Simplicity Of My Complications: August 2006

Thursday, August 31, 2006

On Hiatus

sensitivity once,
requires twice,
thinking thrice.

true
.. and there it was,
yesterday night moments
before being debriefed
to head on the way home.
while doing a simple deployment..
adult jokes put aside,
these questions came silently and suddenly;

'where did we came from?'
'who created incurable infectious diseases'

answered by around;

'duh, of course, god.'

yup, we were 'smart'.
then came his reply;

'who created god?'

.. and a few seconds of silence by us,
working; simple-minded adults.

* highlight of the whole day i supposed.

.. i realised.
due to sensitivity or reality,
that killed the jokes being wasted.
inspired by the turn of events,
the cute metallic band, Flyleaf - Cassie
.. lyrics,

The question asked in order to save her life or take it The answer no avoided death, the answer yes would make it Make it "Do you believe in God?" written on the bullet Say yes to pull the trigger "Do you believe in God?" written on the bullet And Cassie pulls the trigger All heads are bowed in silence to remember her last sentence She answered him, knowing what would happen Her last words still hanging in the air. In the air. "Do you believe in God?" written on the bullet Say yes to pull the trigger "Do you believe in God?" written on the bullet And Rachel pulls the trigger Say yes and pull the trigger How many will die? I will say yes. And Cassie pulled the trigger "Do you believe in God?" written on the bullet And Rachel pulls the trigger "Do you believe in God?" written on the bullet And I will pull the trigger

.. please refer to this; 'Cassie Bernall'.

.. i may not be 100% religiously enriched,
.. especially with my daily prayers,
~ but i do believe in god.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
1:13 PM

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Photobooth In A Cup Of Ice Lemon Tea

guess what,
a day or two will just pass by,
as fast or slowly without being known.

ice
weather's seems pretty unpredictable.
a second it felt dry and cooling,
the next was warm and unbearably hot.
been out with the adorable other half,
for quite a couple of days or so..=)
truly never felt happier
what happens after we both turned 25?
hopefully i'll get a decent stable job.
start eating maggie mee and roti prata for meals,
apply loan; Ezy Cash from Singapore Post
hopefully and realistically
ring the wedding bells before turning 28.
or she's going to feel too old by then.
and find another Doctor K,
(refer; Siti Nurhaliza, Malaysian Recording Artiste).
now that's truly a terrible nightmare.
probably a car licence at hand.
we're the young ones by then.

happy couples have tummies
~ okok,
.. only he has the tummy, she has the abs.

august to early september.
.. 28th-3rd, a static operation,
at tanah merah ferry terminal to
deter potential protesters
away from singapore.
from batam they came,
bringng with them illegal means.
we're the first line of defence
for International Monetary Fund And World Bank Convention,
in our tiny country 2006.
enough said.

this's a dedication to all those poseurs;
emo.sceamo.all-that-crap.
here's decently nice metallic song,
plain and simple dressing's the best,
Flyleaf - I'm So Sick
* lyrics..

I will break into your thoughts With what's written on my heart I will break... You broke into my thoughts This invasion makes me feel Worthless, hopeless, sick... I'm so sick If you want more of this We can push out, sell out, die out So you'll shut up And stay sleeping, with my screaming In your itching ears I'm so sick Infected with, where I live Let me live without This empty bliss, selfishness..... Let me live.... Hear it I'm screaming it You're heeding to it now... You broke into my thoughts This invasion makes me feel Worthless, hopeless, sick... I'm so sick I'm so sick Infected with, where I live Let me live without This empty bliss, selfishness..... Let me live.... I reveal what you steal from all of us We take it back.... We take it back.... You broke into my thoughts This invasion makes me feel Worthless, hopeless, sick... I'm so sick And I heal With this story always working constant purpose And I heal I won't compromise and I heal
.. metallic bands always have this certain aura.

