Simplicity Of My Complications: July 2006

Monday, July 31, 2006

Spicy Thailand Sutra Of Distractions

we're all distracted in one way or another,
one of the lessons learnt.
never laugh with food particles in my mouth.

television is bad for personal knowledge

we're all eventually imperfectly ourselves.

* especially when eating with the girlfriend.
somehow, somewhere a foreign-tiny,
someting flew onto her hand.
oops, silly me.

ample sleep's good really.
taking naps are heavenly,
being late by 20 mins,
while on one much un-anticipated.
nevertheless, time spent;
* truly priceless and deliciously spicy.

thus, eventually lead,
to having tom yam and chicken noodles.
in the banquet of the ang mo kio area,
after a drizzled yet short walk
from her polytechnic institution.

hopefully,
flu nor fever
wasn't caught during that short exercise and blissful indulgence.

yup, blissful, bit crappy minor-chaotic,
but truly blissful.
i have to admit
i'm usually the crappy one, hehe.

recently been 'blog-hopping'
and found something quite enlightening..

* is it a trend nowadays for a lady to simply
just end a long relationship
just because the guy has changed for the worse in her eyes.

* for example, this was taken
from a blog which i respect the writer,
so no names shall be mentioned:

" So yeah, I took the step to end it. It's a shocker, I know coz in the eyes of others, we were the perfect and happy couple. But why end it? Simple. He's changed. Changed to the person I don't wish to be with. I fell in love with the perfect guy almost 3 years ago. The optimistic, the perfectionist, the leader, the one who could stand on his own feet, the listener, the wise man, the one who will never give up, the witty, the happy-go-lucky guy, the romantic, the one who'd treat me like a queen and everything in between. Now he's changed to a completely different person. I guess this would be the right move. To let myself focus on things more important to me like my family and my career. At the same time to let him reflect on his flaws. For now, I don't wish to commit myself into any intimate relationship. I'd leave everything to fate. I just see what the future has for me. I believe there's always something behind everything that happens. "Kalau ader jodoh, we will be together eventually." That's what I told him when we met yesterday. The rest is up to him if he wants to change back to the person I fell in love with or change for the worse. "
* And this was her second entry:

" Ending the relationship wasn't an easy one. It forced me a lot into thoughts which took days. I took the courage to take the step although I don't know what the consequences are. It has nothing to do with any airport guy or biker guy or whatever. It's between me and the guy I used to date. True enough, what I've done has its powers. It gave him the reason to reflect on his flaws. It made him realized how negative he has been towards everything. It definitely gave him a wake up call and he thanked me for that. Like they say, "Bila dah terhantuk baru sedar." He knows he hasn't been putting much effort and he wants to be the person he used to be, the person I used to adore. I'm giving him time to think and reflect. More time to change back to his old self coz I don't want him to do this just to get me back. He's learning to appreciate again. "
* Hmm..,
it's really confusing yet enlightening to read about
the complications of some random individual.

hopefully there wouldn't come a time,
when that same senario happens to me.
we're all prone to mistakes.
perfection isn't reality.

* i might change for the worse in the future,
but, i believe and
i do truly appreciate my smooth baby butt-cheeks dear.

~ enough said,
here's the link to those who multi-tasks.
semi-multi-taskers, please click here.

* a.month.&.7.days;wished-forever~more,to-last.

~ tom yam advertisment of the silly boyfriend..

* heart.her.til.pieces,
.. all'the~best.for the.presentations,ahead.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
8:04 PM

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Prelude To A Nation's Birthday

.. a day before,
a moment ago,
is as timelss as sleep.

national toothpaste advertisment
.. at the point before the picture was taken yesterday,
he had already drunk 2-3 packets of coffeeshop,
iced coffee.
minimised logical thinking,
and maximised dilusional words.
KFC: one chicken thigh,
one shrooms burger without the sauce, and whipped potato.
cold packed fastfood = low motivation
high motivation = eye candies
zombie.zombie.zombie.sleepy.
too much eye candies = boredom
10am - 12 am ( morning madness )
* fireworks seen from afar.
thousands of audiences forming queues,
asking simple yet irritation questions;
'excuse me sir, but is this the queue to the stadium?'
'may i know why is there so many people around?'
'where's the nearest toilet?'
'which exit is that bus headed'
'can i just walk there?'
'my ticket is in a coloured sector, is this bus ok?'
'how long to walk to the stadium?'
'is it ok to just walk around?
'which is better, walking or taking the free bus?'
'is there free shuttle to the stadium?'
* flow of 'kiasu' humans is enough to make a tsunami cry.
'kiasu' means asking the oblivious questions.
army personel were also deployed.
let me be more specific,
'armour infantry' and 'guards' personel.
sometimes i wonder,
do they have initiative in their brains?
or they just 'sit around',
waiting for late supervisory instructions.
maybe perhaps,
all those trainings only makes their muscles bigger.
but nevertheless,
sense of personal judgement smaller.
wish i could just say to them,
'a policed cordoned area means don't let anybody to go through'
sorry to say, too bad,
policemen can't just 'sit around' when,
they're tired at any amount of time.
* above all:
missed my dearest eye candy at work,
~ whom i'll never get tired of seeing,
.. a.k.a, juliz.
* before her facial today.
hmm..
* how smooth would her cheeks be really,
~ when it's already eye candied-smooth to begin with.
.. zzZ.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
5:49 PM

