Simplicity Of My Complications: November 2006

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Some Questions And Answers Scene

insert life of a national service officer
plus the watch with twenty five minutes to late
perhaps it was too early instead

records

seeing the monitor that couldn't be bothered
too sensitive to ask any wrong questions
talked to himself instead
rauna to anuar

~ how are you these days?
i'm perfectly fine.

~ serving national service?
yes.

~ what vocation exactly?
as a man in blue.

~ catch any criminals yet?
it's not all about catching criminals.
my job in a division as a pratroling officer.
morning then night shifts then rest two days.
posted in the east while living in the north.
go figure the traveling calculation.

~ basically what do you do each shift?
mostly arrive an hour earlier then my colleagues.
whom have appointed me as the maintenance officer.

~ what kind of cases?
various in sensitivity and kinds.
noise pollutions and household disputes.
insane people that's mentally unstable.
missing pesons' found and drugs declared.

~ how do you keep track of them?
more things to do and write as the bigger the cases goes.
the camera handling and report printings.

~ do you get worried?
yes.
maybe i'm paranoid at times.
because each day is never the same.
one moment i might be just cruising and the next chasing.
there's no control whether today will be in danger.
it feels good to come home to see the family.
to occasionally see my buddies.
to simply have a conversation with the dearest.

~ the dearest?
my significant other.
whom at times i let my ego get the best of me.
i'm truly sorry for being late and making careless mistakes.
half true when she mentioned that certain time i don't understand you.
i felt i did and opened up to ask in the first place.
a risky obvious question that wasn't worth it eventually.
now i have zero obvious topics.
i listened and talked to myself lately.
in conclusion he should keep any inquisitive stuff to myself.
hopefully try to better understand you my lady.

a classic; Boxcar Racer - There Is
.. lyrics below.

This vacation's useless These white pills aren't kind I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9 And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have The days have come and gone Our lives went by so fast I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor Where I laid and told you, but you swear you loved me more Do you care if i don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay That there's someone out there who feels just like me There is Those notes you wrote me I've kept them all I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall With every single letter in every single word There will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl Do you care if i don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me There is Do you care if i don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay That there's someone out there who feels just like me Do you care if i don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay That there's someone out there who feels just like me There is
..us.

~ i miss you.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
2:15 PM

Monday, November 27, 2006

Flowers Plus Sunshine Equals Sunflowers

the day is such a bright little thing
especially since the twilight ago
waiting for life that goes on crossings

railroad

each day goes by without a trace
the mild many acquaintance and friends dissolved
spent a moment in banquet
perhaps time should be treasured quietly

admit missing the lady in revision
to sit to the front of a monitor
in high definition of resolution
to stop himself to be a disturbance
unless she starts the coversations

The Speaks - High
.. lyrics below.

Will it ever be? I've tried so hard to find sweet serenity Are you still afraid? Just close your eyes and dream, and feel it fade away. Time won't flow, everyone knows When the pain fades away And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes You've got to hold your head up high.. It's taken some time, And I've given up the will to change your state of mind Try and understand, It's not so hard to see that I am just a man. Time won't flow, everyone knows When the pain fades away And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes You've got to hold your head up high.. Will it ever be? I've tried so hard to find sweet serenity Try and understand, It's not so hard to see that I am just a man. Time won't flow, everyone knows When the pain fades away And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes You've got to hold your head up high..
.. dreams.

~ of you and me.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
7:59 PM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Number Of Fingers In A Palm

sleepless tonight perhaps
speechless perhaps to mouth anything
since forced to listen to himself lately

swing

there are some things better left unsaid
not for the views of the light hearted
deeply sorry for the questions asked

special dedication; The Cardigans - Lovefool
.. lyrics below.

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem You love me no longer, I know and Maybe there is nothing that I can do To make you do Mama tells me I shouldn't bother That I ought to stick to another man A man that surely deserves me But I think you do So I cried, I prayed and I begged Love me, love me, say that you love me Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me Love me, love me, pretend that you love me Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me So I cry, and I beg for you to Love me, love me, say that you love me Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me I can't care 'bout anything but you Lately, I have desperately pondered Spent my nights awake and I wonder What I could have done in another way To make you stay Reason will not lead to solution I will end up lost in confusion I don't care if you really care As long as you don't go So I cry, I pray and I beg Love me, love me, say that you love me Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me Love me, love me, pretend that you love me Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me So I cry, and I beg for you to Love me, love me, say that you love me Leave me, leave me, just say that you need me I can't care 'bout anything but you Anything but you Love me, love me, say that you love me Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me Love me, love me, I know that you need me I can't care 'bout anything but you
.. loved instead.

.. five, four, three, two, one,
~ months with you.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
10:30 PM

Friday, November 24, 2006

Short Distances With Considerable Substances

never walk in the spoilt shoes of a fellow
there will be holes in it to fill up
the rainwater and drenched feet possibilities

penguins

the movie topic of the half afternoon
was watching happy feet
shown in antartica full of singing penguins
there were tiny furry cuteness
practically jolly and chubbiness relaxing

since the location she chose was in his hometown
to drag the time he felt moody
purely no reason but just to extend it
to exercise the relaxed mental mind
just a few debate perhaps
honestly no pun nor harm intended

for the dearest; Jason Mraz - Life Is Wonderful
~ lyrics below.

