Simplicity Of My Complications: October 2006

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Silly Selfish Selfless Me

sleepless on the first day of the week
a case of the blues on a monday perhaps
the early transition to tuesday

signs

the few last things to do;
* wishing someone sweet dreams
* silent treatments to be understood
* adult presumptions to a preschooler
* resting before the night ends
* to converse instead of plain text
* the ten before twelve telecasted moments

.. if each day was a simple first date rewound,
~ truly looking forward to her after his work.

ps. loved the fragrance, the dearest who's resting.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
1:00 AM

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Just A Bit Of Humour Needed

these sealed up thoughts exactly
dreamt of being bitten by a snake
clear and distinct as he swung around his arm

smile

where's all the clowns in this blue sea
he needs a good laugh perhaps
before the mood swings are broken
due to severe workload and anxieties
.. enough said.

Weezer - Perfect Situation
~ lyrics below.

What's the deal with my brain? Why am I so obviously insane? In a perfect situation I let love down the drain. There's the pitch, slow and straight. All I have to do is swing and I'm a hero, but I'm a zero. Hungry nights, once again Now it's getting unbelievable. 'Cause I could not have it better, But I just can't get no play From the girls, all around As they search the night for someone to hold onto. And I just pass through... Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Get your hands off the girl, Can't you see that she belongs to me? And I don't appreciate this excess company. Though I can't satisfy all the needs she has And so she starts to wander... Can you blame her? Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Tell me there's a logic out there. Leading me to better prepare For the day that something really special might come. Tell me there's some hope for me. I don't wanna be lonely For the rest of my days on the earth. Oh..!! Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Noohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Noohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
.. let's sing a happy song together.

~ feeling fine before this night shift.

the dearest calls were the best

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
5:40 PM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

A Decent Table Serving Of Tennis

swing it to the left
forward right with the back
handed the tiny plastic ball

classic

evening sentiments exactly
where planned time goes topsy turvy
bright and early from her institution
the dearest downtown to his interchange

sitting while in wait
many years have passed since he's been
in this northern platform
single-decked buses traveled to secondary
school full of such nerdy times
top uniform in white bottom
the plays the chases
the childish fears corners the levels
memories of schoolmates floated by

she then came with such luggages
shared a fast dinner with the king of burgers

possibly annoyed with such photo takings
the late favourite subject of the moment
before headed on to a sudden competition
pure tennis on a table full of fascination

a subject in which his team won
such hobbies of the men in blue
the spare time due
smacked without a clue
his team bravo won

in animation the orange sphere
with of course in pictures it suspended
needless to say
the simple time spent with her
was justified truly priceless

Goldfinger - 99 Red Balloons
.. lyrics below.

You and I in a little toy shop buy a bag of balloons with the money we've got Set them free at the break of dawn 'Til one by one, they were gone Back at base, bugs in the software Flash the message, "Something's out there" Floating in the summer sky 99 red balloons go by. 99 red balloons floating in the summer sky Panic bells, it's red alert There's something here from somewhere else The war machine springs to life Opens up one eager eye Focusing it on the sky As 99 red balloons go by. 99 Decision Street, 99 ministers meet To worry, worry, super-scurry Call out the troops now in a hurry This is what we've waited for This is it boys, this is war The president is on the line As 99 red balloons go by. 99 Kriegsminister Streichholz und Benzinkanister Hielten sich fuer schlaue Leute Witterten schon fette Beute Riefen: Krieg und wollten Macht Mann, wer haette das gedacht Dass es einmal soweit kommt Wegen 99 Luftballons 99 dreams I have had In every one a red balloon It's all over and I'm standin' pretty In the dust that was a city If I could find a souvenir Just to prove the world was here... And here it is, a red balloon I think of you and let it go.
.. letting go of balloons anyone?

~ with pure bliss,
.. his adorable sleepyhead.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
10:54 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Simply Two Times A Couple Of Months

for the eyes a simple break from school and work
who needs the liners in black ink
when there's plenty of puffy bags to go around

peace

the grandmother's at work today
fancy this independent lady
a classic oldie with a classic touch
to work in her late seventies
didn't get a chance for a simple house call though

instead spent the early evening
the lady with the plans

to travel and explore
her very first time to the long lost city of vivo
in this truly tiny singapore
kids with credit are much appreciated by huge dinosaurs of sale
whose newly caves lined with plenty much
bargains of high-ended cheaply described goods
an artistically terrible sin for the tiresome eyes
pointed where we both simply could tell

still live virgins to ordering there
from such a quaint place full of skinny employees
the shakes with milk shall remain nameless perhaps

the triple chocolate chip indulgence
the thirst from lemon
flavoured glasses of distilled water

vouchers for ice cream were introduced for a surprise attack

one surprises too many he guessed
for the lady otherwise prefered
ahead to the basement banquet
a detour from the actual warm rooftop secenery
for some fabulous steamy hokkien prawn mee

for the lady who's completely stuffed
by now truly tired to deny
from the many snaps from his camera
as the theme point of the day was eye bags

had to honestly admit this time
he's a very bad photographer
with beautful memories for tonight

~ a special dedication if she doesn't mind;
Blue October - Calling You
.. lyrics below.