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Droplets Of Light

'growing' is one thing,
'realising' is another
.. the once young, getting old.

hearing echoes
woke up early twice.
2am plus & 4 am plus.
magnetically drawn to check inbox, bit worried bout her.
all of a sudden, dropped down with headache,
can keep someone worried, especially me.
can't help it really.
being free, i sat in my room,
thought about lots of things,
sometimes the rigid mind can travel further
then it's suppose to be thinking.
gladly in the end,
she was feeling fine in silent mode.
anuar, you can be so paranoid.
hehe=)

here's chill-out for someone who's free,
relax and enjoy: A*Teens - Firefly
*lyrics..

When I said go I never meant away You ought to know the freaky games we play could you forgive and learn how to forget hear me as I'm calling out your name Firefly come back to me make the night as bright as day I'll be looking out for you tell me that your lonely too firefly come lead me on follow you into the sun that's the way it ought to be firefly come back to me You and me we shared a mistery we were so close like honey to the bee And if you tell me how to make you understand I'm minor in a major kinda way Firefly come back to me make the night as bright as day I'll be looking out for you tell me that your lonely too firefly come lead me on follow you into the sun that's the way it ought to be firefly come back to me Fly firefly through the sky come and play with my desire don't be long don't ask why I can't wait another night

.. just missing alot of people,
including long-lost buddies.
~ secondary, npcc, tertiary, sc.

*not to mention,
~ my preoccupied someone somewhere=p!

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
6:35 PM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Coconut Juice

every moment,
is as priceless,
as yogurt ice-cream in the hot sun.

adorable silly donkey
the perfect scene,
with a beautiful lady.
bit of bad luck,
with the missing light-button,
of her blue timepiece.
'dont worry be happy',
was the moral of the story.
a day spent with movie and food.
plus a good walk,
careless attempt to cross a buzy junction
near the evening fountain of health.
~ that was a bit rash, i'm really sorry.
could have lost a life or both,
hers epecially, my one dear responsibility.
guess never gona attempt again, walks are good.
'just my luck' was the show being seen,
good luck falls or bad luck strikes,
nah, hmm..
still the same,
it's up to the individual to hope
and believe in what happens next.
so is it 'Karma',
or just plain dumb luck for us to have,
met.. til-today.
no matter how much I wonder, no one truly knows,
but it's truly cherished.

* i luv my stripy shirt!!

~ nice.days.are.kept.sweet.short.simple.

* jiayou,dear.juliz.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:17 PM

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Butterflies ♥inside

healthy yet it's an emergency!!
the expiry date lasted after 30 days.
poisoned by unknown content maybe by a veggie hater.

i need an ambulance

keeping.it.simple
she makes my hearbeat-a-boom-boom.

even if, i won free tissues for life,
i would give that all up for her.

* .happy
.one.month
.thirty.days
.seven.hundred.and.twenty.hours
.forty.three.thousand.two.hundred.minutes
.two.million.five.hundred.and.ninety.two.thousand.seconds
.since.the.day
.this.crappy.shy.guy.asked;
.her.the.bonus.question..

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back. In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so. You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

.. 'yes', she answered that faithfull day,
then she said 'yes' again, yay=p!
*er..im.such.the.unromantic.kinda.fella.
.. who.goes.round.and.around.the.bush.
.. til.the.truth.
-silly me, adorable her.

~ wana be with u forever,
.. if tomorow's not too late.

*all those times,
when i was being over-crappy, sorry.

special dedicational: Hilary Duff - The Beat Of My Heart
* lyrics..

To the beat of my, To the beat of my , To the beat of my heart I'm thinking about, Letting it out, I wanna give in, I wanna go out, I'm looking around, I finally found, The rhythm of love, The feeling of sound, It's making a change, The feeling is strange, Its coming right back, right back in my range, Not worried about, anything else, I'm waking up, To the beat of my, To the beat of my, To the beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, It tears us apart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, Now I'm back to the start, To the beat of my, To the beat of my, To the beat of my heart, I'm up from my down, I turn it around, But making it back, I'm not gonna drown, I'm taking a stance, I won't miss a chance, I want you to see, I'm not scared to dance, The way that you feel, Could never be real, I want you know I finished the deal, So I'm saying to you, I'll always be true, To the rhythm inside, To the beat of my, To the beat of my, To the beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, It tears us apart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, Now I'm back to the start, To the beat of my, To the beat of my, To the beat of my heart, Away away Away away Away away Away away Away away Away away Away away To the beat of my, To the beat of my heart, Away away Away away To the beat of my, To the beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, It tears us apart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, Now I'm back to the start, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, It tears us apart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, The beat of my heart, Now I'm back to the start, To the beat of my, To the beat of my, To the beat of my heart, Away away, Away away, Away away, Away away.