* before i leave..
.. few small words to be mentioned;
~ just simply in luv wif my dar-lin'a'ling.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:24 AM

Friday, August 25, 2006

An Ode To The Puffy Clouds

rainbows and sunshine
sneezes and injuries
neutral content

love
coincidentally at first sight.
find that serving the nation
in a police costume can morally change
the unobvious mindset bit by bit.
a decent sleep's all i asked.
two days' in a row of decent sleep.
close to a year more of these
routines i guess

Special Dedication To My Dear;
Aqualung - Brighter Than Sunshine
* lyrics..

I never understood before I never knew what love was for My heart was broke, my head was sore What a feeling Tied up in ancient history I didnt believe in destiny I look up you're standing next to me What a feeling What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine Brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, i don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine And it's brighter than sunshine I never saw it happening I'd given up and given in I just couldn't take the hurt again What a feeling I didn't have the strength to fight Suddenly you seemed so right Me and you What a feeling What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine It's brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, I don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine It's brighter than the sun It's brighter than the sun It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine. Love will remain a mystery But give me your hand and you will see Your heart is keeping time with me What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine It's brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, I don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine I got a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine It's brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, I don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine
.. and im yours too, dear sleepyhead of mine.

.. two beautiful months just passed.
~ i'm not counting, but what a feeling..=)

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:50 PM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Black Sunday Blues

time moves ever so slowly
when the nose is blocked
and the throat is voiceless sore..

bluek
staying at home on the second day,
of away from work,
of away from inter-reaction.
into the blissful places of boredom.
* just this little bit of light in my situation;
Cranberries - Linger
~ lyrics..

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade. I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude, It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything. I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you. So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand? Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you? But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger? Oh, I thought the world of you. I thought nothing could go wrong, But I was wrong. I was wrong. If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie, Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used, But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you. But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger? And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger? You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger?

.. just linggering around i guess,
~ such a relaxing song on such an uneventfull sunday..

.. ever felt curious,
~ on which popstar will eventually get killed due to boredom?

What stupid popstar are you destined to kill? by ragdoll
Name
Popstar	Avril Lavigne
Murder method	Torture.
Motive	Hearing "So Yesterday" one too many times.
Sentenced to	Life in prison. With parole, of course.

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Avril Lavigne killed with my bare hands?
no way, she's one of my favourite artiste!
felt curious, so then tried my darling's name though, hehe.

What stupid popstar are you destined to kill? by ragdoll
Name
Popstar	Hilary Duff
Murder method	Beating them with a bat.
Motive	You actually know the difference between fish and chicken.
Sentenced to	Community service (no one will REALLY miss them..)

Quiz created with MemeGen!

omg, Hilary Duff? she's going to kill her favourite artiste out of stress.

* this internet quizes are really coincidental sometimes.

~ dear; all the best, truly miss u.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
12:55 PM

Friday, August 18, 2006

Melted Moodiness

.. called the doctor,
who seemed so far away.
bedriddened for an apple a day.

what
happens when sickness engulfs you,
for close to a week?
everything to me feels like,
irritation right about now.
just a simple bus-trip,
and i felt tripped by old aunties' voices.
just a simple car-ride,
and i felt tired by looking outside the windscreen.
even when i'm sick;

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 6/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

* i could still do this geeky thingy when i'm sicky, amazing.

hmm..
dreaded night-shift tonight.
have to be mentaly early especially
in readiness after sleep.

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh. You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum. Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

* sacastical laugh.

my life's a black comedy?
or is it the fever's getting to me?.

* i need the power of eating fries full of cheese.

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun. You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life... Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut. To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

What Donut Are You?

* round shaped sugar coating.

.. been a long long while since;
~ i had one.
remembered there was a Dunkin Donuts near the place i lived,
close down when i was 7-8years old though.
.. a chocolate one,
~ with-lots-of-colourful-tiny-sweet-stuff-on-top-cravings.

Your Power Level is: 84%

You have all the tools you need to be a success - both professionally and personally. You'll probably go beyond reaching your goals. You'll change the world (at least a little).

How Powerful Are You?

~ it's friday,
.. the start of his dear's examinations.

~ all the best.
.. & Go Ninja Turtles Jiayou!!