There's something I can't quite explain I'm so in love with you You'll never take that away And if i've said it a hundred times before Expect a thousand more You'll never take that away So expect me to be Calling you to see If you're okay when I'm not around Asking "do you love me" I love the way you make it sound Calling you to see Do I try too hard to make you smile? To make us smile I will keep calling you to see If you're sleeping or you're dreaming If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me I can't believe you actually picked me I thought that the world had lost it's sway It's so hard sometimes Then I fell in love with you Then came you And you took that away It's not so difficult The world is not so difficult You take away the old Show me the new And I feel like I can fly when i stand next to you So while I'm on this phone A hundred miles from home I'll take the words you gave me and send them back to you I only want to see If you're okay when I'm not around Asking "do you love me" I love the way you make it sound Calling you to see Do I try too hard to make you smile? To make us smile I will keep calling you to see If you're sleeping or you're dreaming If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me I can't believe you actually picked me
.. seriously without saying.

~ two times two equals four moments of not counting;
.. just a little bit priceless supposingly.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
10:29 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Murdered Celebrations He Wrote

running away at work
feelings complete
without a day missed

festive

a last minute decision by the supervisor
with simply fine doing romeo
a patrol car designated for the front line
being supervised instead of supervising the usual

on a festive season such as this
where all muslims rejoice
as a national service implement single
today he had to report for morning shift duty
a chance for the rest of the regular muslims
those with many families for their moments off
just to be with their sons and daughters

the feelings were truly great
the non-muslims expect a cranky anuar
it didn't happened really

from his classic parents seeked the many forgiveness
the once double twilight before
the basic economical increase
the money packets received from his family
is enough in simple moderation

silent broadcasted message through text;

anuar,
congratulations on your promotion
to the rank of corporal
with effective from 12/10/06.
email will be out soon.

~ content.

an increase pay
felt happy that day
eventhough an illigal immigrant was caught
towards late before reporting off

the afternoon's decent
peaceful as it seems
with many colours along the road

the visiting of relatives and friends
while the men in official blue
were keeping it safe and sorry
for the roads and streets and junctions
the skies and clouds
moments of peace was in the air

Gary Jules - Mad World
.. lyrics below.

All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world mad world Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world ... world Enlarge your world Mad world
.. my mad world.

~ mild-glad feelings.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:58 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

The Day Before The Festivals

the messages sent were plenty
some remembered
others simply forgotten

skies

if your religion is;

islam

rejoice for now
the month of absteince's ended
by the end of this evening
peaches of patience and virtue
draft waters of success in completion

.. he's working tomorow.

Hot Hot Heat - Middle Of Nowhere
~ lyrics below.

Don't get mad if I'm laughing Blame the caffeine for all the 5 am phone calls I haven't slept a single night in over a month And not even once did you start to make sense to me Well maybe I'm a little bit slow, or just consistently inconsistent She said, "Unpredictability's my responsibility, baby." But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out Just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere They chewed me up and then they spit me out And I'm not supposed to let it bother me But maybe I'm a little bit weak - I let my frailty take the wheel She said, "Maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you baby." But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out Just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out Just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off Back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on To go on back to the middle of nowhere
.. just somewhere at work he'll be.

~ content felt from respectable ~~boxes~~.

.. and into the rainbows with you.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
9:16 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Volunteering Jitters

a night in the night
a deployment after a shift
another mental reality

wishes

suddenly felt inspired
to disappear

never to let anyone know
where he was going to be
unless they want to truly understand
his location in dreams
far ahead from reality

.. enough said.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
7:54 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Mock Laughter Of Untold Dreams

the sandman suddenly slowly came visited
for a while it seemed awkward
days running in my dead mind

scenery

it's weird to have slept
for just a couple of hours

when in actual unbelievable fact
dreamt of being chased after in an arcade
stories unfold a game to be told

where whoever won would achieve a sudden prize
truth still to be told
the thing that had been running from
still couldn't yet to be recalled

he had a bad sleep while the next day
was the five o'clock in the morning
moments of shift was tired was tiring
it was a bit mentally challenging

craving he needs some ice cream perhaps
mint or chocolate or even mocca flavoured

.. the end.