.. now that's alot of heartbeats=p!

.^.dear.juliana,

'i'll always ♥ u.'

.frm.anuar*

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
12:27 AM

Sunday, July 23, 2006

As The Weekend Fades

each time i doubt,
i rather would feel.
cos doubting fades the future.

happy
won.movie.passes.from.a.simple.game
fetching.his.loved.one.two.nights.in.a.row
watch.'Recycle'.with.his.army.buddies.
*to her:
~ have confidence we both can make it
~ don't worry so much
~ lurb u to pieces

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
5:34 PM

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Pardon The Ride

Suitcases of suits.
cases of her super,
.. is just plain evil.

MRT tracks
.. Fridae was yesterday, granted a leave from work.
if it wasn't for that leave,
i would still be sleeping soundly by now, Nite-Shift is such a drag.
spent motionless moments yesterday,
free, so volunteered to fetch my buzy lady,
she's feeling down lately so just felt like being there somehow.
now then i noe that the orchard road station's
surrounding closes at 2200hrs,
the streamline of people that move in and out heading home.
the tired faces,
life still goes on after anything closes perhaps,
i was dreaming,
but just observing the surroundings as the twilight dawns every minute.
truly looks like an old black-white movie.
just sitting there in my 'national service' time
when im supposed to be dreadfully buzy.
moments-priceless really.

Classic video: Alanis Morissette - Ironic
~ lyrics..

An old man turned ninety-eight He won the lottery and died the next day It's a black fly in your Chardonnay It's a death row pardon two minutes too late Isn't it ironic, don't you think It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought, it figures Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye He waited his whole damned life to take that flight And as the plane crashed down he thought "Well isn't this nice" And isn't it ironic...don't you think It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought, it figures Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you When you think everything's okay and everything's going right And life has a funny way of helping you out when You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face A traffic jam when you're already late A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife It's meeting the man of my dreams And then meeting his beautiful wife And isn't it ironic, don't you think A little too ironic, and yeah I really do think It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought, it figures Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out Helping you out

.. who wouldn't have thought im that free..=)

~ so go figure,
stop reading and dial my number,
for somebody misses his dear's voice ironically by now..

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
10:30 AM

Friday, July 21, 2006

Statistics Apart From This

weather's been fine today,
yet somebody's feeling blue.
specially for u.

no doubt
.. have you ever felt,
what if you could change just one moment,
in your past,
that very first mistake, that first junction,
that initial procrastination;
when you were 'gullible',
smart enough, not notice your better judgement.
yup, i do have those feelings,
there're some stuff which i do regret..
but, after a long while u tend to forget, the more u regret,
the more u will forget the finest things in life.
grass is greener on the other side?
or isit after u have seen the grass at this side,
then only u would noe,
whether to stay behind or find greener grass.
.. and anyways, why must the grass always be green..?
we're free to choose what colours we want in our grasses,
pink grass perhaps..?
or blue.
right bout now i wouldnt want to change
that moment/moments which happened in my life.
.. just have take it a step at a time,
on the pinkish or greenish grasses, perhaps on sharp stones.

here's to lighten up the mood,
Torn - Natalie Imbruglia

press *pause* at the bottom of this page before playin the video.

~ lyrics..

I thought I saw a man brought to life He was warm He came around And he was dignified He showed me what it was to cry Well you couldn't be that man I adored You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for But I don't know him anymore There's nothing where he used to lie My conversation has run dry That's whats going on, nothing's fine I'm torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn You're a little late, I'm already torn So I guess the fortune teller's right Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light To crawl beneath my veins and now I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn You're a little late, I'm already torn. Torn. There's nothing where he used to lie My inspiration has run dry That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor You're a little late, I'm already torn.

Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas

You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept. You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking. You should major in: Natural sciences Computer science Creative writing Math Architecture Journalism

What Should You Major In?

hmm..
if ever i could change my past at any point,
would just be a dream from reality..

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

~ do lighten up, & be positive.

