,
closed to the bustop.

orchid country club

the alley in which to bowl,
the deadly lady was pictured as calmed and composed.

~ ready

~ steady

~ set

~ go

~ and her significant other half was trashed by three spares.

the local library and a scenic route,
of his secondary unplanned in a moment.
since someone hadn't the mood,
the surrounding fresh air is just his hope.
blissfully unexpected and weird,
the haze wasn't an issue throughout the whole afternoon.

Deadstar Assembly - Breathe For Me
.. lyrics below.

Listen to Listen to me I need you A disaster's waiting to happen These are the things I can't see through When I'm saddened It's not me It's not me Just give me some room to breathe Or breathe for me Breathe for me Is this what it's about I've reached for the strength to hold out I'm leaving The tears keep burning my eyes And I have lost the strength to keep this alive It's not me It's not me Just give me some room to breathe Or breathe for me Breathe for me Breathe for me I can't explain what I feel But I know it's for real Don't let me go back down It's not me It's not me Just give me some room to breathe Or breathe for me Its not me Its not me Just give me some room to breathe Or breathe for me Or breathe for me
.. truly sorry that a disaster did happened.

~ in the end,

An Afternoon Massacre On Board

2006-10-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

a mild mannered session
still in the month of fasting
the indulgence of breakfast

flight

john tucker must die
when in the movie he didn't
completely hilarious by the way

the moments were spent
without any plannings ahead

the plannings in advance
it wasn't entirely me
multitasking is such a beautiful disaster
because he had an adorable co-pilot
to city hall in pink

we've had cheese from kentucky's
fried chicken and bits
pieces of hitting the lights on the ceiling
being tall and sitting on a sofa couch
has many disadvantages

especially near the restaurant
by the fountain of wealth

stayed indoors due to the smoky haze
some quick brisk exercise
a walk to neither here nor there
the wait for those exremely comfortable seats
the height issues

which some guy bumped his head twice
perhaps it was just another priceless plane ride

with his adorable assistant

~ major accidents do happen twice in a day.

.. a dedication; Sweetbox - 1000 words
~ lyrics..

I know that you're hiding things I know that you're hiding things Using gentle words to shelter me Your words were like a dream But dreams could never fool me Not that easily I acted so distant then Didn't say goodbye before you left But I was listening the fight Your battles far from me Far too easily "Save your tears cause I will come back" I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door But still I swore To hide the pain when I turn back the pages Shouting might have been the answer What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart? But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart Though a thousand words Have never been spoken They'll fly to you Passing over the time and distance holding you Suspended on silver wings And a thousand words One thousand confessions Will cradle you Making all of the pain you feel seem far away They'll hold you forever The dream isn't over yet Though I often say I can't forget I still relive that day You've been there with me all the way I still hear you say "Wait for me I'll write you letters" I could see how you stand with your eyes to the floor But still I swore to hide the doubt When I turn back the pages Anger might have been the answer What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait? But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late Cause a thousand words Called out through the ages They'll fly to you Even though I can't see I know they're reaching you Suspended on silver wings And a thousand words One thousand embraces Will cradle you Making all of your weary days seem far away They'll hold you forever Oh a thousand words Have never been spoken They'll fly to you They'll carry you home and back into my arms Suspended on silver wings And a thousand words Called out through the ages They'll cradle you Turning all of the lonely years to only days They'll hold you forever A thousand words
.. it's just about the height.

~ all aboard the central dessert of us.

.. to pieces.

Type A Screw Loose

2006-10-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

nothing much to say really
had to analyse this on my own
hopefully to slowly change into a better person

rewind

the recommendation letter was thoughtless.

silence is golden.

Lost Prophets - Rooftops
~ lyrics..