Arcade Fire - Rebellion (Lies)
~ lyrics below.

Sleeping is giving in, no matter what the time is. Sleeping is giving in, so lift those heavy eyelids. People say that you'll die faster than without water. But we know it's just a lie, scare your son, scare your daughter. People say that your dreams are the only things that save ya. Come on baby in our dreams, we can live our misbehavior. Every time you close your eyes Lies, Lies! People try and hide the night underneath the covers. People try and hide the light underneath the covers. Come on hide your lovers underneath the covers, come on hide your lovers underneath the covers. Hidin' from your brothers underneath the covers, come on hide your lovers underneath the covers. People say that you'll die faster than without water, but we know it's just a lie, scare your son, scare your daughter, Scare your son, scare your daughter. Now here's the sun, it's alright! (Lies!) Now here's the moon, it's alright! (Lies!) Now here's the sun, it's alright! (Lies!) Now here's the moon it's alright (Lies!) But every time you close your eyes. (Lies!)
.. and you were truly missed.

~ and he lied when he wasn't thinking of her,
.. while she sleeps through tired.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
12:05 PM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Sleepless In Singapore

a couple of days
a couple of wackiness
from a couple and their moments

thoughts

no need to journal
truthfully speechless
to a library in wooodlands
failed hilarious surprises
to an underaged movie
you me and dupree
a summary of hidden notes here and there
to a location of crowded malay community
as the festive seasons draws near
simply in deeply
in love with my dear

.. enough mushy feelings said.
Atomic Kitten - Someone Like Me
~ lyrics below.

Don't let your head rule you heart Don't let your world be torn apart Don't keep it all to yourself Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me That's the way it should be Someone like me I know Its hard when you're feeling down To lift your feet up off the ground We make mistakes but doesn't everybody You don't always have to agree with someone like me That's the way it should be Someone like me We know the story so far (what you want and who you are) What you want and who you are (Free) Let all your emotions run free You don't always have to agree With someone like me That's the way it should be Someone like me Someone like me
.. for someone like you.

~ hehe.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:22 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Seven Days Of Replay All Over

a simple week after this
more abstinence ahead
the day of festive at work

evaluation
a distinct feeling of content
to have passed three weeks
without being tainted

reminiscence from the many pictures taken
the sweet bitterness trips
a moment glanced away into reality
she's back into her institution

she might be missed a bit though
or ironically in truth to be
maybe more then less it seems

hopefully her signicant other half
ain't in a major accident meltdown
from the dearest's distractions

the haze is bad
breathe slowly and take in lightly
patience is virtue in days to come

a moment of chilled relaxation
Eisley - Head Against The Sky
.. lyrics below.

Sleep with your head against the sky tonight. I can't count how many times you have made me cry. I marvel at the way your hair glows in the light. There's one who cares for me today. I've watched you grow up child, you have made me proud. I love the way your hand fits so nicely in mine. I always screw up, I wonder how you sing to me. There's one who cares for me today.
.. simply just glad.

~ the fixation and indulgence,
.. my sleepyhead.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
5:01 AM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

A Mix Of Black And Blues

the moments before
as events unfold
hearts

unresponsive
~ readmitted something;

I'm not like all the others hopefully.
I have a mind of my own unknowingly.
I can think without saying the opposite.
I can blindly see without assistance.
I can live without realisation.

Don't judge me by first impressions please.
That doesn't classify anyone anywhere.
Stare into my eyes for a glimpse.
Crawl around in my mind patiently.
Take a simple light grip of my soul.
I promise you've never seen it before twice or again.
I'm unique maybe.
I like who I am really with you.

I speak my mind secretly.
I have the power to do anything eventually.
I want to change the world it seems.
I want to fly with you.

I want to understand my interaction.
I want to know your silent thoughts.
I've made classical mistakes before.
I've done wrong things occasionally.
But it makes me who I am today and yesterday.