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
8:55 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Hereditary Spastic Paraplegia Society

it's been three days,
two sneezes ago,
and one slight headache.

influenza

it's comming soon,
her booked-season.
chalked full of revisions.

the silent and dusty inboxes,
i'll understand,
not to worry really.

good luck with the examinations,
especially for my dear juliz.

.. found the phrase below somewhere,
~ while surfing with sleepy eyes;

* the true measure of compatibility,
.. is not the years spent together,
.. but how good,
.. we're for each other.

* solely protest to the explaination above,
^good & bad,must also be included too.

.. as bad as the blocked nose,
~ she gets each day,
^i'll be her tissue, always.

* ah choo!
~ excuse moi.
X ^content-felt J

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
6:06 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

A Love-Bug Commentary

really want to scream my thoughts,
truly want to shout it out loud,
.. nevertheless, the flu-bug strikes suddenly.

Japan
is where teriyaki chicken comes from,
.. yummy thoughts.

what i'm feeling now, is pointless & 'moodless'.

* is there such a word as 'moodless'?

.. is it fever or flu?

~ or maybe,
it's just not enough sleep.

~ or maybe,
the thoughts of you kept my mind awake.

i don't know really,
.. what i do know is that;
* my nose feels too funny to laugh.
* i rather not work today.
* kept her awake when wasn't in the mood yesterday.
* the day went passed her curfew.
* truly sorry for the 'nudge'.

speaking of the day before,
~ click*
.. caught it with my dearest,
an adam sandler production.
cineleisure-herren-shawhouse-pizza-taco
bit of humourous, bit of sentimental really.
just imagine what you do,
if you have a universal remote control.

* push of just a button.

fast-forward & back to the past of your life.
it's sad really.
because memories are moments being recalled.
just treasured my day.
.. eventhough somebody was too tired,
to say anything, just gazing upon is enough.
at least i would,
have a picture of you in my memories.

~ at times,
we all need to take a break.
from the tiredness of stress,
simply let loose and chill..

.. never in my right mind,
~ would i ever find a tint of boredom in you.

* every second-counts, eveytime's precious.

.. before and after that;
* had breakfast with the army-clerk buddy.
* had supper wih the obsessive-ninja buddy.

.. btw, ever wondered what's 'Ska'?

is'it a concept or generalisation?

it's just another genre of music really.

harmonizing around ten instruments
with no conductor is a tricky task,
and requires every member of the group
to be on the exact same wavelength.

* ten instruments.

The line between harmony and cacophony is very thin,
yet being proficient musicians.

who most likely learned to play
before taking their first steps,
it appears very easy, based on the results.

.. some relaxion for the blocked nose please.
~ who cares about pronounciation, it's the music!

Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra - Downbeat Stomp

.. we ate junkfood together,
~ we have flabby tummies,
~ a moment of happiness,
~ makes a long-lasting memory.

.. let's dance the 'skank' shall we?

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
5:37 AM

Friday, August 11, 2006

Endless Procrastination Of Sleep

.. chased a bangladeshi subject.
for half a Pasir Ris Town Park.
.. nearly lost the handcuff key in the process.

starry

before night-shift yesterday,
ate a simple dessert with my lady.

.. simply sweet of her
to personally drop by my homeground,
when she's down with the flu irritation,
of the slightly-pink nose.

* tissues.

i think i owe her alot of tissues really.
.. truly.

* happy.

i realised that we all can get injured,
from just doing the simple daily routines.

i have run before,
played 'catching'; police & thieves,
during the young kiddy times.
it's amazing i could still injure myself,
while chasing an illigal immigrant.
anuar, you need to practise your running skills.

~ just another addition to my police diary.

.. let's relax and chill
to this music video shall we..

~ a classic korean artiste: BoA - Valenti

.. hehe, cheeky me.
still, i find my girl's
.. much more adorable though..=)

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
3:37 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Five Stars Of Red-White And Cresent Tsunami

whole crowds passed by,
.. not from the inside, just the outside.
so called; singaporeans.

daisy
it so happens;
when i was about to enjoy
the day's briefing at Headquarters yesterday.
This particulier question 'mind-blocked' me.

* as happy as the national day mascot.