When our time is up, When our lives are done, Will we say we've had our fun? Will we make a mark, This time. Will we always say we tried. Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. This is all we've got now, Everybody scream your heart out. All the love I've met, I have no regrets, If it all ends now, I'm set. Will we make our mark, This time. Will we always say we tried? Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. This is all we've got now, Everybody scream your heart out. Standing on the rooftop, Waiting till the bomb drops, This is all we've got now, Scream until your heart stops, Never gonna regret, Watching every sunset, Listen to your heartbeat, All the love that we've felt. Standing on the rooftop, Waiting till the bomb drops, This is all we've got now, Scream until your heart stops, Never gonna regret, Watching every sunset, Listen to your heartbeat, All the love that we've felt. Scream your heart out. Scream your heart out. Scream your heart out. Scream your... Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. Standing on the rooptops, Everybody scream your heart out. This is all we've got now, Everybody scream your...
.. cheese fries.

~ just one fine day when everything is the opposite of one another.

A Decade Times The Number Of Fingers

2006-10-03T14:41:00.000+08:00

the realisation of the daily bliss
reaches the hundredth
secretly and silently spent at home

dinosaurs
sometimes the mind keeps on playing,
when the body's stationary.

tends to terribly missed the someone you love,
more as you're not with them.
guess we should just keep deaf about it,
everyday is like any other day.

tomorrow's a brand new day,
guess every brand new day is new.

there's not counting,
the hundredth day with you.

Sugarcult - Memory
~ lyrics below..

This may never start. We could fall apart. And I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. Feelings insincere. Can I be your memory? So get back, back, back to where we lasted. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. I'll tear us apart. Cannot be your enemy. Losing half a year. Waiting for you here I'd be your anything. So get back, back, back to where we lasted. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. Tearing out my heart. I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. (I'd be your memory) Feelings disappear. Can I be your memory? So get back, back, back to where we lasted. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. We could fall apart And I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. Feelings insincere. Can I be your memory?
.. she'll never be just a memory.

* some days could be bitter,
~ maybe tomorow could still be sweet.

Broken Wings Of A White Butterfly

2006-10-02T16:48:00.000+08:00

the minute ulcers beneath the lips
the tenth month of the gregorian calendar
the physical abstinence of the signicant other

bunny

a brand new month ahead
work was mentally challenged
fast food was truly in absence
the mind blanks
the antidepressants
a synthetic and plastic world we lived in
the seasickness in bed
brainwashed thoughts in the head
flat-out desirable fantasies

* without the pair of eyes to see...

* please place 'Anuar Bin Othman' in the space provided.

.. a hundred percent enough said.

The Used - All That I've Got
~ lyrics below..

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me Off guard, red handed Now I'm far from lonely Asleep I still see you lying next to me So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I.. I need something else Would someone please just give me Hit me, knock me out And let me go back to sleep I can laugh All I want inside I still am empty So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I... I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got I guess, I remember every glance you shot me Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat I squoze so hard I stopped your heart from beating So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I.. I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got And it's all that I've got Yeah, it's all that I've got It's all that I've got It's all that I've got It's all that I've got! So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got I'll be just fine Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got And it's all that I've got Yeah, it's all that I've got
.. she's all that and more.

* just another classification of innocence in absteine.

Twinkle Twinkle Fairy Dust

2006-09-29T15:13:00.000+08:00

the search for music of my favourite genre
classic.semi.punk.straightedge is dead and buried
the infestation of mainstream music is totally here

plastic
bubble is such a world we lived in
where substance is just like a morning dew
appearing every mornin
well every dew is totally different really
in the end it just appears
eventually as just a dew

well rested due
to the past nights' off
through the net the music gone soft
now full of lighted designs without any meaning
is experimental part of a beginning
or is it an ending

just that one can never be too sure
the life and state of another individual
who had shown to the world
he or she's just another scenester

a specfic youth subculture
wannabees and poseurs of the substances

* music's just another platform for ego.

one of the uncles of today's misguided..
Fugazi - Glueman
~ substance below..

I spent it all On the bag On the drag The sun comes up, the tide rolls out The trucks roll by the park still a park Where children play and pick up stones Anything to make them feel less alone - he's alone His mind is his own town where all his thoughts run aground They fall all over and down I spent it all On the bag On the drag The sun comes down, the tide rolls back We crawl our way back to the house we call home He holds his home in the palm of his hand And he says, and he says You are my everyone, you are my anyone You are my anytime, you are my every time why You are my everywhere...anywhere...
.. do not click the video below,
~ if music ain't your passion.