~ or i wouldn't have ever thought of met
sombody as dearest as you..=)

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
6:32 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Senseless Daylights And Headlights

.. no comments.
no comments?
.no comments ..

fade to black
at the point of typin this,
my mind's 3 quarters asleep.
well, firstly,.. today.
is wednesday, and surprisingly its wednesday.
slept and got distracted till i arrived,
bout 5mins late for my 'final theory' test
for a vehicle of a car.
which i had maybe failed for two-three times
each time, a month of waiting.
yup, i 'passed' the computer pressing thingy today.
passed as in i never expected to passed
last-minute blues maybe.
well, miracles do happen..
such as spending a moment with her.
the dear of mine who's probably still doing
her statistics revision thingy.
took a sneak peek,
ok, it was more then a sneak peak at her stuff.
that 'probability' thingy, its hard.
i mean, do 'maths' really gets used in real life?
you either have to be street-smart or book-smart,
to get ahead in life right?
but maths,
i thought there's computer programs,
to solve any calculations in accounts.
then why must there be
such difficult equations created for students?
personally i was never a math whizz,
im a of a 'describer' then a calculator.
so, seeing my dear with her stuff,
she have my moral and immoral support.
~ go juliz!!
wednesday.
let me emphasis again,
it was a wednesday that i spent cherished time with her.
Now, after finally getting a 'pass' in 'F-theory',
next comes the lessons, the accidents, the etc.
the license trip..

we have similar eyebags,
so who's relaxin?
.. *jiayou*.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
9:58 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Paper Heart Stitches

.. time ticks so dripping slowly,
a drop, each moment.
.. without her.

that would never happen
.. in the first place,
i've already said before
bloggin isnt my cup of tea, and tea isnt my forte.
im crappin usually on anythin that comes to mind.
work, is full of domestic issues lately,
wish a video could be seen how a husband fights with his wife.
tragic, really.. who am i to say.

no relationship is ever perfect,
.. bound to have something explode sooner or later.
im so scared to lose u if that ever happens.
.. back to the husband and wife scenario..

~ from the wife's point of view:

* he lets the daughter skips religious classes.
* he's a husband who never listens.
* he's a loose cannon.
* he goes out and seldom comes home.

~ from the husband's point of view:

* family councelin doesnt help cos she's stubborn.
* she always listens to wateva her sister says.
* she's the one who wants the divorce.
* my son even pushes me in front of her.
* she never wants to sit down to listen.
* i cant take her screams anymore.
* bills and credits are rising.

.. both married for 18 years,
with a teenage son and a young daughter.
even after interviewing both parties,
cant help but feeling,
both of them are wrong in a way.
maybe kinda right of mind in a way too.

i mean, when u're angry,
everything in the world seems to revolve around you.
no one can really sit down when that happens.

.. thought bout my sweet dear whos busy with her stuff now.
if both of us were to be really angry,
at some point of time in the future,
make a huge mistake or something worse,
like the ones in the picture before.
i hope that, either one of us will realise the whole situation,
and for a split second, stop to listen.

* press 'pause' at the bottom of the page,
before clicking on the video. Puddle Of Mudd - Blurry
~ the lyrics..

Everything's so blurry and everyone's so fake and everybody's empty and everything is so messed up pre-occupied without you I cannot live at all My whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl You could be my someone you could be my scene you know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene I wonder what you're doing imagine where you are there's oceans in between us but that's not very far Can you take it all away can you take it all away well ya shoved it in my face this pain you gave to me Can you take it all away can you take it all away well ya shoved it my face Everyone is changing there's no one left that's real to make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all my whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl You could be my someone you could be my scene you know that i will save you from all of the unclean I wonder what you're doing I wonder where you are There's oceans in between us but that's not very far [Chorus] Nobody told me what you thought nobody told me what to say everyone showed you where to turn told you when to runaway nobody told you where to hide nobody told you what to say everyone showed you where to turn showed you when to runaway [Chorus] This pain you gave to me You take it all You take it all away... This pain you gave to me You take it all away This pain you gave to me Take it all away This pain you gave to me

.. pain is when somebody can use,
the exactly the same amount of time,
to simply dial my number,
instead of readin all these in the first place..=)

~ missed the pieces of you.
.. whereva she may be.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
7:17 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006

Dedication Affirmation

one + one = window
how long the scenery lasts,
just have to depend on both of us.

wishes
~ a couple of days ago
felt uninspired,
this are just some simple words.
.. press * pause * at the bottom of the page,
before clicking on the video.

Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need. I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do.. I will be strong I will be faithful cause I'm counting on A new beginning. A reason for living. A deeper meaning. I want to stand with you on a mountain. I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever. Until the sky falls down on me... And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky, I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry.. the tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty that we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of.. the highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you.. I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever, Until the sky falls down on me... Oh can't you see it baby? You don't have to close your eyes Cause it's standing right before you. All that you need will surely come... I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope I'll be your love be everything that you need. I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do... I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever, Until the sky falls down on me... I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever, Until the sky falls down on me...