'er.. anuar,
did you remember to bring the call-list for the whole sub-sectors?'

truthfully,
the first phrase/word that comes out in my mind;
~~what the fuck~~
huh, that's not my duty.

and so it happens.

the relaxing and simple job was;
* to 'bodyguard' the in-charge of the external sectors.
* pick up his calls.
* relay and convey important/seems-not-so important msgs.
* exercise from one place to another.
* assist.

~ i was a 'runner'.

.. why of all me?
because the previous chickened out.
simple as that;
i somehow realised it though,
because there were times in the lockeroom
he came to me,
saying;
'hey, your job so relaxing, felt like changing with mine?'

saw that huge flag flown by helicopters

being simple minded me,
i thought it as a joke.

i just replied;
'sure, no problem call me when you faint.'

and eventually,
i had another mini-briefing on that national day
with the commanding officer.

* stress.
but, it seems enlightening really.

looking at the faces of people of different races.
stop for even a moment, a picture,
the whole system, the whole layout, the works.

even the riot buses was also pictured.

not all plans are perfect,
we never expected hundeds of people to come at close to 8pm
just to watch the fireworks.
barriers were last-minute being set up,
for a mixture of
in-coming and out-going flow of
human beings, uncles, aunties, kids, weird characters.
fireworks watchers, extras, audiences.
* it was human-jam all the way..

there were plenty of photographers,

taking pictures of children crying, etc.

trying to get that perfect moment that nobody catches.

well,
i got a perfect glimpse of the full moon btw.

those poor photographers.
a simple handphone camera can do wonders.

.. wished she was there to see that.

* the sneakiness of in-uniform,
where i secretly take photos.

it's amazing
when people come just to watch the show.
let's appreciate the beauty
of having good clean public toilets shall we.

that's the toilet sign if you look carefully.

explosions and devastations;

.. just glad there isn't any war-torn
in this expensive homeland where we live in.

to summarise it all,
missing someone doesn't require any reasons really;
Yellowcard - Only One
.. lyrics,

Broken this fragile thing now And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces And I've thrown my words all around But I can't, I can't give you a reason I feel so broken up And I give up I just want to tell you so you know Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you You are my only one I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do You are my only, my only one Made my mistakes, let you down And I can't, I can't hold on for too long Ran my whole life in the ground And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone And something's breaking up I feel like giving up I won't walk out until you know Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you You are my only one I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do You are my only, my only one Here I go so dishonestly Leave a note for you my only one And I know you can see right through me So let me go and you will find someone Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you You are my only one I let go, there's just no one, no one like you You are my only, my only one
~ well, after a simple short day perhaps,

~ she's been simply missed.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
8:42 AM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Burberry Preview In Pinkish Red

london perfumes,
british fashion.
..delicious addiction.

class of 1986

all i could say,
she looked truly marvelous in brit-pink.
an earlier half of the day spent
catching my dreams;
my bedroom felt
a bit-tinted brighter then usual.
the end of it,
was spent with my buddy;
Mr Ang Wenyong.
.. for a split-second dinner,
that army-admin-clerk; caught up with the times.
we're all getting old.

or am i dreaming?

or is it Tuesday already?

or even tomorow's national day?

.. perhaps time really does move faster,
once we're all asleep.

.. from her institution
to compass point in the southern-eastside of singapore,
in the sunny afternoon away we go.
eventhough it was a short busride,
photos candid and priceless.

i always believe..
* live each day as if,
~ it was the last.
* who knows in the future our work,
~ would prevent us from the personal time even to crap.
* all the bast in your endeavours.

* all the best singapore, my homeland.

felt a little patriotic because national day is tomorrow.

on her birthday of the 41st,
i wish the cost of living to be lowered really.
because at the expensive rate we're living now,
we must at least achieve a degree to live,
by the time i turn 41 years old
PS. i'm 20 years old at this point of typing now.

self-motivators of national day 2006

* jiayou.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
8:48 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

Empty Space Filled

a mind is a terrible thing to waste,
like a rubber can be stretched to the limit.
never will be in a proper shape.

meaning

Insanity ( n ):
A state of mind,
in which you have the inability to ask yourself
whether or not you are crazy.

sleep is wonderful,
especially if
working in the twilight of the dawn.
where the blocks around are empty,
the roads are endless,
the eyes will seem to sored to look.