If you really want to know me,
Look deep inside of me and ask.
I'll show you something amazing if could.
I'll show you me as a person from within.
only for my dearest juliana out there.

then to the eastern front we headed
the point of the malay community
a bazaar of a thousand many traditional clothes
the fruitless search
the guy was as usual a bit irritating as always

the patient was realised pissed
debates are healthy he guessed
the lady just wasn't in the mood

only god can explain the problem
in resolution for breakfast was quite
quick in the busride to beach road
where the tables are plenty

yet the seats aren't so plenty
nevertheless the atmosphere was there
with noodles of siam
with beef cooked to perfection

an oriental one we supposed
with cool fruits
that played around with us
an acciden with papaya and watermelon
apart next to the halal food central

the busride
terribly crowded with impatience
a decent photography just couldn't be cleared
charged as nonsensical guilt
by the adorable lady
never felt the harshness in words though
just worried about her late night
clouded nightmares of leaving me

~ a simple song for the senses..
Amberlin - Paperthin Hymn
.. lyrics below.

When your only friends are hotel rooms Hands are distant lullabies If I could turn around I would tonight These roads never seemed so long Since your paperheart start beating leaving me suddenly alone Will daybreak ever come? Who's gonna call on sunday morning? Who's gonna drive you home? I just want one more chance To put my arms in fragile hands I thought you said forever Over and over A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion These thoughts run through my head Over and over Complaints of violins become my only friends August evenings Bring solemn warnings To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight You never know what temporal days may bring So laugh, love, live free and sing When life is in dischord Praise ye the lord Who's gonna call on sunday morning? Who's gonna drive you home? I just want one more chance To put my arms in fragile hands I thought you said forever Over and over The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion These thoughts run through my head Over and over Complaints of violins become my only friends I thought you said forever over and over The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion These thoughts run through my head over and over Complaints of violins become my only friends I thought you said forever over and over These thoughts run through my head
.. these just simple thoughts.

~ even in pieces my dearest,
.. you're still to be loved all over.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
2:01 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006

Bad Or Good Lucky Thirteen

the shift in the night
a leave was then granted
free from the composure

purity

attended a certain interview
in view of the unquestionable
state of a national serviceman
hope turning to regular
a start for a career

nervousness creeps in the headquarters
located near novena
the twin towers as it was called

met a certain individual
the same batch similar who planned
wore his uniform straight into the room
it seems more honest in looks
as told by the supervisor of his

as for this certain
individual who's typing
the wacky supervisor adviced
just wear a tie there ok
so he wore followed with mild pink
weird but true
he was the only one
all tied up
for the dreaded interview

the panel consists of three
extremely truly big shots

the personal questions they asked;

* what's my hobbies?
* what's your goals like?
* your future five years achievement?

seriously mentally expected much tougher
questions though which he left the room
all three in smiles

with still head heavy from the repercussions

the dearest was free on a fast train
proceeded to town then

her failure to not be beautiful
was captured on a priceless moment

the walkways and highways of buses
eventually led to a decent breakfast
across the seas of esplanade
over the merlion's bridge
tucked into the right corner
of singapore's
lao pa sat
a bustling food station full of hawkers
from all walks of life

a little bit lost neither here nor there though
western meals during the middle eastern breakaway
.. enough said.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:31 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

The Service A Year Since Passed

a year has passed
the changed has changes
pure enlightenment

chainsaw

11/10/05
the day this guy
went into the police service
lifestyles of the budget and infamous
squad 52 year 2005

block 25 delta coy
where to us
a heaven for the guilty consious
a spacious cupboard
to store the summer clothes
and winter extras

well the day begins with the bald personnel
yours truly me
a remembered time of also abstinence

the food was then delicious
a delicacy compared to the army
spaghetti from the west
in the olden academy

the food was good
the fat stays fat
the unarmed tactics were taught
to protect life and property

through a strict routine of exercises
the fit squad stays fit
the training of muscles were always kept in checked
do it the smart way always
without a doubt

the classy way
in terms of weight training
the mental procedures of learning
to always be prepared for any last minute calling
the brain rush to each class

the belt undone
to be tied on the the stairs
he wasn't the culprit really
the studies were a challenge
the laws the extras
just a part of the few clowns in class

please don't missjudge the surroundings
the plain discipline

the day parades in the sun
the night parades under the moon
drinking of water without fail every single twilight

notice the fuel on his bottle
every consumption counts
every tiny drop matters
as ending due
totally torturing these three months

we had our little bit of fun
a picture tells a thousand words really
the basic life of police training ends

now where can squad 52/05 be found
in the hearts
during passing out dinner
the couple of days before vocational training

the last day of the whole team

before jumping
into the new home team academy

for two weeks of station security courses
in chalet heaven it was
the bed was the bomb
queen sized mattress

still the food was
equally entertaining and divine
he was then a squad leader during vocational
while in review the two weeks passed
posted first day in neighbourhood police centre
this picture was taken

the much has passed
to this very recent picture
closed to today

and so ends the one year review
of a guy like me

~ the end.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
6:53 PM

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