= The Victim =


Cracked :
Anuar.Son of Othman
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Sex :
Yes.yes.yes
But, then..
Only after marry2.
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Last Weapon Used :
Water Pistol.
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Simply ♥ :
his dear sleepyhead.
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Was Last Seen :
Running Away
With A Pink Paint Marker.
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R.I.P :
1st June 1986
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Crayons :
Black.Red.White
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Lost Causes :
JieminPrimary(1993-1998)NorthlandSecondary(1999-2002)CollegeWestDover(2003-2005)PoliceNationalService(121stIntakeFitSqd52/05)
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If All Else Fails :


= Ties =
_Adi.
_Ain.
_Alfie.
_Aziana.
_Chris.
_Eric.
_Fadilah.
_Faizal.
_Hidayah.
_Izyan.
_Juliana.
_KeHin.
_Kenneth.
_Khairi.
_Nuraqilah.
_Nurizzati.
_Roslina.
_SiHui.
_Wahidah.

= Shots =
Apologise For Shouting Bullets From Aftermath Testing One Two Eleven Twelve Intake Eleven Bee Hive License To Fly In The Ocean A Mad Dash Of The Old A High Five Days Ago Video Rodeo Today And Tomorrow Moments Of Broken Substitutes The Eight Ball Keeps Rolling

= Guilt =
April 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 October 2007 November 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 February 2009 March 2009

= The Crimes =
Death By Friendster?
'cute = insanity'
Toopid Chipmunk & Lizard!
Anti-Friendster-Profile
.fear.explained.
( kinda proud to be a singaporean )
buying.an.igloo
^respect^the^animals
*Aint An Emo Kid
*Im Just A sXe
his.nightmares
her.nightmares
~ hubbing.
~ one life lived.
~ under the red umbrella.
Singapura's Media

= The Freaking Headaches =
Crimson Room
Viridian Room
White Chamber
Blue Chamber

= The Voices =

= The Profile =

About Me

My Photo
Name:
Location: Switzerland


.someone.who.nvr.realise.something.
.unless.its.too.late.
.to.his.friends.diff.pespectives.
.nvr.judge.him.observe.
.fast.western.choco.
.ice.mint.pepsi.
.food.beverage.

= Hidden Desires =

professional random photography
n/service october'05 - march'07
dvd handycam february'08
eos slr camera march'08
gold playstation portable july'07
tickle me elmo t.m.x.
class 3 basic theory april'06
class 3 final theory july'06
class 3 final practical
class 3 vehicle license
diploma education
saving for diploma education
police force regular april'07
believing in true luv again
flexibility in thinking & adapting
overcome her swimming fears
spending sufficient time with her

= Footsteps =

* bitter-sweet sizes.

= Contradictory =

* voices.against.constant.reaction.

= Television =

* zebra.revolver.officer.dreams.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Unconscious
gona be da last week of raya
no festive feelings.
confessions made from a cow
24hrs without sleep since yesterdae,
how to survive mid-term papers tomorrow?