~ for juliz.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
1:41 AM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

On Hiatus

wont be typing till the mood comes,
thanks for the realisation,
sense of humour & seriousness wanted.

static whereabouts
'on hiatus' means 'on halt',
means i wont be typin for a while..
so if anybody comes to read this,
just relax, sit back
and enjoy the songs on my player ok?
.. today in history..
weird, but truly first time in history;
somebody dear & close to me
wished that i would be funny=p!
usually for the past years i'm alive,
a single act of trying to liven up
the the matured & serious crowd,
.. comments given were;
*just grow up ok.
*your thoughts are so childish.
*underaged kid.
*stop saying those stupid stuff can.
*stop being a punk.
*stay serious.
*what were you thinking.
*don't want to hear your craps.
*there isnt any sense in your words.
*nonscence kid.
.. shant tell who the culprits tho,
*don't 'catch balls' of that words.
.. i guess for the past few years,
i had been schooling in a school
where my mates were older then me,
a serious CCA stuck with resposibilities and stress.
a working atmosphere that's rigid and full of expectations.
i think i might,
maybe i'hv turned to
someone im always scared to become, yet turned to,
'the boring me', 'the lame me' & 'geeky me'.
shit, that's scary.
if my x-vice president of student council, were here now,
i wana say this to her, 'true' wat u said ok,
there will come a time when
i have to think twice about the words i say
a time when i would noe how
u feel like being 20 then.
ahakz, fancy i once asked my vp,
how did she felt being 20,
when i was only 17+ close to 18 then.
someone who takes constructive criticisms
change a step at a time, might be irriversible i guess..
nowadays i can't help it,
but to think twice to voice an opinion, or etc.
where are my buddies,
stuck in their weekdays' dosage of army.
im so feeling crappy,
due to lack of sleep i guess=)
~ had a great day.
don't feel like bloggin for now for a while,..
maybe the time will come,
when i feel like typin the whatevers & etc..
enuff's said.
.. here's the lyrics to 'Pink' - 'Who Knew'

You took my hand You showed me how You promised me you'd be around Uh huh That's right I took your words And I believed In everything You said to me Yeah huh That's right If someone said three years from now You'd be long gone I'd stand up and punch them out Cause they're all wrong I know better Cause you said forever And ever Who knew Remember when we were such fools And so convinced and just too cool Oh no No no I wish I could touch you again I wish I could still call you friend I'd give anything When someone said count your blessings now For they're long gone I guess I just didn't know how I was all wrong They knew better Still you said forever And ever Who knew Yeah yeah I'll keep you locked in my head Until we meet again Until we Until we meet again And I won't forget you my friend What happened If someone said three years from now You'd be long gone I'd stand up and punch them out Cause they're all wrong and That last kiss I'll cherish Until we meet again And time makes It harder I wish I could remember But I keep Your memory You visit me in my sleep My darling Who knew My darling My darling Who knew My darling I miss you My darling Who knew Who knew
~ 3 letters: f.u.n

~ 3 words: i <3 u.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
12:27 AM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Letters To Numbers

15th July 2006, NE show.
29th July 2006, Preview show.
9th August 2006, Actual show.

to ashes
*dont feel like typin much.
*sowie kehin,
couldnt mit up wif the rest this weekend for moovies.
*have National Education Pre-National Day celebrations,
at road junction/ kallang mrt duty at the Kallang Stadium this Sat.
*no mood, no mood,no mood.
*miss ya.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
8:07 PM

Monday, July 10, 2006

Aftermath Of The Cup Of the World Of FIFA 2006

the rounder the ball,
the further it can travel,
.. in another 4 years time, i'll be 24..

German's Territory, France's Sorry, Italy's Victory
everybody's talking bout the worldcup for the past 24 hrs
i mean, what about the world cup really..?
to some its just a game.
to some its just a get-rich-quick scheme of bets.
to some its just something to look really foward to.
life isnt bout soccer,
and soccer isnt bout life really.
fancy me, talking bout it only now..
when i worked nite shift last nite,
hehe,the partner and me planned our breaktime
to be as the same timming as the finals..
2am-4.30am, okie, we stayed for our break longer then usual,
who cares, its the finals.
okok, i admit im not a soccer pro,
but looking at the game last night
made me realised that 4yrs-once
is quite a long time to wait for the world cup.
the atmosphere was fanatic,
did i mentioned that th rest of my colleagues were there too..?
hehe, all watching the match shown on the tv in the workplace.
why must it be 4yrs? couldnt it be 2yrs?
i feel old by then really at the end of the celebrations..
italy won, france lost,
to draw of 1-1 then penalty shootout,..
so remember these names to date in history..
Fabien Barthez, France's Goalkeeper who missed a crucial penalty.
Gianluigi Buffon, Italy's Goalkeeper who blocked all shootouts.
Zinedine Zidane, France's Captain who received a red card.
Fabio Cannavaro, Italy's Captain of the 2006 champions.
you might never see them after today on live broadcast.
you might never see them after 4yrs,
but instead i did saw her for 4 hrs.
and, the feeling was even better then winning any trophy.
its kinda short yet swit really, i was the sleepy one.
apparently i cant disguised the fact that,
i didnt slept at all,
after i reach home from my shift.
i actually arrived early and forced to rest early, wat a day really=p!
now that kinda rhymes, hehe..=)
since im in a rhymin mood, a few words before i go..
day's been blue-grey,
and she's been away,
she's ok i hope,
wateva goes, i shall have to cope.
hmm.. i think,
need a soap to clean up my rhymes,
somehow the words sounds unbalanced..
who cares, im free to type wateva i wan in here, yahoo!
i simply luv my sweet-smellin dear!
~ zzZ..