..outrageous,
cases full of nonscence singaporeans,
whom jus couldn't sleep after 0300hrs.

yup,
a simplified day
or is it night?

at work.
when your intake of food is irrational,
improportionate.
to the amount of sleep you have got,
i miss KFC's Cheese Fries,
especially oily-fried
fattening foods,
where are they really?
.. haiz.
hey, it's August 2006!
hmm..
after that,

* September, October, November & December..
then it's two.zero.zero.seven.

have i done what's been expected.
or am i going to be regretted.

it really-truly rhymes,
when the times just realised
and being passed just like that.
Hope's not so flat as the HDB blocks.
( Housing Development Board )

* why can't we develop our own housing problems

instead of calling the police.
~ we all need sleep really.

* mind-blocked.

rawr

* i~mish.her.,♥

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
10:57 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

On Hiatus

thoughtfulness-heart-felt
words & phrases
is just a piece of life

end of days

seems to me,
polytechnic education is a near possiblity.
i have confidence,
eventhough it sometimes might not look as so.
just a little afraid to be dissapointed,
when faced,
with simply high expectations are worser then
going with the just the personal flow.

went there with my dear,
she could have rested at home.
could tell she's still bit sleepy.
glad she came along.
.. being the evil me,
kept chatting throughout the journey.
truthfully,
in the end,
it seems a short journey to the school really,
3 bustops from her place.
or is it 3 buses?
moments are more precious then in smses really..=)

seen my ex-councilour mates
Raudah, Mofeena and Mageswary
in the temasek area of polytechnics,
we all do change at some point of time,
eventhough it seems not realised and seen.
for the better or worse, perhaps.

in paranoia applied for;
* Diploma in Integrated Facility Design & Management
* Diploma in Business Process & Systems Engineering
* Diploma in Info-Communications

~ yup,
being academically inclined in
* Higher Nitec in Electronics Engineering

~ why would i not venture,
into the electronics/related courses?

because numbers and me don't click,
simple.
one of my dreams,
if possibe to enter in a mass-media industry.
human resource, interactive media
and working with children a bonus, etc,
we're all nonsence with ur love ones..=p!

* this blog will be on hiatus.
meaning on halt,
until the mood comes sooner or later,
.. it depends really.

The University of Blogging

Presents to
Hypokritz86

An Honorary
Bachelor of
Boredom

Majoring in
Psychotic Ranting

Signed
Dr. GoQuiz.com

Blogging Degree
From Go-Quiz.com

* hmm,
typed my 'username' into the 'username area';
"Hypokritz86"
.. and voila!
an instant,
Bachelor Honors in Bordom &
a Major in Psychotic Ranting.
ahakz.. no comments really,
of a billion-million words
that could be generated from the program,
~ i majored in 'psychotic ranting',
hehe.. 'bordom' as my Bachelor Honors?
.. what will they come out next?

* before i leave home for my night-shift,
which will be a drag..

~ dedicated to juliz:
Nick Carter - Who Needs The world
* lyrics..

I stare at your face Into your eyes Outside, there's so much passing us by All of the sounds All of the sights Over the earth And Under the sky Too much cold And too much rain Too much heartache to explain Who needs the world when I've got you Switch off the sun, the stars and the moon I've all I need inside of this room Who needs the world when I've got you I walk on the street Talk in the dark I see people, strangers, falling apart I open my arms Try to be true Seems my only truth is you Am I wrong or am I right? All I want is you tonight Who needs the world when I've got you Switch off the sun, the stars and the moon I've all I need inside of this room Who needs the world when I've got you Who needs the stars so bright? And the grass so green? And the morning light? Who needs the wind to blow And the tide to rise Who needs it? I don? know, I don? know Yeah Who needs the world when I've got you Switch off the sun, the stars and the moon I've all I need inside of this room Who needs the world when I've got you

.. i'm thankful i've got you.

~ simply heart her lotz.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
5:50 PM

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