* pulled into the twilight zone.

a plastic universal of emotional lyrical poets,
is what's happening to today's society
a sudden spoof of this sudden century
is'nt about wars or peace
is about how basic education changes
the cracks of a pair of rose-tinted glasses

* a chipmunk future is upon us.
~ chipmunk lyrics to; Head Automatica - Beating Heart Baby..

beating hearts baby baby is this love for real? beating hearts baby let me in your arms to feel beating hearts baby the beating of your heart, baby beating hearts baby the beating of your heart, baby you, you want nothing to do with me you, you want nothing to do with me i, i don't know what to do with you cause you don't know what you do to me baby is this love for real let me in your arms to feel the beating of your heart, baby the beating of your heart, baby beating hearts baby baby is this love for real? beating hearts baby let me in your arms to feel beating hearts baby your beating heart, baby beating hearts baby the beating of your heart, baby you, you really got your hold on me you, you really got your hold on me you, you gotta get away from me cause you, you want nothing to do with me baby is this love for real let me in your arms to feel the beating of your heart, baby the beating of your heart, baby beating hearts baby baby is this love for real? beating hearts baby let me in your arms to feel beating hearts baby your beating heart, baby beating hearts baby the beating of your heart, baby in spite of you of you even out of view still I love all of you i do, yeah in spite of you even out of view still I love all of you i do, yeah you want nothing to do with me you, you want nothing to do with me baby is this love for real let me in your arms to feel your beating heart, baby the beating of your heart, baby beating hearts baby baby is this love for real? beating hearts baby let me in your arms to feel beating hearts baby the beating of your heart, baby beating hearts baby the beating of your heart, baby beating hearts baby baby is this love for real? beating hearts baby let me in your arms to feel beating hearts baby your beating heart, baby beating hearts baby .. ok, guess he had way too much rest these three days.

~ go figure the difference.
.. zzZ.

Grey Wheels That Keeps Turning Slowly

2006-09-28T15:55:00.000+08:00

the sky was of a pale yellow
was it the day before or after
the temperatures of a mild humidity to sleep

static
thoughts of someone of his calibre
unexpectedly had unknowingly applied
to be a regular police officer
barely made out alive
secretly from his supervisors
been through two drugged interviews

when being first handed
the letter from his mother
the pale yellow day before
news of a final interview

one that's soon turning
slowly his life around
either dramatically or drastically

last faceoff in a penal board
on friday the thirteenth
october two thousand and two

~ a millionth to one possible questions...

* mind still blanked.

Lost Prophets - Last Train Home
~ lyrics..

To every broken heart in here Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared She told me that it's all a part of the choices that you make Even when you think you're right You have to give to take But there's still tomorrow Forget the sorrow And I can be on the last train home Watch it pass the day As it fades away No more time to care No more time, today But we sing If we're going nowhere Yeah we sing If it's not enough And we sing Sing without a reason To ever fall in love I wonder if you're listening Picking up on the signals Sent back from within Sometimes it feels like I don't really know what's going on Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here But there's still tomorrow Forget the sorrow And I can be on the last train home Watch it pass the day As it fades away No more time to care No more time, today But we sing If we're going nowhere Yeah we sing If it's not enough And we sing Sing without a reason To ever fall in love Well we sing if we're going nowhere Yeah we sing if it's not enough And we sing Sing without a reason to ever fall in love But we sing If we're going nowhere Yeah we sing If it's not enough And we sing Sing with out a reason to ever fall in love To ever fall in love again fall in love again
.. the reasons why 'last train home' was ~~crossed~~ yesterday.

* 'live' in black and white to kill some boredom.
~ as another day just slowly passed away..