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:17 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

A Dozen And Two Days Later

2 weeks & still *heart* her.
since she isn't here,
.. he'd 'copy & paste' the words.

No Use For A Name - For Fiona
I can't even think of words to match the way I'm feeling I don't even think a book could say enough for you I can only try my best, to put it in a song I guess You try to speak, I know you tell the truth If I could freeze a small amount of time together Then we could make believe this world would never end Unfortunately truth is cold So you stay young while I get old But always know, I'm your best friend Nothing is the same Everything is a better change Sometimes I see silence in your eyes Let it all crash down When it ends it begins with you I'm gonna learn every time you do And I'm as scared as anybody who has done this I wouldn't give it up for nothing, FiJu You took my life, turned it around And put my feet back on the ground I owe you, eternally Nothing is the same Everything is a better change Sometimes I see silence in your eyes Let it all crash down When it ends it begins with you I'm gonna learn every time you do I'm always I'm always I'm always here I'm always I'm always I'm always here Nothing is the same Everything is a better change Sometimes I see silence in your eyes Let it all crash down When it ends it begins with you I'm gonna learn every time you do

~ .. for julia~~fio~~na.
PS. to hear,
scroll to the bottom.
.. zZz..Zzz.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
2:02 PM

.. truthfully speaking,
i can't sleep, why i cant sleep, need to sleep..
my mind's running overtime..

running spaces and paces
*beep! *beep! *beep!
before i say someting,
let's hope the air around me is neutral first..
ok, what me wana sae is,
firstly..
my handphone dropped a record breaking 13 times,
while waking up, then, going back to sleep,
while keeping it in the locker,
while msging, while eating, while.. etc.
this morning i woke up 4 times..
4.15 am, 4.35 am, 4.50 am, 5.15 am.
how i remembered, after wakin up,
was setting alarm to sleep again
to wake up the next possible earliest time.
and its not weird,
because i have to leave my home latest by 5.45am
or i'll be late,
dead late.. by 15mins. ( 7.15am )
being late has his consequences,
* such as, 'you late ?'
* such as, 'those shocking looks.'
* such as, 'it's ok anuar, i did your job already.'
this's gona be a weird kinda blog entry.
how's does it feels to miss someone truly?
at first i expect myself to be totally so emotional
at the thought of not seeing her,
but no, that didnt happened, and it feels very weird..
true, i missed you, & its true, i understood you,
so those secondary-school-distracted
feelings of constant thinking of someone have changed,
felt to perhaps to change to those of understanding I guess.
ahakz, what the hell did i type just now.
~ felt light-headed today..
light-headed as in i feel so 'not-conservative' self.
to my, friends, colleagues today,
i say/answered what i truly felt today..
luckily nobody ask me an inquizitive question today,
( how, felt, given any thought )
* phew.., such as, anuar, how do u feel bout food?
~ i could perhaps tell you A - Z bout food.
.. and plus, many other private unanswered questions
which i mostly
kept to myself cos nobody asked specifically.
.. simply lurb her.
Zzz soon..

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
1:58 AM

Friday, July 07, 2006

Books Have Words And Pictures

..pictures of you in my heart,
is fine enough without us meeting,
for a neverending story.

Nine Days - If I Am
*press 'pause' at the bottom of this page first.

Oops!
just realised i'm supposed to start exercising,
somehow the thought seems tiring..=)
nevertheless, next time sounds like a good timing..=p!
9 days, 8 days, 7 days, later..
would be the start of a new working scedule due to NDP..
well, she has her scedules, and i'hv mine
* have to respect her flexiblity.
~ absolutely story of us.
luv &..missed.
shall we go for swim after all this?
okok, i noe 'Zero' swimming,
just a walk by the beach ok?

You Should Be A Poet

You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways. And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery... Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever. You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Your Emoticon is Cool

You're not feeling particularly up or down, just relaxed and calm. You're ready for whatever is going to happen next!