Bless
those sons of bitches.(those comin in on the 13th of october)
a buzy week later with shooting fames & tests commin up.
-a brief conversation,
between his conscious mind & sub-conscious mind;
"Question"-why da hell u feel u like her?
conscious: hey, it wasnt me, blame it on his sub-conscious!
sub-conscious: WaTeVa.. stop being so innocent for once la boy.
conscious: wat freakin innocence are u talking about?
sub-conscious: dunt act as if u dun noe anything, u idiotic childish conscious mind, then why did u msg her ever so often..? confirm u cant answer dis question, muhah!
conscious: er.. hmm.. hmm.. hmm... suddup u, ya think ya so clever isit.? Basketball!! we're just friends pe, can't i just msg her if i never meet her. anything wrong with dat? Ryte?
sub-conscious: You're sure one Pure Bullshit Conscious of a Mind, i sure pity your Owner...
conscious: ey, we share the same owner la, haiyo..
sub-conscious: well.. ya sure one lagging mind..
conscious: me? lagging? so ya the brains now isit? then please state your little sub-consciously little tiny point of why u feel u truly hv feelings for her..? go on, say it..
sub-conscious: ok, u hard-headed conscious fool, firstly, why didnt u just give up on her in first place..?
conscious: becos, in the first place, i really just wana make frens with her.. that was so such an easy question.. haha.
sub-conscious: o really..? do u find her cute the first time u catch a glimpse of her..?
conscious: hmm.. well.. she was a little bit cute tho..
sub-conscious: Nonscience! cute means cute, where got a little bit, i can read ur conscious mind tau, muhahaha..
conscious: yayaya, wateva la, u aint gettin any info from me.
sub-conscious: okie, next bonus question, how do u find her?
conscious: hmm.. in the first place, she seems friendly, etc.. blablabla..
sub-conscious: hard to spit out ryte, well.. i noe u find her to be sporty, kind, sometimes a bit dreamy, a bit nonscence, sacastically adorable & entertains your crap, oh well, she really does entertain Most of ur crap.. poor lady, always being disturbed by u, she even sometimes replys while she's buzy, u outa be ashamed of yourself!
conscious: huh..? really all dat meh..?
sub-conscious: lyke duh, toothead.
conscious: butbutbut, we almost never meet out.
sub-conscious: well, thats ur fault, & for not asking her out earlier, see now, your stuck in ns prison. Serve u ryte, & plus, dun be so shy next time la, i noe u aint a gifted conversationalist Lyke moi..
conscious: o really u emo.., u think ya so good isit..? Come on la, focus on the things @ hand.. dont dream, think logical for a change, remember wat happened da last time u had a long crush on someone? she'll surely fell for someone better looking & more talented who just comes in a momment.. wad do u hv..?
sub-conscious: @ least i tried & still trying
conscious: u tried? Pleeze la bro! dun make me laugh.
sub-conscious: hey i do missed her.
conscious: Hahaha, emo crap.
sub-conscious: ey, becos of this 'emo' crap, u only hav the confidence to call her..
conscious: i called but its was u, who had nothin to sae & was tongue-tied.. ryte mr sub-conscious..?
sub-conscious: er.. hehehe=p!
conscious: dah paisey now ryte!!
sub-conscious: i gotta headache ryte now..
conscious: muhahahahaa..
sub-conscious: so, do u agree with me that u lyke her..?
conscious: well.. if yes means no, then no means yes, then i shall just wait for her.
sub-conscious: Stop Twisting & turning ur point la idiot!
conscious: okie okie, as long you noe wat i think, wat for i continue on with this conversation..
sub-conscious: waTeva.
conscious: sometimes i wonder how come u never want to noe other girls? got very pretty2 ones u noe
sub-conscious: .... because, i'll get much more of a headache argueing with u..
conscious: wateva, emo crap.
--- end of recording ---

Conclusions by ~da LosT Victim. @ 4:29 PM & in his palm, had 0 bullets

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
4:29 PM



Friday, November 04, 2005

Reappearance
yesterdae was hari raya
todae i had sore-eyes..
running noes for da past 3 daes..
da quiet things dat no one eva noes

Sorry
for my mistakes..
after 30 daes of fasting..,
life still goes on...
sometimes i wonder..
as i type dis..
im crying,
toopid sore eyes!
went to granny home in da mornin of hari raya,
Lotong, rendang, sambal sotong was there..
*a tear fell..
fr the days i missed,
blablabla..
u noe something, isnt it easy to just give a call..,
to tell everything @ once,
to just shout it out loud..
i did told ya b4, da quiet things dat no one eva noes..
*another tear fell..
luckily i just bought a tissue.
da unlucky part was,..
da quiet thing dat no one eva noes..
was he shy..?
did he had no choice..?
da quiet things dat no one noes
why didnt he just ask, isnt it dat simple..
alas, time doesnt permit or isit him..?
its really dat simple.
fr someone whos so far away
lets jus make it in a country far away..
a year since, then,
he could only blabber,
fr he did missed her
eventho in jus msgs.
da quiet thing.
he's neither dat outspoken in person,
nor carin in human,
dat no one eva really noe..
a dae, an outin he really wished..
eventho he's nva kinda eva been on one..
*lalaalallala..
da quiet thing that noe one eva noes...
her rhymes wif rain.
* another fell..
tissue..?
why.., he wondered.
still yet to eva ask her.
shyness.
da quiet thing dat no one eva noes..
simple right..?
wat did he hav to give..?
nothin i suppose.
but nothin can actually be somethin if eva da void is cherished..
wat void..?
hw should i noe..?
whos da hell's he...?
or was it a she..?
perhaps is jus one of the things dat no one eva noes.
which one isit..?
no one.
really.
back to reality..,
face it anuar, ur weekends are stuck @ home studying law, police philosophy.., exam in early DEC.
dabbed, a tissue.
thanks.
i wished i could maen mercun..=)
she's really someone nice.
puposely done in black ink so dat dis isnt known.
*lalalaalalalablalabla

Conclusions by ~da LosT Victim. @ 8:27 PM & in his palm, had 0 bullets

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
8:27 PM




Simplicity Of My Complications;Blood-stained Bullets Missed My Head... Yet Entered My Life...
none.taken.seriously.unless.he.lets.u.noe.end.beginning.confused. Simplicity Of My Complications;Blood-stained Bullets Missed My Head... Yet Entered My Life...
none.taken.seriously.unless.he.lets.u.noe.end.beginning.confused.