Rememberance

2006-09-27T15:17:00.000+08:00

extra hours were used instead of daily leave
forcibly sanctioned by the supervisor
the morning shift before tonight's

felix

a sudden reenactment of the dear's
lighthearted words
'only girls have blogs'

sets me thinking,
why in the world would someone type,
religiously to seldomly on a mainstream matrix?

for me,
back in time he found..

to the few reasons of the past;

*untitled
*boredom

.. enough said.

the once childish ancient;
to do,to buy, wishes...
(updated, irrelevant, achievements are crossed)

~~ass Off Friendster~~
~~a crap a day Keeps da Doc away~~
~~eye-Liner~~
~~going Werk Early~~
~~treating each Dae with Positive Atitute~~
buy a Levis Jeans
~~Black clothes~~
~~Shoes~~
~~New Hp~~
~~Dinner @ BK~~
~~get a Pistol~~
Straightenin my fringe
~~stop thinkin so much~~
shoes
~~Love~~
~~tappin EZ Link~~
~~irritating a chicken~~
~~Last cabin on a MRT~~
~~think~~
~~look~~
~~read a book~~
~~Last train home~~
~~stop swearin~~
~~peace~~
~~patience~~
Voice-out
~~get a bag~~
~~spend a dae wif a chicken~~
~~closin eyes~~
~~rest~~
~~sleep~~
record our jammin songs
start an album
designin my shoes
bein a Psychiatrist
~~Better job~~
~~chicken~~
~~Chocolate Fudge Cake~~
study
~~achieve~~
~~a Watch~~
~~bavery~~
~~Pizza~~
~~be a punk from da inside~~
~~Lunch @ KFC~~
~~kill boredom~~
~~Be understood~~
~~Be confusin~~
~~Be myself~~
~~Above all, get a Life.~~

(the ancient list was done during zero internet connection)

.. as memories fade,
for a guy like me,
realises he could be forgetful at times.

* boredom ain't a reason anymore.

stuff yet to be fulfilled;
hopefully, one fine day...
buy a Levis Jeans
shoes
Straightenin my fringe
Voice-out
record our jammin songs
start an album
designin my shoes
bein a Psychiatrist

~ song for the day from a guy's blog.
.. Alkaline Trio - Time To Waste.
* lyrics below..

There's someone down below blowing you a kiss. They watch from their windows As all arms fall to their sides, And all eyes fix on the death of tomorrow. And you found everything you need To make a life complete, Completely revolting and they have safety and relief For sale down the street. I see you in line every day You had time to waste and I'm not sorry, Such a basket case, hide the cutlery. I had time to kill, it's dead and buried. You've got guts to spill but no one trustworthy. These creatures are waking up in these dark trees. Awaiting like vultures. Eyes roll back turn white in time to feed They salivate in hunger. For you, and everything they need To make a death complete, Completely unnatural and salvation lies Behind those dead eyes that watch you while you sleep every night, and You had time to waste and I'm not sorry, Such a basket case, hide the cutlery. I had time to kill, it's dead and buried. You've got guts to spill but no one trustworthy. You had time to waste and I'm not sorry, Such a basket case, hide the cutlery. I had time to kill, it's dead and buried. You've got guts to spill but no one trustworthy.
.. we all have ample time to kill really,
~ just one fine day when it is'nt enough?

* absence makes the heart grows fonder.

A Quarter Since Certainty

2006-09-25T12:39:00.000+08:00

it was a classic a case of suicidal murder
used soft pillows and monitors were the instruments
a second in time killed without repercussions

melted
the unknowingly single heart was

not counting the lucky stars
a quarter of an annual
blissfully since passed
she broke the half of a half semi-record
the guiness world of a certain individual
he wondered sparingly
of such a case
now what boundaries we could explore
because he's new in this
together me and you futhermore
just hopefully till forever

* a special dedication for the dearest..
~ The Juliana Theory - This Is a Lovesong For The Loveless
.. lyrics,

You're not who you used to be, or at least not to me. A ghost on a movie screen is what you seem. Now you're the one to let the sun fall down like a stone in a river. You steal the blood inside of me. I can't bleed. This is a lovesong for the loveless and the hopeless. You can be certain that I'm with you when I sing. This is a lovesong for the desperate and the lonely. You could have nothing but you'll still have me. Gone like the sound of your voice or a passing minute. Blown like your hair in the breeze. You are the one to let our star fall down like a stone in a river. You stole the life inside of me. I can't breathe. This is a lovesong for the loveless and the hopeless. You can be certain that I'm with you when I sing. This is a lovesong for the desperate and the lonely. You could have nothing but you'll still have me. There's a part of me that dies when you turn away your eyes. I'm alive but not inside. And you know all I wanted was your love, but you left me high and dry. You're the part of me that died my darling. Now that I'm dead to you dear, you can slip those bullets back in your lips where they seethe. You were the one to gun our love straight down like a stone in a river. You shot your favorite enemy. Watch me bleed. This is a lovesong for the loveless and the hopeless. You can be certain that I'm with you when I sing. This is a lovesong for the desperate and the lonely. You could have nothing but you'll still have me.