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

You Are a Bloody Mary

You're a fairly serious drinker, who's experimented a lot with different drinks. You're a drunk, but a stable drunk. You don't ever let your drinking get out of control.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

*hmm.. feeling drunk, cool & poetrical today.
anybody wana be drunk by my cool poems?
~ hehe.
.. Lyrics:
So you're standing on a ledge It looks like you might fall So far down Or maybe you were thinking about jumping Now you could have it all If you learned a little patience For though I cannot fly I'm not content to crawl So give me a little credit Have in me a little faith I want to be with you forever If tomorrow's not too late But it's always too late when you've got nothing So you say But you should never let the sun set on tomorrow Before the sun rises today If I am Another waste of everything you dreamed of I will let you down If I am Only here to watch as you suffer I will let you down So you're walking on the edge And you wait your turn to fall But you're so far gone That you don't see the hands upheld to catch you And you could find the fault In the heart that you've been handed! For though you cannot fly You're not content to crawl But it's always too late when you've got nothing So you say But you should never let the sun set on tomorrow Before the sun rises today If I am Another waste of everything you dreamed of I will let you down If I am Only here to as watch you suffer I will let you down So you're standing on a ledge It looks like you might fall If I am Another waste of everything you dreamed of I will let you down If I am Only here to as watch you suffer I will let you down The answers we find Are never what we had in mind So we make it up as we go along I won't mention tomorrow And we won't make those promises that we can't keep... I will never leave you I will never let you down I will never leave you I will never let you down
.. i'll try to nver let ya down.
~ zzZ.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
3:12 PM

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Skies and Clouds

.. a sleepless night,
.. a silent twilight,
.. headless like a stringless kite.

blank.dreams.blank.thoughts
Some Random Calculations Found Somewhere..

aBout him,

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Anuar Bin Othman!

If you drop Anuar Bin Othman from more than three metres above ground level, he will always land feet-first!
Twenty-eight percent of Microsoft's employees are Anuar Bin Othman.
Anuar Bin Othman can be very poisonous if injected intravenously!
The first domain name ever registered was Anuar Bin Othman.com.
Anuar Bin Othman can pollinate up to six times more efficiently than the honeybee!
There is actually no danger in swimming right after you eat Anuar Bin Othman, though it may feel uncomfortable!
The Church of Scientology was founded in 1953, at Washington D.C., by Anuar Bin Othman.
Anuar Bin Othman was originally green, and actually contained cocaine!
In the 1600s, tobacco was frequently prescribed to treat headaches, bad breath and Anuar Bin Othman.
If you keep a goldfish in a dark room, it will eventually turn into Anuar Bin Othman.

~ random-thoughts that appeared; ...

* why does time seems to be moving slower,
when it's being calculated?
* why does when I have enough sleep,
there's always this feeling of laziness at the start of work?
* why does Macdonals', KFC, Burger King, Long John Silvers,
always feels like buffet when im not eating?
* why does my HP battery died,
just as when my sweet dear drops a line once in a blue moon?
* why does when I do have ample sleep before work,
the workload seems too easy,
even lesser then im actually mentally prepared for?
* why do expected things become unexpected,
and unexpected stuff becomes reality?
* why does two cans of Nescafe Mocha,
couldn't give me that caffeined feeling?
* why can't I stop thinking of you,
when I noe you're somewhere out there having fun?
* why does bus journeys seems longer,
when I'm feeling drowsy or sleepy?

aBout her,

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Juliana Bte Johari!

Forty percent of the world's almonds and twenty percent of the world's peanuts are used in the manufacture of Juliana Bte Johari!
The average human spends about 30 days during their life in Juliana Bte Johari!
By tradition, a girl standing under Juliana Bte Johari cannot refuse to be kissed by anyone who claims the privilege.
Juliana Bte Johari cannot be detected by infrared cameras!
It is bad luck to walk under Juliana Bte Johari.
You should always open Juliana Bte Johari at least an hour before drinking her.
Devoid of her cells and proteins, Juliana Bte Johari has the same chemical makeup as sea water.
It's bad luck to put Juliana Bte Johari on a bed.
A rhinoceros horn is made from compacted Juliana Bte Johari!
The Asteroid Belt between Mars and Jupiter is made entirely of Juliana Bte Johari.

* why can't I just sleep when I'm closing my eyes?
* why does being poetrical,
suddenly feels so sacastical?
* why does when i wake up early at 0435hrs,
i get distracted and arrive late to work?
* why does I truly feels she doesn't have a tummy,
she's stressed she does?
* why do I ask why still?
* why is my buddy in hospital now,
when he doesn't even remember being brought there?
* why is 'mind over body' a dangerous perception?
* why does that lead to 'Brain Inflamation'?
* why do I have so many songs,
in my blogspot playlist?
* why do I feel like i'm floating when i'm walking?
* why do I have so many random thoughts right now,
when i'm supposed have no problems?

aBout them being together,

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Anuar and Juliana being together!