It takes a crane to build a crane it takes two floors to make a story it takes an egg to make a hen it takes a hen to make an egg there is no end to what i'm saying it takes a thought to make a word and it takes some words to make an action and it takes some work to make it work it takes some good to make it hurt it takes some bad for satisfaction ah la la la la la la la life is wonderful ah la la la la la la life goes full circle ah la la la la la la life is wonderful ah la la la la it takes a night to make it dawn and it takes a day to you yawn brother and it takes some old to make you young it takes some cold to know the sun it takes the one to have the other and it takes no time to fall in love but it takes you years to know what love is and it takes some fears to make you trust it takes those tears to make it rust it takes the dust to have it polished ah la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la la la la life goes full circle ha la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la it is so and it is so it takes some silence to make sound and it takes a loss before you found it and it takes a road to go nowhere it takes a toll to make you care it takes a hole to make a mountain ha la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la la la la life goes full circle ha la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la la la la life is meaningful ha la la la la la la life is wonderful ha la la la la la it is so wonderful and it is so meaningful it is so wonderful it is meaningful it is wonderful it is meaningful it goes full circle wonderful meaningful full circle wonderful
.. with you especially lah.

.. happy revising during the weekends.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
9:25 PM

Thursday, November 23, 2006

All About The Flipside

simply no questions with just considerable answers
a sense of invulnerability to a male dominant
is telling the obvious truth

crashes

lots of people comes then goes away
occasional stays or some potential stray
a bit sense of needed affection with a tiny hug

some listening ears without being asked
being physically there and mentally aware
needed capabilities of each day unworried

where language is a barrier overcome by vast gadgets
dread these tired feelings and second loneliness
a note to himself with a white little lie

.. fades to black.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:00 PM

Monday, November 20, 2006

Rainbows And All Of The Above

it seems probably a long while since in here
days goes driven to the times
simply a roller coaster joyride perhaps

splashes
of colours here and there these past few weeks
or is it only been just the past couple few of days
how was he to know in simplicity
it suddenly seems a quite short of a while

an american presidential deployment in a five star hotel
more then twelve hours in sunny singapura called shangri-la
the diplomat himself had a very ultra sleek shiny limousine
statute stood in traffic attire
three days and two nights of sleeping at the workplace

a thinner haircut with an even shorter fringe
much to his many disapproval's tea
of cheer ups from the patient dearest
for her and as come what may goes
the many days and these after nights

~ The Cure - Friday I'm In Love
.. lyrics below.

I don't care if monday's blue Tuesday's grey and wednesday too Thursday i don't care about you It's friday i'm in love Monday you can fall apart Tuesday wednesday break my heart Thursday doesn't even start It's friday i'm in love Saturday wait And sunday always comes too late But friday never hesitate... I don't care if monday's black Tuesday wednesday heart attack Thursday never looking back It's friday i'm in love Monday you can hold your head Tuesday wednesday stay in bed Or thursday watch the walls instead It's friday i'm in love Saturday wait And sunday always comes too late But friday never hesitate... Dressed up to the eyes It's a wonderful surprise To see your shoes and your spirits rise Throwing out your frown And just smiling at the sound And as sleek as a shriek Spinning round and round Always take a big bite It's such a gorgeous sight To see you eat in the middle of the night You can never get enough Enough of this stuff It's friday I'm in love
.. truly simply do.

~ monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday,
.. friday, saturday and sunday passed by.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
4:05 PM

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Rains Of Sunshine In The Eyes

a day ago it rained
who cares whether drenched or dry
he'll be by her side

space

movements seemed to passed by without a trance
shoes wet and a flu's coming
a little headache's been felt
water drops thin paper

emotional cut on the eyes
he's drunk when sleepy due to a sudden shift
the night before and morning after
the sixth day of the week
the curtains of his found to be awesome in the early hours

the day after the drops perhaps
sorrows felt blown away in an instant
the faints and photographs in an incredible reality

Christina Aguilera - Hurt
~ lyrics below.

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face You told me how proud you were, but I walked away If only I knew what I know today I would hold you in my arms I would take the pain away Thank you for all you've done Forgive all your mistakes There's nothing I wouldn't do To hear your voice again Sometimes I wanna call you But I know you won't be there I'm sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn't do And I've hurt myself by hurting you Some days I feel broken inside but I won't admit Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss And it's so hard to say goodbye When it comes to this, Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand? Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am? There's nothing I wouldn't do To have just one more chance To look into your eyes And see you looking back Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn't do And I've hurt myself, If I had just one more day I would tell you how much that I've missed you Since you've been away It's dangerous It's so out of line To try and turn back time I'm sorry for blaming you For everything I just couldn't do And I've hurt myself by hurting you
.. sorry.