.. you could be bored while watching television,
~ you'll still have me as a distraction..

* coincidental yet true,
.. 'The Juliana Theory' is a name of a rock band.

* an absolute fan of her life as always..

~ simplyher to pieces.

A Pair Of Dried Lips With Bared Adjectives

2006-09-24T16:19:00.000+08:00

institute of mental health
woodbridge hospital
spent his first day in adsteinance

remix

the joyride last night
of an emotional partner who speedily drove
mild recklessly self-carried
without saying sorry
instead spewed vulgarities
on the incoming huge metallic
vehicle of a sudden public bus
from the forthcoming leftside
he drove on the rightside
a second jump of my unknowing heart
police cars aren't used for speeding
buses who didn't check their blindspots
especially local ones
with little power steering
we lived for our duties

escorting of two supposingly mental subjects
a vanride to singapore's luny bin
a bald male deranged silent one
proved to be quite of an enlightenment scene
who denied of any reasonable answers
when questioned by the doctor
in profound english
told one of the officers off
a paid to sarcasm slave of
the illusive democratic government
certainly he's got my next vote of confidence
for palimony's president

the fact before all this haywire
a simple lunch of cheesy pasta
in the hut of pizza
with the significant other
was speechless due to reasons understated
truly unexpected will never forget
her twilight message for me
before she slept
on the last night at work

Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
~ lyrics..

Breathe in for luck breathe in so deep this air is blessed you share with me this night is wild so calm and dull these hearts they race from self control your legs are smooth as they graze mine we're doing fine we're doing nothing at all. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer. The words are hushed lets not get busted, just lay entwined here undiscovered. Safe from the earth and all the stupid questions.. "hey did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb. Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear, so we can get some. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst to break or bury or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer. Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember, I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late and the walk that we shared together. The street was wet and the gate was locked so I jumped it and let you in and you stood at the door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me, but you meant it and I knew that you meant it, that you meant it, that you meant it, and I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it

.. and i simply adore you too.

* on a date before that'll always be remembered.

The Winding Road Of Abstinence

2006-09-23T11:12:00.000+08:00

less then a day more to go
where famines and poverty is'nt the problem
just a silent battle within mentality

craziness

straight off to night-shift today
will be eating early in the morning
the next day in the workplace
meditation is solely required
from these first few days
of cold turkey

three meals a day
into two
eventually into half of one
to zero tolerance

surrounding patience and virtue
issues galore to respect the month

until my dearest sleepyhead;
.. enough said.

Spent On Suspension

2006-09-21T17:32:00.000+08:00

a month of religious abstinence
just around the sinful corner
kita berpuasa sebelum datangnya hari raya

butterflies
last things being seen today
soft pillows and huggable bolsters
surrounded my senses this day
static television and monitor screens
helpfully covered my eyes
moments stood as unrolled dices
the dearest rested
patience glimpses
hopefully will be better

'kita berpuasa sebelum datangnya hari raya'
in my simple english meant
'we thus abstein before realising the celebrations'

* chilled to this;
No Doubt - Don't Speak
~ written words below..

You and me We used to be together Everyday together always I really feel That I'm losing my best friend I can't believe This could be the end It looks as though you're letting go And if it's real Well I don't want to know Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts Our memories Well, they can be inviting But some are altogether Mighty frightening As we die, both you and I With my head in my hands I sit and cry Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are... You and me I can see us dying...are we? Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't tell me cause it hurts! I know what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't speak, don't speak, don't speak, oh I know what you're thinking And I don't need your reasons I know you're good, I know you're good, I know you're real good Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
.. hush,
* have a good rest my darlin.