When provoked, Anuar and Juliana being together will swivel the tip of their abdomen and shoot a jet of boiling chemicals at their attacker.
Michelangelo finished his great statue of Anuar and Juliana being together in 1504, after eighteen months work.
Anuar and Juliana being together are physically incapable of sticking their tongue out.
Some people in Malaysia bathe their babies in beer to protect them from Anuar and Juliana being together!
Scientists believe that Anuar and Juliana being together began billions of years ago as an enormous ball of dust and gas.
A female ferret will die if it goes into heat and cannot find Anuar and Juliana being together.
Anuar and Juliana being together can pollinate up to six times more efficiently than the honeybee!
If Anuar and Juliana being together were life size, they would stand 7 ft 2 inches tall and have a neck twice the size of a human.
Anuar and Juliana being together can squeeze their entire body through a hole the size of their beak!
More people are killed by Anuar and Juliana being together each year than die in aeroplane accidents.

..enough's been said and somehow been calculated=)
* you've always been beautiful to my eyes,
my adorable missed juliz.
... Zzz.
Music Video 'Unfaithful' by 'Rihanna'
*press the 'pause' button at the bottom page first.

*is this meant as flirty-flirty?
~ hmm/..=p!

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
4:23 PM

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Unrelated

i miss, those nights,
i fear, those days,
for when my sweet dreams to turn nightmares.

i miss my boo..
hmm..
it's night-shift-today..

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
2:14 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

Superficial Survival

*punches* *kicks*
*kicks* *punches*
take That And That!!

no more moodiness
*woke up today with alot of energy.
figured i better change my outlook on life.
So much energy,
until mind's kinda blank on what to say really.
~ *heart* u.

*surprise* *surprise*
*spent some cherished moments with her
hehe, two days in a row, yahoo..
my dear flexible muscular lady..
hehe, since it's kinda free speech in my bloggy,
feel like saying something bout my dear,
she's really kinda strong:
*physically, especially with her school bags,
2.5kg laptop +
( 3 x 250grams of various books & various papers ) +
Miscellaneous items, ( pencil box, tissues, N3230 hp ) +
sporty water bottle + maybe umbrella =
to me, bout 4 to 5 kg.
imagine each day
she carries this kinda weight to school and back..
*Salutations to her*
*she's also mentally strong,
juggling with partime sales, projects,
various assignments and..,
my miscellanous craps=)
*walking around is her so-called exercise.
*watching tv till she sleeps.
*having meals also according to her moods and late timing.
*i wonder sometimes,
whether she's living a healthy or unhealthy lifestyle,
maybe both.
*still one thing, is truly mysterious,
is that her hair still smelled nice at anytime of the day!!
*i asked, and she said shampoo.
*never mind,
i must investigate this mysterious sweet-smelling of hers.
*is it because of her lifestyle..?
hmm..
a never-ending mystery i guess.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
11:46 AM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Being A Happy Punk

trigger-happy,
is like a shot to the mind.
*moshmoshmoshmosh*

Album: The Longest Line, Artist: NOFX, Release date: 04/01/1992
*it's time to hear this.
*When times are bad.
*Old-skool PunK!!
*simply scroll to the bottom of this page.
*press 'pause'.
*Select: NOFX-The Longest Line
*the Lyrics below..

In the darkest tunnel, it's nice to see a light, Not just a headlight, Like the one that's heading right for me. It would be nice if things could turn out right, Turn out right yeah, Don't think I'll ever see the day. I must have done something wrong, Or maybe pissed off God. I think of Chinese food when I think of life, That's sweet and sour, My life is sweet as saccharine. You know 3 week old milk and grapes are not, Not the same, No, I am the one Johnny Carcinogen. I must have fucked with some witch, In turn she cursed me, cursed my life. At the end of the longest line, That's where I will always be, If you need to find me, just go to, The end of the longest line. But officer that was a yellow light, The light was red, son, Insubordination, reckless driving, I must be wrong, this can't be right, I don't belong, this world is much to dangerous, For someone lacking luck, like me. At the end of the longest line, That's where I will always be, If you need to find me, just go to, The end of the longest line. At the end of the longest line, That's where I will always be, At the end of the longest, line.

*can't wait to meet up today.
*been a week of queueing in the longest line.

.. =)

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
5:06 PM

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Silly Smileys

my friends or my dear,
.. my dear or my friends?
no one's ever perfect in managing time, especially me.
individuality
and truly sorry, she fell deep asleep.

.. with guilt, he took a shot straight to da head close to da same time of..
1:50 AM

~~Simplicity Of My Complications~~;~~Blood-stained Bullets Missed My Head... Yet Entered My Life...~~
none.taken.seriously.unless.he.lets.u.noe.end.beginning.confused. Simplicity Of My Complications;Blood-stained Bullets Missed My Head... Yet Entered My Life...
none.taken.seriously.unless.he.lets.u.noe.end.beginning.confused.

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