~ good luck in the endeavours ahead,
.. my dearest.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
10:51 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006

Double Sweet Morning Madness

plastered to a the wall
an early morning call
high rised to a fall in a mall

posterised

at times looked back
too much perhaps
in another early chapter
pointed to the movie of his life
he's had the fast food's been travelled

days of being a teenager
much appreciated yet seldom seem to be
the kentucky's fried chicken in an area of bishan
the topless cheese with delicious cutlery
had our western fishes mixed up
to the trains to school eventually

~ a classic to smooth the senses..
Madonna - Like A Prayer

Life is a mystery Everyone must stand alone I heard you call my name And it feels like home When you call my name, it's like a little prayer I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there In the midnight hour, I can feel your power Just like a prayer, you know I'll take you there I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing I have no choice, I hear your voice Feels like flying I close my eyes, Oh God I think I'm falling Out of the sky, I close my eyes Heaven help me When you call my name, it's like a little prayer I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there In the midnight hour, I can feel your power Just like a prayer, you know I'll take you there Like a child you whisper softly to me You're in control just like a child Now I'm dancing It's like a dream, no end and no beginning You're here with me, it's like a dream Let the choir sing When you call my name, it's like a little prayer I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there In the midnight hour, I can feel your power Just like a prayer, you know I'll take you there Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery Just like a dream, you are not what you seem Just like a prayer, no choice your voice can take me there Just like a prayer, I'll take you there It's like a dream to me
.. life's certainly a mystery.

~ don't worry be happy.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
5:32 PM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Love Mechanism Dysfunctionality

it happens in an instant
the receiver didn't broadcast his words
silence is the unwanted golden egg

robot

one or two or even three days ago
the stop and story of a broken handphone
for a second instant

missed the usual contacts
the much usual suspects and the love
private emails and housecalls
instant messangers aren't any convertible
driven the long lonely road
without the favourite numbered buttons and receiver

long last today's been repaired
talking seems to be a much realised
better form then texting
coversations much uninterrupted
by birds chirping in the foreground

reminding how technology is such a waste
when not used properly
the fans especially in the background
last minute outings and priceless moments spent
technicality for a much valued individual

.. my sleepyhead.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:19 PM

Friday, November 03, 2006

Sense Of Wit And Happiness

it was a such a short simple version
pure movie magic
plus a much anticipated rank received

apples

caught a fast screening of death note.
felt it has a great storyline
when there's few especially in the whole theatre

names written within forty seconds
to the halt of the heart
bored individuals could do with a notebook at hand

the couple faced with an evil look
somewhere up north to the plaza near the sun
to kill without a single touch of reality

breathe in a single word too deeply
probability and statistics of both work and school
tires the mental state these two individuals

went ahead to the team function
down to the aloha east
received this token in plastic
with congratulations from those around

.. sorry he doesn't deserve it really,
~ the movie had a second episode; the last name.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
10:50 PM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Echoes Needed For Translation

the first day of november
the weather's going wet sooner
drop drizzles and sizzles on the many faces

blank
attended a weird language case this day
for someone who seldom uses mandarin
especially when most still didn't know he studied

some malay guy out there actually volunteered
to use his secret ability to converse
in reality during an indonesian home devastation
by a chinese tuition teacher who wouldn't leave
refusal to give even her particulars

in our seat she screams in my ears
stayed and dragged til a conclusion
to pacify peace she's told to leave
spoken in her tongue he did
a success in confidence by yours truly

yet the confidality was breached eventually
more then a year later the regular rest knows

the months come by faster then it seems
woke up feelings unpredictable
mondays to sundays a blur
weekdays and weekends remixed to confusion
whatever whenever come what may's
simply treasures the short sweet moments of practicalities

The Rocket Summer - This Is Me
~ lyrics below.

Everyday I wake up late. Since I quit my day job I have been sane. But responsibilities sure do remain, but I'll just let them wait. Because I don't know what I am doing now, and I wont try to act like it cuz I sure don't know how. And I'll admit that I don't know, just where I'm going on this long and winding road that's taking me to what will be my home. So stare and see this is me, and I will be just what I need to believe that something is what I'm gonna be. And what you do is what you do and what I do needs to be true. The things I do maybe need to be thought through, but just remember what's right for me, might be not right for you. Staring at this mirror and I'm wondering who you are. Right now is a time for searching and I just wish I had a car to drive a long distance and just think about the war, and now life's got so much more. Because I don't know what I am doing now, and I wont try to act like it cuz I sure don't know how. And I'll admit that I don't know, just where I'm going on this long and winding road that's taking me to what will be my home. So stare and see this is me, and I will be just what I need to believe that something is what I'm gonna be. And what you do is what you do, and what I do needs to be true. The things I do maybe need to be thought through... But I know what I want to do and I want it to be true. And yeah I'd be the first to say that of course I'll listen to you, but remember what's right for me, might be not right for you
.. he realises so too.

~ sorry for the surprise attacks on the heart,
.. a complicated institution when the handphone's dead.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:46 PM

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