.. a new day of work starts tomorow,
~ what untold consequences will happen.

Eastern Road Trip Of Fascination

2006-09-20T17:59:00.000+08:00

went a little overboard
the subjects as hanged on the camera mechanism
in the twenty-four hour ago in resolution

oblivious
in prices we head for an unknown destination
somewhere where guessed
she had known without a map nor compass
or even a sunny journey
over the underpass pedestrian we was
initially to head towards serangoon area
to find the illusive;

Komala Vilas Pte Ltd
South Indian Vegetarian Restaurant
76 - 78 Serangoon Road,
Singapore Tel : 62936980 - 62945294

for such an airconditioned oasis
dried from the humidity and cautiousness
a free space for advertisement in here

as we ate in muslim style
using our clean bare hands
instead using the usual forks and spoons
the tray was huge
shared on a banana leaf
neither too spicy nor mushy
of course the pictures couldn't be taken
because the meal had already been blissfully eaten

only the lemon brewed iced tea
were left as an advertising agent

ample time was noticed surprisingly
to travel to 'mustafa centre'
a mall full of random stuff
mountains and mountains of usages
a shelf-shopping oppotunity with the dearest
furthermore without cars and any vehicle licence

bet she's irritated quite possibly
by her boyfriend's antics
for the perfect film lighting
eventually was even tricked
posterised into standing next to the sign

now who was that evil photographer
nobody knows

not even me supposingly
in heading off to chinatown
in search of converse footwear discounts

the warm-hearted lady finally agreed
to be my favourite subject of the day

real proof evidence
from the top-left-handed corner
we've sidestepped in singapore's beijing
prelude to central singapura
geared from walking the long stretch
passed the many shophouses and jewelry stores

to the street of bugis
where our tiny legs
the journey for the footwear search
contiues passed the oceans and seas

the plentiful colours
surroundings of storewide mayhem
relaxations of an early dinner
in a second-storey chinese coffee shop

sliced fish and fried wanton was remembered
not even my occasional chopsticks professionalism
for the last one taken in a snap
and finally straight off to night-shift for me
a well-wished bag she then bought eventually

* from discounted footwear to a bag purchased,
~ a priceless connection..=)

Bloody Virgins No More

2006-09-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

my buddies are no more in purity of white
sinners from the fingers to the lips
they indulged on goat bones' soup

mary
had a little lamb
and the lamb was sure to go
to beach road in lavender
where army stuffs were gathered together

me,
Mr. Ang Wen Yong,
Mr. Wong Chun Haw,
spent our sunday afernoon.

they heaven't heard of this soup;
'Sup Tulang Merah',

in english meaning: 'Soup Of Bones In Red'.

in proper english meaning: ' Indian Style Goat Bones Soup'.

it was to these bunch of chinese guys,
finger-licking good.
shocked at the appearence
of the red liquidity of food.
plastic forks and spoons were basically introduced.

soon they got the hang of it,
we bloody rocked.

with sugarcane juice and barley,
at our sides.
the teacher is here,
confidence at hand.
" who's your daddy? "

believed at the point of this,
few last phrases were mentioned by us;

* rest in peace mountain goat.
* bet we can't run after this.
* we see blood.
* how come the colour can't wash off my hands.
* luckily we ate the last piece of bread.
* before the wind flew our plate away.
* we see more blood.

the boys eventually got tired
of walking around the road of beach
with still the thoughts of the meat
fresh in their minds
saw some wacky bangladeshi workers
before the entrance before the bridge
after the immigration building
dancing to the rhythm of their drums
pure entertainment
a few seconds of video was taken
via yours truly to be kept
as private amusement

we then head to the square of marina
the central of singapura
wasn't a surprise
it wasn't that crowded
due to the international convention
we became free advertisements

nescafe delegates
free coffee
free bitter milked coffee
in the central of marina

tested that 'ipod nano' is better
then 'creative nano'
exploring the space even further
we manage to stumble
into the basement of raffles city
the 'marketplace' as it was called
weird but true

in an area called 'burger king',
a fastfood outlet,
the burger was bigger then the size of my palm.
such happening stuff realised

best recorded on this special day.
because not everyday is sunday.

Mr. Lee Kehin,
guessing you're still,
a little white virgin right?

~ cheer-up ok,
you're next on my list old pal.

* where was the significant other half all along?
~ the whereabouts of his missed flu-infested dearest.

* in his mind all the time,
~ hoping she's had a good rest during these rare weekends.
.. zzZ.

Naked Fingers Melted Cream

2006-09-16T17:07:00.000+08:00

fishes and chips of the west
teriyaki japanese cuisine
point of east in the banquet

waffles
were given with every purchase
in the downtown east
yummy melt-chocalatey goodness
earlier in the bus she was
spent with half a day out and half a night-shift
moments priceless and the fudge was chewy
in the afternoon before

realised something in the twilight
that caffeine had zero tolerance on me
three packets of coffeeshop
ice-coffee with additional milk
and still nothing
the eyelids refused to open
so had two more
double latte plastic light
classic mocca
and still the petty crimes
wouldn't get any lesser
sleepless isn't an issue
it's all about the caffeine

.. hooked on curry puffs with sardine fillings.

A Shot Closer To Comfort

2006-09-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

it was such a unreasonable deed
by me truly felt terrible
for being thirty minutes too late

bang

as he was straight
shot to silence
by the adorable forgiving lady
both aged neither less then twenty
and four hours ago
in the evening before

technically unavoided things after;

* while picking up the bored girlfriend,
~ thou shalt not be late.

* there's a realisation if that ever happens,
~ thou shalt explain first then apologise later.

* explaination requires before and after process,
~ thou shalt have to elaborate in finer details.

* a simple call is worth crossing a bridge once,
~ thou shalt affirm before blinded assumptions.

* when she's patient enough to forgive,
~ thou shalt not repeat apologising.

* a final lesson to be learnt,
~ thou shalt have to adjust the time at hand.

.. either then everything
that's been spilled milk,
enough's been typewritten..

* truly felt a tint-closer to her..=)

Just A Couple Of Days Worth Of Scratches

2006-09-13T15:26:00.000+08:00

kittens are cute
cats are horrible
especially if wrongly handled by yours truly

innocent
at times cats may look cuddly
try handling one
when a cat's just been found
by some helpfull kid
who's being too considerate enough
to send in a feisty one
as a police report to be secured by me
it had a pink collar
but the scratches it gave ain't so pink
a sudden nightmare of doing night-shift

had the second day of the week
to relax and drift
went with the significant other half
for a slight trip to the big screen
monster house
at the house of shaw
as it may be
the house had ultra-comfortable seats
it was a chilled-day out
cheesy
half semi-lunch
half semi-dinner
semi-breezy eventually

monsters-lookalike at night

why seeing your face everyday wouldn't be sickening to me?

* because there's many girls outside are just distracting being pretty,
~ while you're just beautiful enough to gaze upon.

* because each day is as precious as it's being spent,
~ while the future is unpredictable as it is.

* because the pictures of you,
~ won't have a mind of their own to converse with.

* because sickness isn't due to looking at the face,
~ scientists' conclusion to how the body can withstand viral attacks.

* because as distracted as a gemini,
~ there's something about you which couldn't be kept unnoticed.

* because there's even many reasons to think of being creative,
~ face the fact that look is unavoidable.

The Pink Spiders - Modern Swinger
* lyrics below..

she's out of luck and out of hope and out of cigarettes misunderstood with naked pictures on the internet her social deviance is teasing me I know what I want and I'm really gonna really let her know that I like her but I just don't care enough to fool around with love yeah my baby's pretty as a car crash sexy as the stinger of a hornet in your arm just another modern swinger screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand and it's love it's heavy and it hurts and it's love strung out on blow she doesn't know why she's not feeling good dropped out of school and now she's moving out to Hollywood her reckless decadence is taking things a little too far and I'm really gonna really let her know that I like her but I just dont care enough to fool around with love yeah my baby's pretty as a car crash subtle as a splinter yeah my baby's smooth as sandpaper warm just like the winter screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand and it's love it's heavy and it hurts and it's love staring at my shoes thinking of something to say but nothing's better than what silence is saying when every time I turn around she's always looking away it's just the nature of the game that we're playing And I think I'm tapping out, I think I'm gonna skip the title bout yeah my baby's pretty as a car crash sexy as the stinger of a hornet in your arm just another modern swinger screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand and it's love it's heavy and it hurts and she's yeah my baby's pretty as a car crash subtle as a splinter yeah my baby's smooth as sandpaper warm just like the winter screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand and it's love it's heavy and it hurts and and she's yeah my baby's pretty as a car crash sexy as the stinger of a hornet in your arm just another modern swinger screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand and it's love it's heavy and it hurts and it's love

.. because it's just love.

* she was as seriously, pretty lovable in pink.

A Late Caption Revisited

2006-09-11T10:29:00.000+08:00

checked the calendar today
11th September 2006
in my mind remembered attacks 9-11

terrorism
in this huge world
in my mind believe
is too huge for world peace
to err is human
to forgive is divine

hmm..
which nonscence did that came from?

back to reality,
as the world gears for;
International Monetary Fund And World Bank Convention.
here in my sunny hometown of Singapura.
the fears are of a much nearer,
then really expected close.

my colleagues,
my friends,
especially those with famillies,
that are being deployed at this very moment.
hope nothing happens.

and especially to my dearest,
seven days,
a week of work,
rest early if possible,
less sightseeing of your favourite television clips.

* night-shift today for me.

~ eyes wide open nightmares of in the car asleep.

another classic randomness;
Neutral Milk Hotel - In the Aeroplane Over the Sea
.. lyrics,

What a beautiful face I have found in this place That is circling all round the sun, What a beautiful dream that could flash on the screen in a blink of an eye and be gone from me soft and sweet Let me hold it close and keep it here with me. And one day we will die and our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea, But for now we are young let us lay in the sun, And count every beautiful thing we can see, Love to be in the arms of all I'm keeping here with me. What a curious life we have found here tonight, There is music that sounds from the street, There are lights in the clouds, Anna's ghost all around Hear her voice as it's rolling and ringing through me, Soft and sweet How the notes all bend and reach above the trees. Now how I remember you, How I would push my fingers through your mouth to make those muscles move That made your voice so smooth and sweet, And now we keep where we don't know All secrets sleep in winter clothes With one you loved so long ago now he don't even know his name. What a beautiful face I have found in this place that is circling all round the sun When we meet on a cloud I'll be laughing out loud, I'll be laughing with everyone I see, Can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all.
.. classic 1998 relaxation.

.. zzZ.

Dense Analysations

2006-09-09T08:24:00.000+08:00

not a picture to describe it all
realisations that happened is the supervisor's saying
you're actually smarter then how you perceive

truth

a once in a lifetime episode
of fetching my lady from her workplace

somebody had to cross the overhead bridge twice
while the other was just late more then once
due to the bus to
either head for the north or east
for a quick trip to the library straightaway
in the point of compass area

from the day before
and just night-shift after a couple of dreams asleep

the trip was semi-relaxing to be true
just a seat away

a gorgeous auntie in a bus flagged by;

* me, to lend her my handphone.
* me, because her handphone's gone flat.
* me, her love.
* me, her child-lookalike.
* me, for directions to chinatown.

.. when my real love was just beside me,

* enough said;
Snow Patrol - Run
~ lyrics..

I'll sing it one last time for you Then we really have to go You've been the only thing that's right In all I've done And I can barely look at you But every single time I do I know we'll make it anywhere Anyway from here Light up, light up As if you have a choice Even if you cannot hear my voice I'll be right beside you dear Louder louder And we'll run for our lives I can hardly speak I understand Why you can't raise your voice to say To think I might not see those eyes Makes it so hard not to cry And as we say our long goodbye I nearly do Light up... Slower slower We don't have time for that I just want to find an easier way To get out of our little heads Have heart my dear We're bound to be afraid Even if it's just for a few days Making up for all this mess

.. both of us should quit our day-jobs for this.

~ giving day-to-day directions to nice old people for free,
* just you and me, my dear.